Maj's blog: "life"

we were waiting to see if the tree was gonna catch or not. but i think its is a cool pic! this is me an one of the guys on the crew! man it was hot standing there lol Hot!! view of the moon first thing in the morning before leaving for work!

ok i do notice people are checking out my blogs but wondering do u even read em??? an how come no one ever lets me know what they think of the random shit i post inputs would be nice u guys come on show the love damn it....

omfg what the fuck is wrong with fucken guys for fuck sakes grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr ugh i dont even know what to fricken say im soooo fricken mad an if ur actually reading this then yea u know im mad for the simple reason im swearing like there isnt a fucken 2morrow grrrrr ahhhhhhhhhhhh fucken idiots......jezzzzz what the fuck is the point on fighting with some one just cause they dont wanna give u a pic ,, then starts freaking out on u for it an so on like really WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!! grrrrrrr if just never fucken ends now does it .... over the smallest an stupidest shit tooo ....

yay today is gonna be a great day i can feel it an it makes me soooo dang happy finaly lol,, going back to work in a couple days will keep me busy in the freezing cold lol .. also wanna say ty to the people that showed me some love in this tuff month.. its life we all deal hehe talked to a friend last night from the states well a couple of em yay an now planning a trip to kentucky then to georgia lol woohoo its gonna be hella fun the one im gonna see in kentucky is coolkat a great friend of mine then libbi an dave in georgia im happy ... this will be fun not sure when its gonna happen yet but yea...

with so much going on now im so not sure what to do i really feel like a zombie like i cant feel anymore before all this i was happy really really happy , now i just so dont feel like as up to beat im sleeping lots an have almost next to none emotion!!! i remember growng u i was really unhappy all my friends kept passing away an now once again it just never ends outta all the friends ive had growing up i have like a hand full left... an none of us live anywhere near each other..its pretty sad my mom has a scrap book going for me since i was 12 of all the friends that i have lost..it really really dampers a person... ive had no emotion with this my gpa i push that away so i didnt have to deal with it!! an now scott an cory like what the shit is going on here already, talked to my bestfriend last night jo an me an her have agreed we are taking off we are flying to our island an never returning untill this horrible dream comes to an end once an for all.... neither one of us believes this shit..like how an why,an why is it always the best ones too huh... how bout god leaving some of the amazing people here instead of taken em all the @#$%^&..... i know at some point it will all pass but not being able to say goodbye..... i feel empty an cold like there is nothing going to change this all... the dark emptyness is surey taking over i dont know what to say just needed to type some i think im sorry i guess this is life an well we have to deal or we dont survive!!!!!

well this could very well be one of the worst months ever this year... my gpa passed away an then a week later my good friend cory hung him self an another good friends dad passed away.. we got snowed outta of work, was stuck on the fire block cause of the weather had to wait till it was safe enuff to ly outta there the heli was draging the net on trees an the highway, had trees all around me candling up an the heli had to drop water like near me i was pulled away from the area i was working on so the heli could do air work lol good times lol now at home waiting im home for a few days till i go back out in the freezing cold snowy bush lol well just wanted to try this blog thing ....