Vicious Mistress's blog: "My Poetry"

the truth is we hide so we can be found we walk away to see who will follow we cry to see who will wipe a way our tears & we get our hearts broken to see who will come and fix them.

i fell down again but i can't complain another false step could drive me insane i only got myself here to blame.

I don't think I'll recover I don't think I'll return You took my heart, broke it in two Then made me watch it burn I'm really on my own now I feel so all alone I get that sinking feeling I won't be coming home

Not Listening When you talk to me All i want to do is stick My fingers in my ears and yell, "NOT LISTENING!" I know all you do is tell me sugar coated lies - Can't you take a hint? This is me ignoring you, Not Listening. Why don't you just shut that big mouth of yours? I'm tired of hearing it. Just leave me alone 'Cause I'm not listening This is your last warning Because I will no longer waste my precious time to tell you, "Shut your mouth and back away." I'm not listening to your lousy excuses anymore!

Without You When i look into your eyes All i see are you hundreds of lies You've made me cry And feel like i wanted to die Without you I don't know what I'm going to do I'll go on and live my life Instead of going for that sharp bladed knife Eventually you'll be forgotten For making me feel so rotten I hate you for what you've done This relationship should have never begun I hope your happy now I bet this is a slap in your face, POW! I know what i'm going to do Without you Let you go cry Because this is how i say good-bye

Because Of You... Everday you pressure me to do what's right When all you can do is show me what not to do You gripe and complain about me every night When all I did was learn if from watching you How dare you yell at me for your mistake Can't you see, all you're doing is pushing me away Pain I feel because of you makes me ache I put on a good show like I'm really okay You treated me so bad and i never knew why What did i ever do that was so bad I cried myself asleep, because you made me want to die Your nothing to me now except a deadbeat dad I hope your happy now, look at what you've done This night'll be my last, thanks to your gun by me

Why Did You Go? Why did you go? When i needed someone the most Why did you go? Without even letting me know You left me crying on the coast You're nothing to me but a ghost Why did you go? by me

Life About To End Sitting in my bedroom, lying on my bed I lay awake thinking, is my life about to end I slowly begin raising the gun up to my head My heart no longer will have to mend I take one last deep breath of air Pull the trigger All of this just doesn't seem fair Pain no longer able to grow bigger Blood begins to spill As my life starts to fade All pain is gone, and now i no longer have to feel Look at the big mess i've made I wonder how many people will even care This was all a mistake The bullet begins to tear My skin, and my body begins to shake Someone call 911; help me before its too late The light suddenly begins to fade away My heart has lost its pulse rate I didn't want this to happen; now i want to stay The ambulance arrives and rushes in the house They were too late, for now i am gone The cops have to go and tell my spouse My body in chalk is drawn They put me in that black body bag Carry me away The sight of the scene makes everyone want to gag What a horrible way to end such a beautiful day Few days go past Everyone still in shock That no one knew that'd be the last Time they'd see me, 'cause the time had run out on my clock What they didn't know Was my life was about to end If they only knew how i felt so low They would ahve been a better friend. ~all written by me

Before I Go.... Before i go i want you to know that i've left behind Something for you to find A small, folded note that i have wrote A promise to put in the past All things that happened so fast I wish we could forget All the things we both regret Restart our friendship before it's gone Where I can stop feeling withdrawn We both said hurtful words, that wasn't meant to be said Made both of us turn a dark fiery red We were both angry at one another And decided to take our friendship no further It's time to forgive and forget Where we will no longer have to live with regret We should apologize and continue being friends All of this will finally come to an end - By Me

How Could You Leave me in a hurry without even a worry Tell me all the lies Looking straight into my eyes Left me here to cry Making me feel I want to die Break my heart I should have known it from the start. by me