Fubar Blog Posts 3

Boundaries
Learning how to set boundaries is a vital part of learning to own yourself, of learning to respect yourself, of learning to love yourself. If you never have to set a boundary, then you will never get in touch with who you really are - will never learn to define yourself in a healthy way. No one deserves to be treated abusively. No one deserves to be lied to and betrayed. We all deserve to be treated with respect and dignity. If you do not respect yourself, if you do not start awakening to your right to be treated with respect and dignity (and your responsibility in creating that in your life) - then you will be more comfortable being involved with people who abuse you then with people who treat you in loving ways. Learning to set boundaries is vital to learning to love yourself, and to communicating to other's that you have worth. There are basically three parts to a boundary. The first two are setting the boundary - the third is what you will do to defend that boundary

Queer As Folk
Yes I watch it and yes I love it. As a want-to-be gay man I have no choice. I was being nosey on the interweb...(another thing I loooooove to do). And just was wandering around when I read that BRIAN from QAF also know Gale Harold was in a car accident and is in critical condition. Hes my favorite so of course I pray he will be ok. Its just I looooooooooooooooooovvvvvvvveeee him. I have to watch QAF now. After class and research. P.S. Rocks read my other blog.

Help Needed
Thanks for taking the time to read this. I am trying to organize a Benifit Ride for the family of Zane Blankenship who was murdered in Salem the October 11th. I am hoping this will become an anual thing. His family needs some help paying for the cost of the funeral and things related to that. So if we can make it an anual event, the first one would help them cover that cost. Then the years after, we would donate the money to charity. Example, the ASPCA which was one of Zane's favorite organizations. The problem I have is, I have no idea how to organize this. I am looking for help and ideas. I have a few ideas of things we can do, but I need help getting the word out and getting things rolling so to speak. The ride would be for any and all bikers, as Zane loved motorcycles. So please drop me a line with any and all ideas and any help offered would be greatly appreciated. Thanks in Advance

Trust
Why is the one that you love always the first one to hurt you and make you cry ? Why is it when you give that somebody ever ounce of energy that you have inside you they treat you like dirt ? Why is it that just when things seem to be going great in your life somebody builds a brickwall ? Why do people always judge you by the people that you talk to or hang with ? I'm not one to mince words to much because I would rather be told flat out how somebody feels or what somebody wants than try and guess it for myself and end up getting hurt. Not many things in this world make me cry anymore but a few will still set me into that downward sprial right into hell with no net to catch me when I hit the bottom. I try not to be so cold hearted as to not give somebody the benefit of a doubt,but when somebody goes and breaks my heart just because they think they can or when somebody lies to me tryin to think that I'm not gonna find out about what really happened is crossing the red

Strangers,friends And Lovers
When I first met you it was as strangers and it stayed that way for a long time for I was scared to even try to get to know you for what my past had done to me and I wasn't ready to get to know anybody for the fear of getting walked all over again and hurting in the deepest parts of me. You changed all that in my way of thinking and I started to let myself to get to know you a little bit at a time but still staying back far enough so I had room to run if I needed it. We started to talk more and more on an almost daily basis and got to learn more about each other and had a blast hanging out with each other and we became fast friends and it made me feel good for I needed a close friend that wouldn't judge me or look down upon me for my past and you were that one that did it for me in just a short time. I will always be grateful for meeting you that night that I did for it really changed my life for the better. I no longer have the pain of hurt and anger around me all the time for I

Unspoken Words
You were my light in the darkest hour. You were the one I looked up to. You were my friend and hero in the saddest of times. You were the one I could always turn to. You were always there with an open view. You were my voice when I couldn't speak the right words. You were my strength when I was facing fear. You were the one to hold me when I fell. You were my angel sent to me in my time of need. You were the only one who understood me. You were the one that made me what I am today. You were all that I wanted to be. You were what I will never be. You are my Angel,Friend,Breath,Life,Body and Soul. You will always be in my heart and I will always love you for being in my life. Never leave any words unspoken to somebody that touches your heart and makes you feel alive. I wrote this for a great friend of mine in Darkness Falls and I hope that these words will help her in small way.

Nevermore
Once I thought that love was something that would never happen to me and then when it did happen to me it happened fast and hit hard and it made me feel alive for the first time in a long time and now that this love has hit me so hard I'm being torn away from it little by little and losing all that I once held so dear to me in my heart that is now slowly dieing inside from ripped apart. I never wanted anything more than to be loved by somebody who wouldn't treat me like the dirt they walked on and when that one person did come along and show what LOVE is really about my life get's thrown out of wack again and now I'm losing all that I held so close and protected with all I had in me. I was once told that LOVE was not meant for me and I always held out hope that it was but alas now I'm faced with the fact that they might of been right and that LOVE wasn't ever really meant to happen to me at all but just tease me and make me think it was meant for me till it broke me down and brok

Someone Pretending To Be Me On Bebo
I had an email from Bebo asking for me to verify my email address but I've never used Bebo before . It said someone named PoppyT26 had set up an account and used my email address . I've never referred to myself as Poppy before so I know it's not something that I may have done in the past and forgotten about . The account is deleted now because I clicked on 'this is not me' when it asked for verification . So if anyone did fake being me all of their time and effort setting up the account has gone.

We Will Always Be Apart...... Kinda Creepy Love From Afar Lol
I wonder what you thinking, If it could ever be me, My hopeless dreams are shrinking, Into nothing they will be, I see you from a distance, I smile in my heart, Because you hold up resistance, We will always be apart, I wonder if you know it, But I dream of you all the time, I wish that I could show it, Through other was but rhyme, I want to tell you to your face, I want to tell the truth, But what I'll say is a disgrace, And if you only knew, I do love you.

Your Goal Is To Find Out Who You Are
I heard a story once about an eagle's egg that had got lost or abandoned and was found by chickens. When the eagle hatched, it was loved and cared for by the chickens, brought up to act and behave as if it was a chicken. It knew nothing else… Until one day, the eagle was with his brothers and sisters pecking at the ground, like a chicken, when something made him look up to the sky. High above he saw a majestic sight, a beautiful bird soaring gracefully. Something was stirred inside him, a remembrance, recognition of 'home'… He asked the chickens, "What is that beautiful bird up there?" The chickens looked up. "Oh that," they said, "that's an eagle, king of the birds. But forget about him, you are one of us, you are a chicken…." I don't know how the story ended and, to me, it is not a case of an eagle being superior to a chicken…just different. The same story has been told about a duck's egg and one day the duck arrives at a great lake just swims, "because he can" --- "it's natural"

All About Me
Basics: Name: Erin DOB: 10-28-1985 Birthplace: Louisville Kentucky Current location: Louisville Kentucky Eye color: hazel Hair Color: brunette Height: 5'7 Heritage: Irish Piercings: belly button Tattoos: ivy going across my lower back Favorite: Song: broken - Lifehouse Genre of Music: a little bit of everything Color(s): green TV show(s): house m.d. Movie(s): The shawshank redemtion, The exorcism of Emily rose, the breakfast club Food: fries with ranch Store: old navy #: 21 Drink: sprite Clothing Brand: old navy Shoe Brand: nike Animal: polar bear Pizza topping: ham and pinapple Season: fall Month: October Holiday: christmas This or That: this Sunny or rainy: rainy Chocolate or vanilla: chocolate Fruit or veggie: veggie Night or day: night Sour or sweet: sweet Love or money: love Phone or in person: Poor & happy or rich & miserable: poor and happy Looks or personality: personality Coffee or tea:

Music...
Have you ever heard a song that feel so close to your life, you couldn't get enough? I have found my "Theme" song. And it is so ironic how well it fits into my life. With everything that I go through in my day to day life, from love and relationships, to questions of why I am here. This song shows my purpose in life. It has helped me see what I am meant to do. Some people may say, "Rhonda, it's just a song!". But to me it is a blessing. A beautiful piece of art that makes me feel alive. Please if you understand what I mean, show some love, if you don't, then you haven't heard your song!

The Door In The Dark..
In going from room to room in the dark, I reached out blindly to save my face, But neglected, however lightly, to lace My fingers and close my arms in an arc. A slim door got in past my guard, And hit me a blow in the head so hard I had my native simile jarred. So people and things don't pair any more With what they used to pair with before. - Robert Frost

Sauvies Island Wma 10-15-08
i drew a Hunt Unit reservation on the island. a very dubious honor. i hate hunting "the island", but it is close and a reservation for this particular unit promises an easy hunt with a good possibility for success. i hit "the line" at just after midnight and sleep in the back of my Tahoe. the only thing i have to say about that is, "i am too old for this shit." not much to say. it was a pretty standard WMA hunt. got out blind and did fairly well. the blinds around us were occupied with the usual island idiots that wouldn't let birds work in close and lost a lot of cripples due to their skybusting (shooting at birds out of range) habits. my hunting bud and i finished up with 9 birds between the 2 of us and had a good time. i hope i don't have to hunt the island again any time soon. lol

Lewis And Clark Nwr 10-16-08
FINALLY!!!! back where i belong. i love hunting the "LC". just up from Astoria, OR and on the mighty Columbia River, this is no place for pussies. we head out onto the river following the GPS to a series of islands we are going to hunt on. the water is unusually rough for the morning. i am used to the ride out being on glassy water, not 2 foot rollers. the spray off the bow is invigorating, which was welcomed as this was day two of a back-to-back trip and i had spent the previous night in my truck. needless to say, quality sleep was not a term that could be used to describe my last 48 hours. we found our spot and got set up. i took the big boat and moved it off about 400 yards and paddled my layout back to the blind. we got a bit of shooting in before the tide ran out on us leaving us looking at a vast mud flat. with nothing to do for a few hours until the water came back, we broke out the sandwiches, coffee, and told each other lies for awhile. once the water

Drama
Well as usuall there has been no lack of drama on this site. It seems like everyone has something to complain about, even me. I'm not on here every day which I thank God for, cause i'm sure I would have already left. I guess the one rule people should follow on here is, if you don't have anything nice to say then just say nothing. Nobody is making anybody post comments, it's a choice we make. Rude people have no business being on this site or any other for that matter. This is something I do to pass the time occasionally, It's not my life! So I decided for myself to not take anything serious any more that happens on here, cause it's just never never land and what happens on this site shouldn't affect anyone in their real lives. So for all the people that think their lives revolve around Fubar, and to those that think people in the real world really care what level your on...good luck with that......

Forbidden
Ever since that day I've hid my heart away Many have tried but fail to find The gate is closed I've made up my mind I can't be the girl I used to be Cause look what love has done to me I let my guard down and gave it all to you Never realizing you would be untrue It's been so long and still I stand But still I long for the touch of your hand I'll be strong and keep it all inside Even if it's just foolish pride They say it is better to have loved and lost And I've tried that and paid the cost So if I have to feel this pain Just to find a love again I think I'll let it pass me by I'll spare the heartache and refuse to try

Tou
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Awake And Dreaming
I can't lose anything So what's left is mine And I win this time Consolation day I'll make up a way I'll know now just what to say I'll get away from you Wait and I'll be begging I'll pull you down I saw it all again Fading memory became clear to me I try but I can't say That I'm yours for good Support me you said you would I'll get away from you Wait and I'll be begging I'll pull you down Awake and dreaming I'm only sleeping -finger 11

Last Words
im a tearful poet writing my last poem, love and acceptance was all i ever meant. i step upon the hard paved road, staring back, expressing deep lament. a small bag thrown over my shoulder, nobody within this life would understand. im broken, scarred forever within myself, i only wanted to make everyone smile, a caring man.... so my love as i whisper my farewell, i'll drop this note upon the ground i lived within a cruel pain filled world, forever I'll be lost with out you, never again to be found... .................................................

Give Me A Good Reason To Vote For Barack
Fact: Barack Obama's plan to cut taxes still will not result in enough money to cover his spending increases!! (A net deficit of $1.76 trillion over 4 years) Fact: Barack Obama's Healthcare plan would leave 15 million people uninsured, while detrimentally hurting hundreds of thousands of small businesses. Fact: Barack Obama has spent more than twenty years listening to Rev. Jeremiah Wright, a racist preacher who openly hates America. Fact: Barack Obama's first political fund raiser was launched from William Ayers house. William Ayers, like Rev Wright, openly hates America and has actually been involve in domestic terrorist bombings. Fact: The political leaders of countries who are not friendly with the U.S. want Barack Obama to be electede, in the hopes our country will be more "sympathetic" to their causes. Fact: Barack Obama has absolutely NO experience in international politics. Fact: Barack Obama voted for a 2005 energy bill supported by Pres

Vote Mccain Heres Why
Fact: Barack Obama's plan to cut taxes still will not result in enough /> money to cover his spending increases!! (A net deficit of $1.76 trillion /> over 4 years) Fact: Barack Obama's Healthcare plan would leave 15 million people uninsured, while detrimentally hurting hundreds of thousands of small businesses. Fact: Barack Obama has spent more than twenty years listening to Rev. Jeremiah Wright, a racist preacher who openly hates America. Fact: Barack Obama's first political fund raiser was launched from William Ayers house. William Ayers, like Rev Wright, openly hates America and has actually been involve in domestic terrorist bombings. Fact: The political leaders of countries who are not friendly with the U.S. want Barack Obama to be electede, in the hopes our country will be more /> "sympathetic" to their causes. Fact: Barack Obama has absolutely NO experie

Guys
I get a Yahoo Instant msg from a guy I haven't heard from in 2 months. So he calls me tonight wanting to know when he can see me so he can tell me how he feels about me. I asked him to tell me over the phone and he said "When you figure out when you can see me call me ok" and then he hung up. WTF!!! I wanted to tell him "Look I haven't heard from you in 2 months and you expect me to believe you." If I want something I will do my damnest to get it. I am honest and quite frankly I am sick and tired of guys saying they will call or come over and then they don't. It is painfully obviously that all he wants is sex. Which is not what I want from him. So like if he really wanted me badly, he could have called me. No one works 24/7. If you like someone (even as a friend), you make time for them. So anyway he and I were talking on the phone for about a month or so. I was still pregnant when I first met him. So go f'n figure. My daughter is now 3 months old. I went out with him once when my

Men And Women's Interpertations
1.WHY DO MEN BECOME SMARTER DURING SEX? (because they are plugged into a genius) 2. WHY DON'T WOMEN BLINK DURING SEX? (they don't have enough time) 3. WHY DOES IT TAKE 1 MILLION SPERM TO FERTILIZE ONE EGG?(they don 't stop to ask directions) 4. WHY DO MEN SNORE WHEN THEY LIE ON THEIR BACKS? (because their balls fall over their butt-hole and they vapor lock) (You're laughing, aren't you?!?!) 5. WHY WERE MEN GIVEN LARGER BRAINS THAN DOGS? (so they won't hump women's legs at cocktails parties) 6. WHY DID GOD MAKE MEN BEFORE WOMEN? (you need a rough draft before you make a final copy) 7. HOW MANY MEN DOES IT TAKE TO PUT A TOILET SEAT DOWN?(don't know.....it never happened) ( C'mon guys, we laugh at your blonde jokes!) And the personal favorite: 8. WHY DID GOD PUT MEN ON EARTH?(because a vibrator can't mow the lawn) Remember, if you haven't got a smile on your face and laughter in your heart...Then you are

Tears In Heaven
Tears In Heaven Would you know my name If I saw you in heaven? Would it be the same If I saw you in heaven? I must be strong And carry on, 'Cause I know I don't belong Here in heaven. Would you hold my hand If I saw you in heaven? Would you help me stand If I saw you in heaven? I'll find my way Through night and day, 'Cause I know I just can't stay Here in heaven. Time can bring you down, Time can bend your knees. Time can break your heart, Have you begging please, begging please. Beyond the door, There's peace I'm sure, And I know there'll be no more Tears in heaven. Would you know my name If I saw you in heaven? Would it be the same If I saw you in heaven? I must be strong And carry on, 'Cause I know I don't belong Here in heaven.

Yet Another Round Of Lyrics
Finally the hills are without eyes They are tired of painting a dead man's face red With their own blood They used to love having so much to lose Blink your eyes just once and see everything in ruins Did you ever hear what I told you? Did you ever read what I wrote you? Did you ever listen to what we played? Did you ever let in what the world said? Did we get this far just to feel your hate? Did we play to become only pawns in the game? How blind can you be, don't you see? You chose the long road, but we'll be waiting Bye bye, beautiful Bye bye beautiful Jacob's ghost for the girl in white Blindfold for the blind Dead siblings walking the dying earth Noose around a choking heart Eternity torn apart Slow toll now the funeral bells "I need to die to feel alive” Did you ever hear what I told you? Did you ever read what I wrote you? Did you ever listen to what we played? Did you ever let in what the world said? Did we get this far just to feel your h

Hurtful Words Breed Hurtful Actions
Why is it important to understand why hurtful words breed hurtful actions? Jesus in Matthew 15:19 said, “8But(V) what comes out of the mouth proceeds from the heart, and this defiles a person.” Jesus says what comes out of the mouth proceeds from the heart, and this defiles a person. He goes on to say in verse 20, “19For out of the heart come(W) evil thoughts,(X) murder, adultery, sexual immorality, theft, false witness,(Y) slander. 20(Z) These are what defile a person. But(AA) to eat with unwashed hands does not defile anyone." Out of the heart come forth evil thoughts and actions. Therefore hurtful actions begin in our hearts because of sin and come out in the form of negative actions towards others. James 3: 5-12, “5So also the tongue is a small member, yet(F) it boasts of great things. How great a forest is set ablaze by such a small fire! 6And(G) the tongue is a fire, a world of unrighteousness. The tongue is set among our members,(H) staining the whole bo

Quitting
Alrighty guys today is my last day here on fubar. You've been a great audience! But between the drama and this site eating up all my free time. So its time to end the great run we had. If you have my yahoo we'll still talk! Love you guys be good or be good at it

Lyrics......
"MILES AWAY" I just woke up from a fuzzy dream You never would believe the things that I have seen I looked in the mirror and I saw your face You looked right through me, you were miles away All my dreams, they fade away I'll never be the same If you could see me the way you see yourself I can't pretend to be someone else Always love me more, miles away I hear it in your voice, miles away You're not afraid to tell me, miles away I guess we're at our best, miles away So far away, so far away, so far away, so far away So far away, so far away, so far away, so far away When noone is around then I have you here I begin to see the picture, it becomes so clear You always have the biggest heart When we're 6.000 miles apart Too much of no sound Uncomfortable silence can be so loud Those three words are never enough When it's long distance love Always love me more, miles away I hear it in your voice, miles away You're not afraid to tell me, miles away I

Heartstoppers Haunted House Presents The Deadlands
Heartstoppers Haunted House presents The Deadlands from Hex on Vimeo. Coming this October to the Placer County Fair Grounds in Roseville - Sacramento! Live through the final days of bounty hunter Cane "The Deathslinger" Hex, a ruthless killer with a cemetery's worth of murders under his belt. Hex's luck ran out 136 years ago at this very location, when he was ambushed by those whom he had already killed. All those lives he took, somehow escaped the deepest pits of damnation, to exact their revenge again and again...

She Asked (poem) By Irresistible
She asked "Why do you hold me so tight?" She never answered but simply sighed. She asked again. "Baby, why do you hold me so tight?" While in her embrace she softly spoke into her ear the following words. I hold you tight for all the times you needed to be held and was not. I hold you tight for all, past, present and future hurt that you had, do and will feel. I hold you tight for all the tears that have fell down your face and there was no one to kiss them away. I hold you this tight for all the worries you have had and were unable to express. I hold you tight for all the lonely nights that I wish you never had. I hold you tight for all the stress you have felt in the past wanting you never to experience again. I hold you so tight so that you will always feel my essence with you and you will always feel as if you are in my loving embrace. My embrace was made espe

:)
Listening to the mainstream media these last few days has been a revelation!! I've learned a lot of things about the GOP's VP nominee... and also had to do some investigating to learn a few things on my own. To wit: 1. From the media I found out that Sarah Palin's husband has a DUI conviction from 22 years ago. But I distinctly remember that Ted Kennedy (hero of recent tribute at the DNC) was drunk and drove his car off a bridge in Chappaquiddick. That same crash killed a young campaign volunteer with whom he was having an affair. Oh, and the young Mary Jo Kopechne was pregnant with his child. Mr. Palin (who is, to my knowledge, not running for office) got his DUI a mere 4 years after Barack Hussein Obama (who is running for office) by his own admission in his autobiography, stopped using cocaine and marijuana. So I think I''m getting the hang of this thing..... It's OK for the presidential candidate to use drugs, and the party patriarch to kill someone while driving

Inside The Darkness Writen By Me So Dont Steal But Pl Comment
Inside the Darkness Everything is lost and found in the darkness In the darkness we may lose ourselves. Lose what makes us human, our love, our hopes and dreams as well as our fears. Everything that makes us who we are. Yet, in being lost, we may find ourselves again in our journey through the darkness We may find our hope, fear, anger, love, compassion, and our hidden desires. So dont fear the darkness....Embrace it. To know Darkness as well as the light and to embrace both with open arms Is to be complete and whole. But if you accept one and not the other is to be incomplete and you stay wanting and searching Light cannot exist without the Dark Just as Good cannot exist without the Evil

Thoughts
i am not very good with words, but when I say something I mean it, take me for my word because that is all I have. I don't have much to give anyone but myself and that is truly only for one, no one will take his place, no one should try, you wont get anywhere. It took me a long time to realize this and I choose not to make the same mistakes I have in the past, true to my heart and mind, forever now, never giving up, just waiting and staying true to myself, my heart, and my love. People can say what they will about me it doesn't matter I know the truth as do those close to me, those I choose to stay in contact with, don't judge me for you have no right to do that, you have no right to pass judgment on anyone, for no one is perfect, just doing the best each one of us can. I am staying true to my heart, my love, and myself everyone should do the same, though I have no room to judge or tell anyone what to do with their life it is theirs to do with it as they see fit.

Petals
Out of the thunder and the storm Blooms flowers, from the rain. It is the sorrows of our time That gives the strength, To our remain. A child of God's, born unto you Has heard the Angel's hearken They summoned him back home, To an eternal life in heaven. In the presence of his absence He leaves for you to find, The petals, reminiscent Of his short and earthly time. Memories are the blossoms From the flowers of his life Embossed forever on your heart And pictured in your mind. Find comfort in his memories As a blessing, of his love for you, The petals that he left behind Are symbols of his love in kind.

Dude! Chick! More Ebay Shit!
I just listed a crap load of stuff. I figured since you guys are so addicted to the internet you might as well shop while you are here! I have a lot of cool stuff that's cluttering my house up, so buy it from me so my hubby will let me buy more stuff! He says I am not allowed to buy anything else until I get rid of some of this shit. What the fuck are you waiting for? Go shop, bitches!! http://shop.ebay.com/merchant/truzonie

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I feel that I’m out of place. I hang my head in disgrace. When the time in light of day, Fell in fear and walked away. I ask and cry in desperation, What can cure this laceration? I’m bleeding and I’m fainting low, The world revolves so slow. What am I to do? When there’s nothing left to do? I’ve tried to stay true, tried to help you, but you just laughed and left. Check my pulse I’m feeling weak, Soon I will no longer speak. Check my fast failing heartbeat, Every beat will not repeat. What am I to do? When there’s nothing left to do? I always knew there’s nothing new, That when I’m done I know I’m through.

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I need to kill, for blood to spill For it would give me such a thrill And even then I still, Won't be content until, You're name is gone, forgotten long. And everybody thinks you're wrong. Your life is harshly torn. Wished you were never born. I'm in the mood for thrill, Get me somebody to kill. Get me away from this forsaken day, My disarray will bring someone dismay. Twitching (You're crying) I'm switching (You're dying) from love to my hate, Scolding, (I'm killing) Withholding (Fulfilling) to decapitate I'm feeling restless, send distresses, Feel like slaughter in the masses, And as time just slowly passes, I just want to kick some asses. Come over here, be filled with fear, I won't be easy, do you hear? You might just shed a tear, I'm getting into gear. I'm in the mood for thrill Get me somebody to kill Get me away from this forsaken day, My disarray will bring someone dismay. Twitching (You're crying) I'm switching (You're dying) from love to my

Stay Positive
We all have days that we think we can't take it anymore. The stress of life, job etc. sometimes pushes us to our limit. But hang in there. Keep moving forward and stay positive. No matter how tough life seems, it could always be worse. As long as we have a new day ahead of us, we have the opportunity to face life's challenges and win the battle. Everything doesn't always turn out the way we want, but when it does, it's only because we worked hard at staying positive and we didn't give up. Have a great rest of the weekend everyone. Hugs to all lolly

10/2008
Shadow lover. like a dark angel fallen from the sky looming over me. Offer me an inviting hand Let me reach out to you. I can feel it... The warmth you radiate in you only in you. We embrace passionately and melt into each others arms Even the darkest moments feel like heavens come alive my cares take to flight my heart starts to soar when I hear you whisper the words, "I need you...." I know its true for I need you too my love. Two souls become one In a realm no one can venture Dark angel my sweet dark angel tell me you will stay give me your fatal silver kiss, And let me be with you in the immortal coil of love forever....

10 Years ~ Wasteland
"Wasteland" Change my attempt good intentions Crouched over You were not there Living in fear But signs were not really that scarce Obvious tears But I will not Hide you through this I want you to help them, please see The bleeding heart perched on my shirt Die, withdraw Hide in cold sweat Quivering lips Ignore remorse Naming a kid, living wasteland This time you've tried All that you can turning you red Change my attempt good intentions Should I, could I Here we are with your obsession Should I, could I Crowned hopeless The article read living wasteland This time you've tried All that you can turning you red but I will not Hide you through this I want you to help Change my attempt good intentions Should I, could I Here we are with your obsession Should I, could I Heave the silver hollow sliver Piercing through another victim Turn and tremble be judgmental Ignorant to all the symbols Blind the face with beauty paste Eventually you'l

10/2008
Passing through a long dark tunnel I came Out on the far side at the other end Of a nightmare one which I need not blame On anyone now I just need a friend A true friend like you who helped me break through I hope you will stay the rest of the way With me as my eyes adjust to this light It could be that I need to learn to see All over again after that dark night Of my soul now as I heal to be whole Once more I remember what friends are for Friends are for loving and so I love you What I wished for back in the dark came true To have a friend and I need wish no more Here on the far side at the other end Of a nightmare all I need is a friend And should you ever need a place to stay There is within my heart a vacancy Where you could stay a lifetime or a day Here with me in friendly propinquity As you have blessed me now I would bless you For what might have been might always still be We know we are friend

Extreme
Screaming at the top of my lungs Whispering so low no one can hear Dying in agony While walking on air Crying out in misery Laughing with pure joy Breaking to my knees While rising above myself Questioning Fate and its unfairness Glorifying God for all His gifts Hating everyone and everything While loving life unconditionally Fearing my own shadow While being too proud to back down So alone and frightened Yet feeling so loved and cared for Extreme to Extreme Or nothing at all Extreme to Extreme This is my life or nothing at all

10/27/08 - System Of A Down - Chop Suey (and Some Chicken Fried Rice Plz)
SONG VERSION BELOW Chop Suey - System Of A Down VIDEO VERSION BELOW Chop Suey! - System Of A Down LYRICS BELOW (We're rolling "Suicide") Wake up (wake up) Grab a brush and put a little makeup Hide the scars to fade away the shake up (hide the scars to fade away the shake) Why'd you leave the keys up on the table? Here you go create another fable (you wanted to) Grab a brush and put on a little makeup (you wanted to) Hide the scars to fade away the shake up (you wanted to) Why'd you leave the keys up on the table? (you wanted to) I don't think you trust in my self-righteous suicide I cry when angels deserve to DIE! Wake up (wake up) Grab a brush and put a little makeup Hide the scars to fade away the shake (Hide the scars to fade away the shake) Why'd you leave the keys up on the table? Here you go create another fable (you wanted to) Grab a brush and put on a little makeup (you wanted to) Hide the scars to fade away the shake (you wa

Ariel Pushes Her Master's Tolerance
Master and I mentally sparred during dinner, during which time my confidence increased. I mistakenly thought that him not shutting me down meant that I was winning. It didn't occur to me he was letting ride high so I'd fall further when he finally chose to swat me down. When we finished eating, Master stood up and so did I. He put a hand behind my head, intending to kiss me. I turned my face away. He growled and I couldn't help but smile. He just walked away, which left me feeling disappointed. I cleaned up the dishes. When I went to find him downstairs, he patted the couch next to him and said he wanted me to sit with him. His face looked the way it does when he wants to "make love" to me...rather than fucking. He looked so tender, that I immediately let down my guard. He pulled me in for a sweet, soft, gentle kiss. Then he looked directly into my eyes and smiled in the most loving way...and I returned that smile. At that moment, he pulled both my wrists behind my back, tu

Fantasy Time
The Host and Hostess check everyone as they arrive. Making sure they are on the invited list. Making sure no has invited or brought with them anyone under 18. They meet at an old castle. At a party thrown by a fetish group. Where she is the Prize tonight to be auctioned off (unbeknownest to her) There first encounter that evening was of her offering him a drink as he looks at her, he sees her thick wavy long brownish-red hair cascading, over her shoulders, her head down slightly, her eyes he can not see, he continues his inspection of her, glancing down seeing, her dressed in a black leather garter belt that is attached to black fishnet stockings going down her legs to her feet, seeing the spiked high heeled black leather shoes. Then back up her body his eyes take in her shaved pussy. Then his look goes further up her body stopping at her ample bosom looking at the harness around them made of leather and chain. It has one 1/2 wide leather strap around the base of her tits and

?????
the word is : ELECTORIAL VOTE ... it means to a body of electors chosen by voters in each state to elect the president and vice president of the united states... now people come on.. think about it.. anytime you see your state show who they vote on for president by the public.. only means that certain officials are really doing the voting for you. we have so much hi-tech items doing everything for us and the world , why can't your vote be seen to show the world your vote counts.. no shaded area of who won the state for president but a true number of people really voting and being heard and seen... have the news show each state the real numbers of voters in each state and not just the majority vote but real votes.. they say your vote counts but yet hide us under electorial members ( most likely the ones who gave up campain money in large amounts) how can we stand here and think that a single individual speaks for us, i thought this was a free country!!!! not asking you to vote.. that

The History Of Holloween
History of Halloween, like any other festival's history is inspired through traditions that have transpired through ages from one generation to another. We follow them mostly as did our dads and grandpas. And as this process goes on, much of their originality get distorted with newer additions and alterations. It happens so gradually, spanning over so many ages, that we hardly come to know about these distortions. At one point of time it leaves us puzzled, with its multicolored faces. Digging into its history helps sieve out the facts from the fantasies which caught us unaware. Yet, doubts still lurk deep in our soul, especially when the reality differs from what has taken a deep seated root into our beliefs. The history of Halloween Day, as culled from the net, is being depicted here in this light. This is to help out those who are interested in washing off the superficial hues to reach the core and know things as they truly are. 'Trick or treat' may be an innocent fun to relish on th

Grandfather Clock Cont.
Becky held the largest and strongest clip that Master and I had in our Dungeon. She reached between her legs and spread the lips wide. She grasped the smaller clip already attached to her nub and pulled it quickly from it's place and immediately snapped the stronger one in place. She screamed and tears fell from her face. Her juices had soaked the Sybian by now and her tears added their wetness to the leather contraption. She bucked and rose and fell and swayed on the hard leather cock that was tormenting her. The Grandfather clock suddenly chimed and Becky heard it. She unclamped her clit and slammed herself down hard on the Sybian. She let loose and her cum began to run down the sides of the saddle onto the hard wooden floor. She screamed and gyrated and cussed and called out for her "Master". Mark turned the machine off before she had fulfilled her bliss but she continued to rub herself all over the leather. We watched as she fell sideways, her mutilated sex split wide open

Career Criminal
I got in trouble with the law once and it is what led me to becoming a career criminal. Now why would this happen you ask. It happened because I got into trouble in the wrong county. Johnson County was a year round temperate zone. The average temperature there is about 75 degrees all year round, even in mid-December. It was in Johnson County where I got caught shoplifting for a girlfriend of mine. Jessica's birthday was coming up and, of course, I was broke yet again. I knew exactly what she wanted from Frederick's of Hollywood. It is her favorite store and we have spent more than a few hours at various ones getting her the clothing she so loves. Yes, my girl is a slut. And I am damn grateful that she is. Jessica loves sex. I mean she not only loves sex, but lives for it, thrives on it. She is a total nymphomaniac and her nymphomania is equivalent to my satyriasis (the male version of nymphomania). It is a match made in heaven. The first time I met Jessica I was in a dance

Florida
An extremely rich Florida man decided that he wanted to throw a party and invited all of his buddies and neighbors. He also invited Leroy, the only Redneck in the neighborhood. He held the party around the pool in the backyard of his mansion. Leroy was having a great time. He was drinking, dancing, eating shrimp, oysters and BBQ, and flirting with all the married women. At the height of the party, the host said, 'I have a 10 foot man-eating gator in my pool and I'll give a million dollars to anyone who has the nerve to jump in.' The words were barely out of his mouth when there was a loud splash. Everyone turned around and saw Leroy in the pool! Leroy was fighting the gator and kicking its ass! Leroy was jabbing it in the eyes with his thumbs, throwing punches, head butts and choke holds, biting the gator on the tail and flipping it through the air like some kind of Judo Instructor. The water was churning and splashing everywhere. Leroy was screaming, the ga

Albatross
She was the only thing I paid attention to during the service. The minister droned on about how Mary would be well received in heaven, ashes to ashes, dust to dust, and all that. Religion had always been her thing, not mine. No, my thoughts were on the girl sitting towards the back of the church. She had her hands folded demurely in her lap, a solemn little frown on her face. She was fair-haired and skinned, a small smattering of freckles danced across the bridge of her nose. Okay, I amended, her breasts were too big to consider her a girl, but she was young. I wondered why she was here; I had certainly never seen her before. A relative on my wife's side? Somehow I didn't think so. I wiggled on the uncomfortable pew, trying to show the proper amount of grief during the key points in the sermon. The truth was, I felt a bitter detachment from it all. Everyone thought my wife had died in a car accident on the way to church, and I was content to let everyone keep on thinking that. But i

Heroes ( Remembering 9/11: A Fireman's Wife. )
Rita heard the front door swing open, and Mitch thudded in wearing his heavy boots. He stopped in the kitchen doorway and leaned against the jamb. His hair and uniform were a crumpled mess. “Hi,” he said. “Something smells good.” “How does lasagna sound?” Rita said. “Sounds real good. We saved a couple kids today.” Rita wiped her hands on a thin dishtowel and turned directly towards him. The circles under his eyes were very dark after the long shift, but his eyes still danced. “Yeah?” He smiled, his teeth bright. He had missed a dark smear of soot near his ear. Mitch almost never talked about work. There were bad days – when an apartment building burned to the ground, or a civilian got burned up, or a firefighter was injured (or worse) – and the last thing in the world he wanted to do was come home and relive the horrible events he sometimes had to experience. When they were first married, she had tried to get him to talk. He would slog home, slump into his overstuffe

Our Own Private Eden
There she was on the side of the road. I had driven right by her in my 1969 V.W. Bug. I hurried over to the shoulder. I had to reverse back a little to get back to her. As I approached and got out of my car this beautiful woman was at the car. "Damn," I heard in the back of my head. Even better than I had thought. She was about 5'6" short dark hair. Deep inviting eyes. Oh and the most shapely body. As if she was carved out of ivory. Smooth pale complexion. She wore a dark sweater and her nipples protruded out on a count of the cold. Nice hard nipples that sat on each side her heavenly breasts. On her legs she wore some designer jeans that seemed custom tailored. She had what some may call a "bubble butt ." Oh but I love her bubble butt. Her pants hugged her tight as I hoped I could. "Can I help you ma'am?" I sheepishly asked. "Well, my car overheated and I have no water." She spoke so seductively as if she had ulterior motives. "I was wondering if maybe you could give me a rid

Finally
That time of the evening came quicker than I thought it would. It always does. I mean, Beth and I had been friends for years--she was just about my best friend ever and knew me longer than anyone else. And every time she came to visit me, that "end of the night" sleeping arrangement lingered in the air. Oh, I tried to play it off--each time. "I think I'll go to bed"... "You can stay here if you like"... "C'mon, get some sleep"... etc. While I never had any real designs on hooking up with her, I can't deny that the thought was ever present in my mind every time she snuggled up next to me. "This is just a friend thing", I'd think to myself, praying she wouldn't notice the massive hard-on I'd be sporting most of the night. I mean, Beth is just... everything I want in a woman. She's pretty, intelligent, shapely, blessed with some of the finest breasts God ever decided to put down on this earth, and a strange sexual personality. She's curious, open, and interested sexually in a wid

The Wallflower
"Who are you taking to the dance, Mr. Superstar?" Timmy asked me teasingly. "No one," I said in response. "I'm going 'stag', as they call it." "What?" he replied. "No date? How is that possible, Robert? You're ROBERT JENKINS, star quarterback on a team that went 10-1, you threw 45 touchdowns, no interceptions, and ran for 18 more, you had the game-winning 2-point conversion -- on your 18th birthday, no less -- in the state Section 5 championship, and no date?" "It's very possible," I grinned, "when I consciously decided not to bring a date. I could probably have had my pick of slutty senior-class female groupies wanting my date and my body afterwards, except that I decided to just go to the dance solo and see what happens. I somehow don't think my dance card will be empty." "I guess," Timmy sighed. He didn't seem convinced of my sanity. * I arrived at the dance an hour before it was scheduled to open, astounding the bands scheduled to play by helping set up equipment.

Dinner With Harriet
I had known Harriet for a few months, every since I took early retirement and moved to this beautiful, remote, rural spot in North Florida. She had a trailer too, but it was much larger and nicer than mine and situated on a piece of property that must have been at least double my five acres. She had been a casual acquaintance, as neighbors often are, until she had a problem with her car and I offered to take her somewhere if she needed. She took me up on it one Thursday and had me drop her at the doctors while I went to the hardware store. We met afterward and had lunch before going grocery shopping and then to the garage to pick up her car. Over lunch, she invited me to dinner at her place the following night. As a widower living on TV dinners and sandwiches, I jumped at the opportunity. Besides she was a very attractive woman near my age, well, perhaps within ten years or so of my fifty-something. I arrived promptly at six as arranged, with a nice bottle of red wine under my arm.

Today's Specialty
Today was supposed to be really special. I was going to really surprise my husband. Instead he got me. I planned to fix his favorite meal and get all dolled up. You know have a romantic night. Yeah right! Well, this is what happened. Today is our anniversary, so I woke up with allot of ideas floating around. I started my day with a leisurely bath. I soaked for about thirty minutes letting the fragrances sink into my skin. I decided I would be dressed very sexy. I put on a short skirt, no underwear, a tanktop that tied at the bottom, and no bra. I wanted to feel sexy all day, and not just we he came home. Next I planned our evening. I took out the food and drink, and all the trappings for a romantic dinner. I was about to get started on dinner when Allen called. He told me not to get anything out for dinner because he had a surprise for me. To late I thought. I told him ok, whatever. I didn’t want any other surprises so I asked what I should wear. Sexy but Dressy, he said. Great,

Fatso, Peanut, & Stallion
Most people thought of Ma and Pa Tully as "White Trash." They weren't really. They are "Swamp People" living as several generations of their kin had before them. They scratched out a living working the swamps and bayous, living in a three room ramshackle house near "Forked Lake," South of Abbleville, Louisiana Tilly Tully is a second generation child. Ma was forty-three when Tilly came into the world. Once Tilly was weaned, she pretty much was on her own. Ma, was just worn out. She was a fat woman, weighting all of three hundred pounds, which she carried poorly, even thought she was six foot tall. Tilly weighted two hundred pounds by the time she was a senior in high school. She rode the school bus each day to and from Abbeville High School. Abbleville was a small school. Everyone had a nickname. Tilly's was Fatso. The other kids did not think of her as a girl, she was just Fatso. Tilly was gifted with a quick wit, as well as the ability to tell jokes and stories that were fun

Secret
Silence, He comes in to the room, Calm and Cool as though he knows she is watching. She shutters just to see his smile She wants to here him say her name. It is a secret, Something that musnt be shared. A feeling for him that is just left there. Knowing no one can feel how she feels Keeping her dream to her self and hurting because she cant tell. Hoping that he knows how he makes her feel. Hoping that sum day her dream will become real. Sssh!!! For she musnt say a word. She needs to keep it locked away because every one will say she is a fool To be in love with some so confident and cool. How absurd is it to fall for a dream Man she really needs to face reality. But she loves him and for now that will due. Because one day that dream just may come true.

Check Her Out
MEET MY NEW OWNER! CHECK OUT THIS HOTTIE! ALSO WHILE YOU ARE THERE SHOW HER SOME MAD LOVE BY RATING/FANNING/ADDING HER, MAYBE EVEN RATE SOME PICS AND STASH. OH, BTW DON'T FORGET TO TELL HER THAT KASEY SENT YOU. ALL YOU GOTTA DO IS CLICK ON THE PIC BELOW. MISS LEXI RAYNE THIS BULLY WAS MADE BY: †KASEY†SARGE'S BAD GIRLS†FU ANGEL†FU BOMBER†NICCI'S LOVER†OWNED BY MISS LEXI RAYNE†

Poem.
HEAVENS NOT THAT FAR, I’LL ALWAYS BE AROUND. I’LL DO MY BEST 2 PICK U UP WHEN YOUR FEELING DOWN. HEAVENS NOT THAT FAR, I’LL BE RIGHT BY YOUR SIDE. FOR ALL YOU HAVE TO DO IS LOOK, I WON’T BE HARD TO FIND. HEAVENS NOT THAT FAR, SO PLEASE DON’T SHED A TEAR. I’LL BE IN SIDE YOUR HEART, SO THERE’S NOTHING YOU SHOULD FEAR. HEAVENS NOT THAT FAR, AND THAT IS WHERE I’LL BE. WATCHING OVER YOU, BECAUSE YOU MEAN SO MUCH TO ME.

The Trick Is In The Treat~ Pt3
"Me next." Eva suddenly said, and she squatted over Victor, held his cock in position and then dropped her weight on him driving him into her partly dry hole. "Ah, fuck." Eva cried, in pain and pleasure. "That thing is fucking huge, I think I'm gonna split." "Shit." Victor cried, as his skin was pulled back viciously. "Don't I get a break?" "No Victim." Eva said with a sadistic grin. "You have to fuck all of us to orgasm, remember?" "Oh fuck." Victor groaned, as Eva ground down onto him, trying to get every possible bit of his cock inside her. What was it the girls had said? The trick was in the treat? He suddenly realized this might not be as pleasant as he had thought, and he was very worried. "That was almost an hour and a half," Terri said, "shall we try and break that record?" "You bet." Eva said, and started doing fast, cock guided, squats on Victor's exhausted body. The treat, Victor realized, was he got to have sex with four very beautiful and desirable women. Th

The Christmas Truce Of 1914
During World War I, on and around Christmas Day 1914, the sounds of rifles firing and shells exploding faded in a number of places along the Western Front in favor of holiday celebrations in the trenches and gestures of goodwill between enemies. Related Exhibits » Band of Bloggers » The Civil War » Dogfights » Mail Call » Military & War » The Revolution » Shootout » World War II Starting on Christmas Eve, many German and British troops sang Christmas carols to each other across the lines, and at certain points the Allied soldiers even heard brass bands joining the Germans in their joyous singing. At the first light of dawn on Christmas Day, some German soldiers emerged from their trenches and approached the Allied lines across no-man's-land, calling out "Merry Christmas" in their enemies' native tongues. At first, the Allied soldiers feared it was a trick, but seeing the Germans unarmed they climbed out of their trenches and shook hands with the enemy soldiers.

The Legend Of Saint Nicholas And Santa Claus
The Legend of St. Nicholas and Santa Claus St. Nicholas © Corbis The legend of Santa Claus can be traced back hundreds of years to a monk named St. Nicholas. It is believed that Nicholas was born sometime around 280 A.D. in Patara, near Myra in modern-day Turkey. Much admired for his piety and kindness, St. Nicholas became the subject of many legends. It is said that he gave away all of his inherited wealth and traveled the countryside helping the poor and sick. One of the best known of the St. Nicholas stories is that he saved three poor sisters from being sold into slavery or prostitution by their father by providing them with a dowry so that they could be married. Over the course of many years, Nicholas's popularity spread and he became known as the protector of children and sailors. His feast day is celebrated on the anniversary of his death, December 6. This was traditionally considered a lucky day to make large purchases or to get married. By the Renaissance, St. Nicholas wa

Your Promise
Never be afraid again, Hold onto me tight, I promise to love you, And I promise to never fight. I promise I wont leave you, Just like all the rest, I'll let you hold me tightly, And lean against my chest. If you want to cry, I'll wipe away your tears, I'll be here everyday, For the rest of my years. If you want to scream, I'll turn on the music loud, So no one can hear you, And how your feeling down. If you want to cut, You can turn to me instead, I'll listen to your problems, And everything inside your head. I promise this can work, If you say I do, I promise you its the truth, that i adore you.

Frozen Love
I always thought we'd grow old together. Facing each new day. But now, in the tears that fall upon my face. Your memory fades away. We walked with our problems in silence. Dawn falling into dusk. Leafs collecting at our cold and tired feet. Along with what grieved us. In my bedroom, surrounded by empty walls. I want to scream and shout. My mouth opens, but the tortured words... Just won't come out. You! This man I began to love. Got lost for a "Nothing". Everything we'd built, destroyed. Over one careless fling. Used to think I was so lucky. I had it all. Nothing unknown is knowable, so depressed. You just watched me fall. My heart bleeds. The snow becomes red. How life has mocked you. Were you ever here? memories gone, dead. Your like salt on an open wound. Reminding me you once were here. Warm like the blood in my veins. The love I had for you, so dear. In my distorted, broken dreams. So empty, yet real. I'm floating through air. I touch y

If You Build It They Will Come!
A family that lives on the outskirts of Anchorage, Alaska decided to build a sturdy, colorful playground for their 3 and 4 year old sons. They lined the bottom with smooth-stone gravel all around to avoid knee scrapes and other injuries. They finished building it one Friday evening and were very pleased with the end product. The following morning, the mom was about to wake up the boys and have them go out to play in their new play center. This is what she saw from the upstairs window: This gives a whole new meaning to 'build it and they will come!'

An Explanation Of The Blog Name--lol!
Ok when I was married, my husband, Paul, called it "the world according to Sarah" when I would get on my soap-box and rant or rave about something or other. See, I'm very opinionated and not shy about sharing those opinions--with anyone. So why not have a blog on here where I can do just that? Sounds like fun to me! And here's my policy--it's just like tv--if you don't like what you see--turn the channel. You don't like what I'm saying--just friggin move on people. Don't leave me with a bunch of nasty comments, just use your little mouse and click on someone else's page, k? K :) I do hope that you enjoy what I have to say, though. Most of it is humorous and intellectual all at the same time. But I'll warn you, I can't spell worth a damn, so forgive me in advance for that :) Alrighty, I look forward to this blog experience with you all. Happy reading! Sarah

Living In The (recent) Past
I read recently that you can’t really live in the moment. That by the time you fully perceive the moment, it is already in the past. This turned out to be very true for the 5K I entered last weekend. This is only the third 5K of my life, and I only decided to enter it two days ahead of time, leaving very little time to prepare for the race physically and logistically. So the night before I printed out a map of how to get there, had a bowl of ice cream, figured out what to wear, and took a shot of NyQuil. Preparations complete! Race day dawned cloudy and possibly rainy. I sorta felt cloudy and rainy, from both the weather and a NyQuil hangover. Drove to the race, stumble through finding a parking place, getting registered, getting a cup of coffee and a banana. Hang out with some people from the running club who showed up, do some token stretches, wander over to the starting area, and… We’re off! Slightly downhill at the start, onto the main road and back off again, and

~deep Slumber~
As I fall into this deep slumber I drift away swift, fatigue encumbered Nothing but tears await me there As I dream of her fingers running through my hair I long to kiss her,end my despair But it's just a dream What is this sorrow filled vision? And what does it mean? I wake up with tears running down my face As I return from that heartbreaking place Seeing her, my one true love Appear before me like and angel from above In the wake I fall to my knees And pray that this isn't a dream That I really am in that special place In her arms, the tighest embrace Her true love is such a bitter irony Knowing how it for me, will never be. I scream her name, I beg and plea But it for me, Will never be...

Halloween Night
OMG! Halloween rocked the house. My boyfriend (Ryan) me, his mom and her friends went out of town to this club that had a live band and we had so much fun! I dressed as a gothic whore--hehe :) Ryan went preppy. He's actually a metalhead, so it's kinda funny. And everyone there was dressed in crazy costumes. The club was for a much older crowd than Ryan and I. Mostly 40 and up. But we didn't care, we still had fun. It was hilarious, all the older men were checking me out and the women were glaring at me. HAHA--jealous! Sorry, when you know you look good, you know you look good ;) Anyways, so at one point Ryan and I were dancing and I realized I had my own little cheering section. Well at one point I very seductively squated down and then crawled up Ryan and the men behind me started cat-calling something fierce and Ryan just cracked up and yelled "yeah well she's going home with me!" And they booed him! LMAO! So I turned around and bowed for them and they started cheeri

Candle
I look into your eyes and I see myself in you I cannot look away for my life begins anew your smile fills me with something that I cannot describe what holds your interest now makes me feel alive every time I hear your voice it trembles in my heart I don't know where to stop I've forgotten how to start to take away the pain would mean the world to me please give me that chance to help you feel free I've forgotten everything that hurt me in the past my only hope for you is happiness that lasts thank you for this moment I will not soon forget you've helped my find myself the candle has been lit

Dreaming Of You
Had a dream about you, but you are so far away. I wish I could come, to where you are and stay. I know you don`t hear, from me that much. Even though I do long, for your loving touch. Your eyes remind me, of an everlasting forest. It is so hard for me, to get this off my chest. Your hair shines forever, in the morning light. When I actually speak to you, all my days are suddenly bright. Your voice is so unforgettable, and it sounds so sweet. Cant wait until the day, that we do actually meet. You tell me off your hard times, I wish that I was there. To hold you every day, and show you that I care. Just want to show you, what there is that I see. That there is nothing but, happiness for you and me.

Ray Of Sunshine
Just being her friend is an honor , and she brightens each and every day. I ramble, babble and sometimes make no sense, she just listens and has kind words to say. We got to know each other really quick, and we have shared things we both have been through. Sometimes I just have to question why ?, God has graced me with a friend so true . I tell her how her smile lightens up a room, she says thanks trying not to be coy. We both share a love for animals and nature, cant help but to think of her as a tomboy . Tries the best she can to be there for me, in these trying times and when I am in need. I stay up late sometimes just so we can talk, for a sweetheart to me she is indeed . We talk as if we have known each other forever, a friend to her is what I try to be. Finding it a little hard to write it all down, just how much she really means to me. I am truly grateful to have her in my life , giving out compliments and sharing out time. So this one my dear is

Far Behind
I see the sadness in your eyes, just cant help but see the pain. Thinking too much about our world, why do we deal with such strain? I cant begin to fix myself, so how on earth can I help you. You know that you dont have to be alone, with all the things that you are going through. Sit in nothing but silence as you vent, then I see the tears roll down your face. The words come at me fast and furious, because you have put me in my place. Grab your arms not letting you go, you jerk free of my grip and head for the door. Blame myself for what went wrong, as I write this I am sitting on the floor. It has been awhile since you have been gone, I still cant get you out of my mind. Through the good times and the bad, I was always thinking as myself being so unkind. As I sit here and I reflect on the past, there is something I wanted you to know. That deep down inside of my heart, a part of me died when I let you go!! But you were the one that left me Far Behind ?

Hey Stranger
You look so pretty , in your green dress. You got my mind , at so much digress. Got me at a speechless state, don't know what to do. All I can see is, nothing but you. Why cant I talk to you, in my eyes you are beyond reach. I am so sorry if , I seem like I begin to preach. I need to take that chance, and just talk to you. So scared I don't know, what to do. This is how I feel, all the time. And, No I don't feel , like I have to rhyme. I just want you to know how I feel. That you got me on my heels. It is strange for me to see. That with you, is what I want to be.

Irish Names And Meanings
A Aaron (male) This name comes from the Bible. It was borne by the brother of Moses in the Old Testament, and the suggested meaning is 'high mountain'. Abigail (male) 'father rejoiced' The name was used to anglicise the native name Gobinet in Ireland. Abraham (male) Hebrew, 'father of a multitude'. Abram (male) Hebrew, 'high father' This was the name originally borne by Abraham in the Old Testament. Achaius It means a form of Eochaidh, mainly used in Scotland. Adam [Adhamh] (male) A name of uncertain meaning. 'Red earth' and 'ruddy' are the suggested. Adam has been quite a popular name in Ireland. Adamnan (male) 'little Adam'. The name of an important Irish saint,(c.624-704), the biographer of St Columba and an acquaintance of the Venerable Bede. Adrian (male) Latin 'of the Adriatic'. Hadrianus, in its original form. This was the name of a well-known Roman emperor. It's a popular Irish name in Ireland today. Aeneas (male) Greek, worthy of praise' The name of a character

Dear Fubar Friends
will iam gettin rid of my fubar account i just really dont have the time anymore but it was nice meeting all of you..keep in touch with me if you are on my yahoo.i will truly miss all of you.kisses and hugs.

In Love
Just letting everyone know on here that I am in love and completely happy. Love is a wonderful thing and I hope everyone can have what we have! Have a great night. so please dont message me asking for anything other than friendship or you will be deleted from my list.. Brandy

*****is Obama The Anti Christ,the Beast 666?****
*****IS OBAMA THE ANTI CHRIST,THE BEAST 666?**** -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- OBAMA IS MABUS, THE ANTI-CHRIST, THE BEAST 666!!! 1.- He will come as a man of Peace (Obama promises peace in Iraq, defeat for the United States,a country he claims to serve but betrays.) He will be a liar and a cheat, Son of Satan. 2.- He will come mounted on a white Female horse(Obama mother is white who had 12 African husbands and lovers)He will be a homosexual an abomination to God. 3.- He will come to deceive( Obama says he's a Christian but in fact he was born a Muslim, practices the Islamic religion, prays Friday’s facing Mecca) 4.- He will make himself the most powerful man on earth, if elected, Mabus will be his name. Millions of godless people will follow Mabus and will kill for him. 5.- He will try to destroy the Jewish People and Israel,the nature of the Beast is to hate Israel( Obama has said he loves Arabs specially Pa

Obama Looks To Rewrite Nation's Electoral Map
Obama looks to rewrite nation's electoral map Zachary Coile, Chronicle Washington Bureau Monday, November 3, 2008 -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- (11-03) 04:00 PST Washington -- Democrat Barack Obama enters the final lap of his presidential bid with the chance to remake the nation's electoral map, with polls showing him leading in at least a half-dozen states that President Bush carried in 2004. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Republican John McCain hopes a last-minute shift by undecided voters could help him capture toss-up states like Florida, Ohio, Indiana, Missouri and North Carolina and reverse Obama's momentum in Virginia, Colorado, Nevada, New Mexico and Iowa. With the exception of Pennsylvania, a traditionally Democratic state where McCain is making a last-ditch stand,

11/03/08 - Duncan Sheik - Barely Breathing
SONG VERSION BELOW Barely Breathing - Duncan Sheik VIDEO VERSION BELOW Barely Breathing - Duncan Sheik LYRICS BELOW I know what you're doing, I see it all too clear I only taste the saline when I kiss away your tears You really had me going, wishing on a star But the black holes that surround you are heavier by far I believed in your confusion, you were so completely torn It must have been that yesterday was the day that I was born There's not much to examine, there's nothing left to hide You really can't be serious if you have to ask me why I say goodbye... 'Cause I am barely breathing And I can't find the air don't know who I'm kidding Imagining you care And I could stand here waiting A fool for another day I don't suppose it's worth the price, worth the price the price that I would pay Everyone keeps asking, what's it all about? I used to be so certain and I can't figure out What is this attraction? I only feel the pain There's

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As I sit here alone wondering is this the end. Just being afraid am I going to lose my best friend. I'm so scared today, I don't know what to do My emotions are running all in circles, thinking what should I do. Today makes me realize that I cannot be without you. Simply for the fact of how much I love you. This is so hard to write because I'm trembling with fear. I miss you already, I wish you were here. I feel so sick, wondering how am I going to sleep. I wish I could be in your arms, but now it's like a giant leap. All I can say is please don't leave me for long. Our Love is much stronger, you and me belong.

My Racing Stats
Well I really didn't pay attention to most of my stats for most of the things I did since I was a kid. Now how ever I do have stats for the ASA and ARCA Remax. I raced the 21 Ford Car in the ASA Racing Series and 28 Ford Car in the Arca Remax Series. My ASA Career: 148 Starts, 25 Wins, 32 Top Fives, 51 Top Tens and 1997 and 1998 ASA Racing Series Champion. My Arca Career: 15 Starts, 2 Wins, 5 Top Fives, 12 Top Tens. Well this is where I stood when I stopped but I have another 10 starts and in those 10 starts I have 1 dnf(Did Not Finish), 5 Top Fives, 8 Top Tens and ended up with a total of 6 wins for the series and ended up 2nd in the points standings in the ARCA Remax Series. The wins are between the total of the 25 starts I had in that series.

People.. Got This From My Sissy!
People come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime. When you figure out which it is, you know exactly what to do. When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed outwardly or inwardly. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally, or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend, and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrong doing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up or out and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled; their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and it is now time to move on. When people come into your life for a SEASON, it is because your turn has come to share, grow, or lea

Why Should It Matter To Those Who...
WHY SHOULD IT MATTER TO THOSE WHO LIVE IN OTHER COUNTRIES THAT AREN'T AMERICAN WHO WE VOTE FOR? I MEAN AFTER ALL ITS THE UNITED STATES OF AMERICA LAST TIME I CHECKED...VOTE MCCAIN/PALIN

The Last Song I Heard Before I Broke My Leg
)yeah and I was in an Irish pub in St Albans with a load of Irish men very drunk and having the craic big time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)So blame them for me brreaking my leg cos I do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

One Flaw In Women
The One Flaw In Women By the time the Lord made woman, He was into his sixth day of working overtime. An angel appeared and said, 'Why are you spending so much time on this one?' And the Lord answered, 'Have you seen my spec sheet on her? She has to be completely washable, but not plastic, Have over 200 movable parts, all replaceable And able to run on diet coke and leftovers, Have a lap that can hold four children at one time, Have a kiss that can cure anything from a scraped knee to a broken heart -and she will do everything With only two hands.' The angel was astounded at the requirements. 'Only two hands!? No way! And that's just on the standard model? That's too much work for one day. Wait until tomorrow to finish.' 'But I won't, ' the Lord protested. 'I am so close to finishing this creation that is so close to my own heart. She already heals herself when she is sick AND can work 18 hour days.' The angel moved closer and touched the woman. 'But you

I Have A Webcam
i have a webcam for the ladies that wanna see me live ! lol, i drive an 18 wheel truck and am online most nights after 11pm eastern time =+) i love webcam adventures, usualy best if you have 1 too =+) i am open to demands and ideas from the ladies, just add " goosewith12guage " to your yahoo messenger and i will add you then send me a message and i will invite you to view my webcam, no dudes please.

Destiny's Hand
How can I begin to explain what my heart wants you to know I stumble over my words and can't express it even though, You make my world revolve around a picture perfect dream That in itself is more I know than maybe what it seems. Gathering the many thoughts of you I write it out in verse I have fallen victim of the final soul mates curse. To be in love and be apart is the hardest thing to do I wish for a time that I can spend eternity with you. And though you tell me patience is a virtue I should learn Its not the being impatient part that holds to my concern Its the distance that we strive to close each and every day It's knowing that you want me and love me the same way. It's the way you've shown me how to smile no matter what the time The way my heart has found a way to say to you in rhyme The way you always seem to know exactly what to say Oh how I wish that in my heart forever you would stay I know that we have just begin this journey of our soul But I had

Beautiful Butterfly
Wings of different colors, How you struggled to become who you are, A measley little worm is how you started your days, My how you've come so far, Trapped in a cocoon of white, Did you know how beautiful the world would be, After crawling from tree to tree? Spread your wings and fly away, You've earned the right to have this day, Fly into the bright blue sky, Your fellow creatures looking on in awe, Wondering how such an ugly worm could turn Into the beautiful creature they see today, You went through many steps, Often wanting to quit and die away, But your determination transformed you, Could this be? Yes, you are now a beautiful butterfly of many colors For all to see.

Hey Juke Box
you are so right not much has changed.... oh i found this site with the top 500 songs from like all genres it is cool right now i am listening to love ones and angie by the stones...the same vapid full of themselves cant think outside the bun people.. with a couple cool ones....but most of them well...ya know..lol! i miss you..i miss your way and here is your cheesy song for the day.. yes it is quality not quantity.. see you in mooniverse! "Everybody needs a little time away," I heard you say, "from each other." "Even lovers need a holiday far away from each other." Hold me now. It's hard for me to say I'm sorry. I just want you to stay.(Stay with me, oh.) After all that we've been through, I will make it up to you. I promise to. And after all that's been said and done, You're just the part of me I can't let go of. Couldn't stand to be kept away not for a day from your body. (Baby I cant live without you, not even a day.) Wouldn't wanna be swept away,

Stop The Hate
You can go to : http://www. petitiononline. com/seg5130/petition. html and sign the petition to re-open Prop 8. There are already over 37,000 signatures... Don't give up...no matter what... There are still up to 3 million (or more) absentee and provisional ballots to be counted.. they have 35 days to match all the signatures and validate the absentee ballots... The fat lady hasn't sung yet....so it ain't over.... Prop 8 takes away the rights of gays and lesbians, it makes us second rate citizens..This is no better than seperating the blacks from the white, women from men..Women how would you feel if you could not vote..That was the case not too long ago? To those of you who had family who had to ride at the back of the bus, drink from differnet fountains..Would YOU want that again? What is next branding us and seperating us from heterosexuals? Do we not love? Do we not have feelings? Do we not bleed the same color, breathe the same air? The sanctity of marriage...Is t

For The Heart, From The Heart
For the heart, from the heart The treasure heart you keep inside That keeps my dreams away from harm Touches my life in every way And seeds of love revives my heart The fire that burns inside my mind Incinerates the deadly fears Your sound and voice depletes my sins Your warm melody feeds no stop For the heart, from the heart Every heart that beats a day The shadow path removed to be And hear my tongue that says no lie Say my prayers as lullabies For the heart, from the heart I fell and kept my knees on ground You came into my life and lived And helped me rise from burden's toes Kissed my lips in eternity For the heart, from the heart

Back To Back
Back to Back we will stand Arm in arm hand in hand i will do my best to keep my head on ur chest If you stumble i to will fall because i feel i failed to help you stand tall if you grin i will smile if we end up in front of a mountain i'll carry you for awhile help me while i help you to keep our heads up and see this through dry up the tears no more reason to weep i'll kiss them off when you go to sleep i'm there back to back with you

11.07.08 - Cars - Drive
SONG VERSION BELOW Drive - The Cars VIDEO VERSION BELOW The Cars - Drive - The Cars LYRICS BELOW Who's gonna tell you when It's too late? Who's gonna tell you things Aren't so great? You can't go on Thinking nothing's wrong (what now?) Who's gonna drive you home tonight? Who's gonna pick you up When you fall? Who's gonna hang it up When you call? Who's gonna pay attention To your dreams? And who's gonna plug their ears When you scream? You can't go on... Thinking nothing's wrong (what now?) Who's gonna drive you home tonight? (bye bye bye) (bye bye bye) (bye bye bye) (bye bye bye) Who's gonna hold you down When you....(shake?) Who's gonna come around When you break? You can't go on Thinking nothing's wrong (but now?) Who's gonna drive you home tonight? Oh, you know you can't go on Thinking nothing's wrong Who's gonna drive you home tonight? (bye bye bye) (bye bye bye) (bye bye bye)

Rip.. Dad 11/7/1944 - 12/15/2007
Today would have been my dads 64th birthday, and I miss him so much. I have been trying to get in touch with some friends today to get my mind off of it, but they are all busy, or maybe one isn't talking to me at all! LOL... Chatted with my brother today and we got to remembering dad today, and it was fun and sad all at the sametime. Dad I love you and miss you more than I ever thought this heart was capable.

Please Stop
Please Stop I’m pleading with you Beat Beat Please stop now Beat Beat Since your has stopped for me Beat Beat I can’t take anymore Beat Beat The have sunk further Beat Beat It is now shattered Beat Beat All the pieces scorched Beat Beat Each can bare no more strain Beat Beat I wish it would listen Beat Beat It needs to stop now Beat Beat The sound of pain deafening Beat Beat I am begging you please Beat Beat Can you hear me at all? Beat Beat Why can’t you just stop now Beat Beat I wish my heart would listen Beat Beat

Bequething Money
Rapid fire session here. I find it amusing that there are people that post nude, or very risque pictures and in turn are able to actually make a profit by them on Fubar. Well at least in the form of favors and other things here that cost money, alleviating them from having to pay for it themselves. When I see someones page and it says things like 'For a blast, HH, or bling you can see these pics', and things like that I'm oddly confused. Why would anyone want to spend money on this? And oddly enough they do.

Moving!!!
Well I'm finally getting to move back to Oklahoma!!! It's taken awhile to save up and with help some friends and family I'm moving back to Oklahoma. Texas is cool and everything but when times get hard I know I can always rely on my family for help. My boys are excited, I got custody back from my ex, was pretty easy when he's got over 5 pounds of mj in his car. I had to go get the boys at the station. So now my ex doesn't get to see the boys at all. Well enough about that we are on our way to a new life in Oklahoma.

Bad Choice!!!!!!
...SO TRUE...HERES WHO YOU VOTED FOR......OBAMA Way to go America, you voted a communist into office. Are you proud of yourselves? You voted in a rookie, a FIRST TERM senator with zero military experience, the experience that is needed to be able to truly lead this nation at such a critical time. You voted in someone who wants to steal from the rich and give to the poor, someone who thinks small business owners should "Spread the wealth", thus putting an end to the American dream. No more "Mom 'n Pop" restaurants, they wont be able to afford to keep their doors open once Obama rapes their wallets. You voted in someone who wants to disarm our nuclear defense system, a system that WORKS and can defend our country should the war make its way to our shores. Someone who wants to invade Iran, which is a fantastic idea after disarming America. Leave us as sitting ducks, great! You voted in someone who associates with KNOWN

Hello
have you ever heard a love song .that you could not understand. then you never knew the love ..between a woman and a man . for love it keeps flowing ..like the blowing of the wind. you keep loving and loving as if there was no end

I Never Will Understand And Dont Care To Know...
I WANT TO MAKE SOMETHING CLEAR RIGHT NOW. OF ALL THE BULLSHIT AND BAD POLITICS IVE SEEN THIS YEAR WITH MANY PEOPLE. YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE IF YOUR READING THIS. TO EVERYONE ELSE IF YOU GET OFFENDED MIGHT AS WELL SUCK IT UP AS IVE BEEN TOLD BEFORE. I DONT KNOW WHAT THE FUCK IT IS ABOUT PEOPLE AND WHY THEY DO THE THINGS THEY DO. I THOUGHT I WOULD HAVE ALOT MORE SUPPORT THAN WHAT IVE BEEN GETTIN OVER THE YEARS SINCE IVE BEEN WRITING. NOW IVE REACHED MY BOILING POINT. SO WHAT IM GOING TO SAY IS FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART. I DONT NEED NO EMPATHY, SYMPATHY, AND FRIENDLY PHONE CALLS EVERY BLUE MOON BECAUSE OF BOREDOM. COULDNT HAVE BEEN THAT BORED IF YOU WERE OUT FUCKIN AROUND. ISNT IT OBVIOUS THAT WE WERE NEVER FRIENDS IN THE FIRST PLACE. IM NOT IN THE MOOD FOR ALL THE LONG STORIES ABOUT NOTHIN BECAUSE IT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH MY BIZ. SAVE THE BULLSHIT FOR SOMEONE ELSE BECAUSE IM NOT LISTENING ANYMORE. MY DAYS OF WHINNING AND COMPLAINING ARE DONE. IM GOING TO GO GET MINE AND I DONT NEED ST

Anti-christ
Over the next couple weeks I will do an expose of sorts on this elusive character known as the Anti-Christ. I'm doing this blog over a couple weeks with a Thanksgiving thing in the middle so that I can answer the question once and for all. Is the President Elect the Elusive Anti-Christ? Or is he the precursor to the Anti-Christ and Armageddon? I will use an enormous amount of Biblical information, information taken from the web and I will use my own believes. Please take this time and read my page so you will know what I believe, how I believe and why I believe it. You don't have to fan, rate and add me, just read so that you will see who I am and how I will come to the conclusions I do. If this subject bothers you well too bad, I feel I need to take this time NOW to go over this. This is NOT a political blog. I will begin in the Book of Revelations. Chapter 1 verse 8 , from there other verses and other sources will be used. "I am the Alpha and Omega the beginning and

Torn Between Writing And Writing
I just can't get on myself to do my paper. Its due on the 13th and its on a subject that I really have no idea about. Chinese civilization Empress Wu. She is one of the only women to rule China. I thought it would be interesting but I am really not interested. I just don't want to do stuff anymore. I have no gumption for education right now. I guess I just need to get my hat back on my head. I know what I need to do I just can't seem to do it. I would rather spend my time fantasizing about a certain person or fiddling around on the internet. I just need to get my ass in gear. Damn... I guess that I just need to get down to business.

Drowning In My Pool Or Sorrow....
So dark is this soul in me Searching to find the light I am clawing my way back to the surface from this pool of sorrow I drown in I see the air bubbles slowly escaping me I sink deeper within the darkness Until I watch the last reminisce of air float to the top...

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HEY THOSE WHO KNOW ME MY 5 YR OLD ALMOST 6 YR OLD HAS AUTISM AND HAS BEEN DIGNOSED WITH MENTAL RETARDATION AND TODAY HE WAS ALSO DIAGNOSED WITH A.D.H.D IM MOMMY AND IM DADDY AND YES IT IS HARD TO DEAL WITH SO IF ANYONE KNOWS WHAT IM GOING THRU GET AT ME AND OFFER ADVICE THANK YOU

Of Mice And Men By John Steinbeck
Plot Summary: Steinbeck refuses to allow himself to be pigeonholed. This is as completely different from Tortilla Flat and In Dubious Battle as they are from each other. Only in his complete understanding of the proletarian mentality does he sustain a connecting link - though this is assuredly not a "proletarian novel". It is oddly absorbing - this picture of the strange friendship between the strong man and the giant with the mind of a not-quite-bright child. Driven from job to job by the failure of the giant child to fit into the social pattern, they finally find - in a ranch - what they feel their chance to achieve a homely dream they have built. But once again, society defeats them. There's a simplicity, a directness, a poignancy in the story that gives it a singular power, difficult to define. Steinbeck is a genius - and an original. My Comments: I haven't read a "classic" book in awhile. I had finished my library books and decided to grab one off of my own bookshelf. I was a

Blocking Rehearsal
Last Friday was our first blocking rehearsal. Basically that means that the director tells us where to move about onstage. The best part about blocking rehearsals is that it gives an actor a sense of what he or she is going to be doing while speaking. So, my blocking is awesome. As the Wicked Witch, I get pulled on stage on a majestic throne by my winkies! HaHa! Yea its quite an entrance...the grandest I've ever had. And I get to dance around doing a voodoo chant (Its the Soul Train version of it so...lol). The third and most awesome part of my blocking is my death scene....I literally melt into the floor. Now every actor will tell you...a fantastic death scene is a gift to play. With the exception of getting spit in the face accidentally by a fellow exuberant actor getting his lines out, it was a great night!

Jack Johnson-gone Going
Look at all those fancy clothes, But these could keep us warm just like those. And what about your soul? Is it cold? Is it straight from the mold, and ready to be sold? And cars and phones and diamond rings, Bling, bling, those are only removable things. And what about your mind? Does it shine? Are there things that concern you, more than your time? Gone, going. Gone, everything. Gone, give a damn. Gone, be the birds, when they don’t wanna sing. Gone, people, all awkward with their things, Gone. Look at you, out to make a deal. You try to be appealing, but you lose your appeal. And what about those shoes you’re in today? They’ll do no good, on the bridges you burnt along the way. Are you willing to sell, anything? Gone, with your hurt. Leave your footprints, And we’ll shame them with our words. Gone, people, all careful and consumed. Gone Gone, going. Gone, everything. Gone, give a damn. Gone, be the birds, when they don’t wanna sing. Gone,

Incubus-dig
We all have a weakness But some of ours are easy to identify. Look me in the eye And ask for forgiveness; We'll make a pact to never speak that word again Yes you are my friend. We all have something that digs at us, At least we dig each other So when weakness turns my ego up I know you'll count on the me from yesterday If I turn into another Dig me up from under what is covering The better part of me Sing this song Remind me that we'll always have each other When everything else is gone. We all have a sickness That cleverly attaches and multiplies No matter how we try. We all have someone that digs at us, At least we dig each other So when sickness turns my ego up I know you'll act as a clever medicine. If I turn into another Dig me up from under what is covering The better part of me. Sing this song! Remind me that we'll always have each other When everything else is gone. Oh each other.... When everything Else is gone.

Bar Fries
It's strange. I just got the weirdest craving for french fries. But like, greasy, bar french fries from a seedy, dark, smoky type of hole in the wall bar. I get these strange white trash cravings every once in a while.

What Is A Veteran?
A veteran is someone who, at one point in his life wrote a blank check made payable to "The United States of America" 'for any amount, 'up to and including my life'. 'That is honor, and there are way too many people in this country who no longer understand it.' (Author Unknown)

Here We Sit
Here We Sit Here we sit on this day your memories hit, Rain flows from the Heavens like angels cring, Crashing as the thunder strikes just like the bass on a drive in night, Lightin' flashing as if it was a strobe light, Coldness blows over as I start to think, May my loved ones, "Rest In Peace" By: Jess L. Burris In memory of all my friend and loved ones that has past on. For all the good times we had together will you was here.May I see you agian at heaven gates.

Here I Am
Here I Am Here I am, I am at the end of my life, I fought a good fight in my time, I tried to teach you what I could, I tried to show you all the good, My life was fun, I remember all the times we laughed, I remember all the times we cried, I even remember all the kids I seen grow up, My life is over, But; I will dream on, My family is here for you, As I was yesterday, The tears we cried are the tear we died for, We are who we are, You helped me now I am gone, Maybe you can help my family, My body is here even though my soul is gone, May your life be filled of joy and laughter that we had together! By: Jess L. Burris Jr.

Eternal Heart Break
Eternal Heart Break Sorry my heart has been smashed into a few thousand pieces, No use in putting it back together, As I sit here under the weather, As if I am in a well, No thoughts to tell, Hanging my head in shame, Knowing I have lost everything, My life feels over, But yet, I still breath, Nothing to do but to sit here and think, Alone in this room is where I will be, Weeping like a willow tree!!!! By: Jess L. Burris Jr.

A Voice Of A Angel
A Voice Of A Angel When I call I hear an angel, A smile is brought to my face, Happiness as I see, From the sweet voice of an angel, As I speak the laughter rings, You're my world even if I can't see you, As hard as it is to speak, I hold the truth in my heart for you, I have heard you tears and turned them from sadness to joy, Just like a beautiful red rose blooming in the summer just for you! By: Jess L. Burris Jr.

Love You Day
HAVE 20 MINUTES TO TELL 5 OF YOUR SWEETEST FRIENDS THAT YOU LOVE THEM (INCLUDING ME) SO I LOVE YOU! GO! AND TAG YOU'RE IT!! YOU HAVE BEEN CONSIDERED ONE OF MY SWEETEST FRIENDS ON MY LIST. X X X. SOME FRIENDS: Will ignore this,BUT THATS OK-GO AHEAD AND SENT IT TO YOUR 5-INCLUDING ME IF YOU CARE. hugz L*O*V*E* Y*O*U*! Today is love u day. Send 2 everyone you love. Whether it's real love or friend love. Ur spoiled if you get 4 back

A Perfect Circle - 3 Libras
Threw you the obvious And you flew with it on your back A name in your recollection Down among a million same Difficult not to feel a little bit Disappointed and passed over When I look right through, See you naked but oblivious And you don't see me But I threw you the obvious Just to see if there's more behind the Eyes of a fallen angel, Eyes of a tragedy Here I am expecting just a little bit Too much from the wounded But I see, see through it all See through, see you 'Cause I threw you the obvious To see what occurs behind the Eyes of a fallen angel, Eyes of a tragedy Oh well, oh well Apparently nothing, Apparently nothing at all You don't, you don't You don't see me You don't, you don't You don't see me You don't, you don't You don't see me You don't, you don't You don't see me You don't see me You don't, you don't You don't see me at all

A Perfect Circle - Passive
Dead as dead can be My doctor tells me But I just can't believe him Ever the optimistic one I'm sure of your ability To become my perfect enemy Wake up and face me Don't play dead 'cause maybe Someday I will walk away and say You disappoint me Maybe you're better off this way Leaning over you here Cold and catatonic I catch a brief reflection Of what you could and might have been It's your RIGHT and your ability To become my perfect enemy Wake up (Why can’t you?) And face me (Come on now) Don't play dead (Don’t play dead) 'Cause maybe (Because maybe) Someday (Someday) I will walk away and say You disappoint me Maybe you're better off this way Maybe you're better off this way (×4) You're better off this (×2) Maybe you're better off... Wake up (Why can't you?) And face me (Come on now) Don't play dead (Don’t play dead) 'Cause maybe (Because maybe) Someday (Someday) I will walk away and say You fucking disappoint me Maybe you're bette

A Perfect Circle - Rose
Don't disturb the Beast, The tempermental Goat, The Snail, while he's feeding on the Rose Stay frozen, compromise What I will I am Bend around the wind Silently thrown about again I'm treading so soft and lightly Compromising my will I am I am, I will So no longer will I Lay down, play dead Play your doe In the headlights locked down And terrified Your deer in the headlights Shut down and horrified when Push comes to pull comes to shove Comes to step around this Self-destructive dance That never would've ended 'til I rose, I roared aloud here I will, I am I am, I will So no longer will I Lay down, play dead, Play this Kneel down Gun-shy martyr, pitiful I rose, I roared I will, I am

A Perfect Circle - The Hollow
run, desire, run this sexual being run him like a blade to and through the heart, no conscience one motive: cater to the hollow screaming feed me here fill me up again temporarily pacify this hungering so grow, libido throw dominoes of indiscretions down falling all around in cycles, in circles constantly consuming, conquer and devour. 'cause its time to bring the fire down bridle all this indiscretion long enough to edify and permanently fill this hollow screaming feed me here fill me up again temporarily pacifying feed me here fill me up again temporarily pacifying

A Perfect Circle - The Outsider
Help me if you can, It's just that this, Is not the way I'm wired, So could you please, Help me understand why, You've given in to woe these reckless dark desires, you're Lying to yourself again, Suicidal imbecile, Think about it, Pound it on a fault line, What will it take to get it through to you, precious? I’m over this Why do you wanna throw it away like this, Such a mess, Why would I wanna watch you. Disconnect and self destruct one bullet at a time, What's your rush now? Everyone will have his day to die Medicated, Drama queen, Picture perfect numb belligerence, Narcissistic, Drama queen, Craving fame and all its decadence Lying through your teeth again, Suicidal imbecile, Think about it, Pound it on a fault line, What will it take to get it through to you precious? I'm over this, why do you want to throw it away like this? Such a mess, Why would I wanna watch you? Disconnect and self destruct, one bullet at a time, What's your rush now?

A Perfect Circle - Pet
Don't fret precious I'm here, step away from the window and go back to sleep Lay your head down child I won't let the boogeyman come Count their bodies like sheep To the rhythm of the war drums Pay no mind to the rabble Pay no mind to the rabble Head down, go to sleep To the rhythm of the war drums Pay no mind what other voices say They don't care about you, like I do, (like I do) Safe from pain, and truth, and choice, and other poison devils, See, they don't give a fuck about you, like I do. Just stay with me, safe and ignorant, go, back to sleep, go back to sleep Lay your head down child I won't let the boogeyman come Count their bodies like sheep To the rhythm of the war drums Pay no mind to the rabble Pay no mind to the rabble Head down, go to sleep To the rhythm of the war drums I'll be the one to protect you from Your enemies and all your demons I'll be the one to protect you from A will to survive and a voice of reason I'll be the one to

A Perfect Circle - The Noose
So glad to see you well, overcome them Completely silent now With heaven's help You've cast your demons out And not to pull your halo down Around your neck and tug you off your cloud But I'm more than just a little curious How you're plannin' to go about makin' your amends To the dead To the dead Recall the deeds as if they're all Someone else's Atrocious stories Now you stand reborn Before us all So glad to see you well And not to pull your halo down Around your neck and tug you to the ground But I'm more than just a little curious How you're plannin' to go about makin' your amends To the dead To the dead With your halo slippin' down Your halo slippin' Your halo slippin' down Your halo slippin' down Your halo slippin' down (I'm more than just a little curious How you're plannin' to go about makin' your amends) [repeated] Your halo slippin' down Your halo's slippin' down to choke you now

Tool - Stinkfist
Something has to change. Un-deniable dilemma. Boredom's not a burden Anyone should bear. Constant over stimu-lation numbs me but I would not want You any other way. Cause, It's not enough. I need more. Nothing seems to satisfy. I said, I don't want it. I just need it. To breathe, to feel, to know I'm alive. Finger deep within the borderline. Show me that you love me and that we belong together. Relax, turn around and take my hand. I can help you change Tired moments into pleasure. Say the word and we'll be Well upon our way. Blend and balance Pain and comfort Deep within you Till you will not want me any other way. But, It's not enough. I need more. Nothing seems to satisfy. I said, I don't want it. I just need it. To breathe, to feel, to know I'm alive. Knuckle deep inside the borderline. This may hurt a little but it's something you'll get used to. Relax. Slip away. Something kinda sad about the way that things have come to be. D

Tool - Schism
I know the pieces fit cause I watched them fall away mildewed and smoldering, fundamental differing, pure intention juxtaposed will set two lovers souls in motion disintegrating as it goes testing our communication the light that fueled our fire then has burned a hole between us so we cannot see to reach an end crippling our communication. I know the pieces fit cause I watched them tumble down no fault, none to blame it doesn't mean I don't desire to point the finger, blame the other, watch the temple topple over. To bring the pieces back together, rediscover communication. The poetry that comes from the squaring off between, And the circling is worth it. Finding beauty in the dissonance. There was a time that the pieces fit, but I watched them fall away. Mildewed and smoldering, strangled by our coveting I've done the math enough to know the dangers of our second guessing Doomed to crumble unless we grow, and strengthen our communication cold silence has a ten

Tool - Parabola
We barely remember, who or what came before this precious moment. We are choosing to be here, right now. Hold on, stay inside... This holy reality, this holy experience. Choosing to be here in... This body. This body holding me. Be my reminder here that I am not alone in This body, this body holding me, feeling eternal all this pain is an illusion. Alive.... In this holy reality, in this holy experience. Choosing to be here in... This body. This body holding me. Be my reminder here that I am not alone in This body, this body holding me, feeling eternal all this pain is an illusion. Twirling 'round with this familiar parabol. Spinning, weaving 'round each new experience. Recognize this as a holy gift and celebrate this chance to be alive and breathing, a chance to be alive and breathing. This body holding me reminds me of my own mortality. Embrace this moment. Remember; we are eternal, all this pain is an illusion.

Tool - Vicarious
Eye on the the TV 'Cause tragedy thrills me Whatever flavor it happens to be, like... "Killed by the husband" "Drowned by the ocean" "Shot by his own son" "She used a poison in his tea...kissed him goodbye" That's my kind of story It's no fun 'til someone dies Don't look at me like I am a monster Frown out your one face But with the other Stare like a junkie Into the TV Stare like a zombie While the mother holds her child Watches them die Hands to the sky crying, "Why, oh why?" Cause I need to watch things die... from a distance Vicariously I live while the whole world dies YOU ALL NEED IT TOO, DON'T LIE Why can't we just admit it? Why can't we just admit it? We won't give pause until the blood is flowing Neither the brave nor bold Will write as the story's told We won't give pause until the blood is flowing I need to watch things die... from a good safe distance Vicariously I live while the whole world dies You all feel the same, so... Why ca

The Confederate Flag: Heritage Or Hate ?
What is the Story Behind These Flags? Why is the Confederate Flag Often Referred to as The Southern Cross By Supporters? Why is called a flag of hate by others? Why is it such a big deal, especially in South Carolina, where the NAACP is holding a boycott of state tourism? What is the deeper meaning behind the Confederate flag and can there be a compromise and an objective view to this hotbutton issue? What does the Bible say about this issue? The flag on the left is the most-known version of the Confederate battle flag; the one on the right is the St. Andrew's cross, the Scottish battle flag. There are obvious similarities between the two flags. The St. Andrew's cross is named as such because St. Andrew felt that he was not worthy of being crucified the way Jesus was, so he was crucified in the direction shown in the flags above. Why the Southern Cross? The deep South have been known as the Bible belt because of its religious conservatism. By the time the Confederate Battle

11.12.08 - Puddle Of Mudd - Blurry
SONG VERSION BELOW Blurry - Puddle of Mud - Puddle of Mudd VIDEO VERSION BELOW Blurry - Puddle Of Mudd LYRICS BELOW Everything's so blurry And everyone's so fake And everybody's empty And everything is so messed up Pre-occupied without you I cannot live at all My whole world surrounds you I stumble, then I crawl You could be my someone You could be my scene You know that I'll protect you From all of the obscene I wonder what you're doin' Imagine where you are There's oceans inbetween us But that's not very far Can you take it all away? Can you take it all away? Well, you shoved it in my face This pain you gave to me Can you take it all away? Can you take it all away? Well, you shoved it in my face Everyone is changing There's no one left that's real So make up your own ending And let me know just how you feel 'Cause I am lost without you I cannot live at all My whole world surrounds you I stumble, then I crawl You coul

Bullet For My Valentine - All These Things I Hate (revolve Around Me)
Once more I'll say goodbye to you Things happen, but we don't really know why if it's supposed to be like this why do most of us ignore the chance to miss oh yeah Torn apart at the seams as my dreams turn to tears I'm not feeling the situation Run away try to find that safe place you can hide It's the best place to be when you're feeling like Me! (Me) Yeah! (Yeah) All these things I hate revolve around Me! (Me) Yeah! (Yeah) Just back off before i snap Once more you tell those lies to me Why can't you just be straight up with honesty (honesty,honesty) When you say those things in my ear Why do you always tell me what you wanna hear (wana hear,wanna hear) oh yeah (yeah!) Wear your heart on your sleeve make things hard to believe I'm not feeling the situation Run away try to find that safe place you can hide It's the best place to be when you're feeling like Me! (Me) Yeah! (Yeah) All these things I hate revolve around me (Me) Yeah! (Yeah) Just back off

Bullet For My Valentine - Her Voice Resides
DIE!... Our time has ended I feel it's only just begun And I’m frustrated I can’t believe your not the one My ears are bleeding Her voice resides inside my head And now I'm choking (release this noose around my neck) Will I just fall to pieces Or am I alright? To iron out my creases You must lacerate me till they’re gone These are my final words to you I know you're listening can you, hear me? The time has come to say 'goodbye' These are my final words.... to you.... The clock is ticking My heart is bursting through my chest And now I’m crying (these tears are falling off my face) The chair is creaking Her voice resides inside my head And now its over (you put this noose around my neck) Will I just fall to pieces Or am I alright? To iron out the creases You must lacerate me till they’re gone These are my final words to you I know you're listening can you hear me? The time has come to say 'goodbye' These are my final words... to you… He

Bullet For My Valentine - Hearts Burst Into Fire
I'm coming home I've been gone for far too long Do you remember me at all? I'm leaving Have I fucked things up again? I'm dreaming Too much time without you spent It hurts Wounds so sore Now I'm torn, now I'm torn I've been far away When I see your face my heart's burst into fire Hearts burst into fire You're not alone But I know I'm far from home Do you remember me at all? I'm leaving Do you wait for me again? I'm screaming No more days without you spent It hurts Wounds so sore Now I'm torn, now I'm torn I've been far away When I see your face my heart's burst into fire Hearts burst into fire My bed's so cold, so lonely No arms, just sheets to hold me Has this world stopped turning? Are we forever to be apart? Forever to be apart It hurts Wounds so sore Now I'm torn, now I'm torn I've been far away When I see your face my heart's burst into fire Hearts burst into fire (I'm coming home) I've been gone for far too long (I'm coming home)

Bullet For My Valentine - Waking The Demon
Helpless my eyes are bleeding from the fear that's inside You sealed your demise when you took what was mine Don't try and stop me from avenging this world No voice to be heard Waking the demon Where'd you run to Walking in shadows Watch the blood flow There's not much longer so don't try and fight Your body's weakening walk to the light Those painful times so alone so ashamed I'm not coming back there's nothing to gain Caution there's just no limits to the boundaries you push I've warned you but still you just fuck with my mind There's no escape from this rage that I feel Nothing is real Waking the demon Where'd you run to Walking in shadows Watch the blood flow There's not much longer so don't try and fight Your body's weakening walk to the light Those painful times so alone so ashamed I'm not coming back there's nothing to gain Breathe for me Don't wake me from this slumber Stay with me Possession taking over (x2) Breathe for me Don't wake

Bullet For My Valentine - Disappear
Once again the same things on your mind Increasing pulse from what goes on inside Will you pay for what you've done, hatred Paybacks such a bitch her vengeance haunts you So what's wrong tough guy why the tears You drove me to this now you disappear Now all those acts repaid Your turn to be afraid Not longer almost done Oh god just what have I become [X2] Try to fight you only make things worse Screams of agony your final verse Now you're begging for your life breathless All the times I bled my vengeance takes you So whats wrong tough guy why the tears You drove me to this now you disappear Now all those acts repaid Your turn to be afraid Not longer almost done oh god just what have I become [X2] Your sweetest dreams turn into tears It's almost done They're almost gone Our darkest days, they fade away It's almost done they're almost gone So whats wrong tough guy why the tears You drove me to this now you disappear [X2] Now all this acts repaid

Hi There
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Poems Let Me Know What You Think
My Dearest To my loving husband I love you with all my heart and all my soul. You are what I ache for in the night and what I yearn for in the morning light. Your touch is as soft as velvet and your kiss as light as a feather. You are the one and only that makes my heart pound. Without your love, I would be nothing, with your love you make me whole and alive. You have chosen to make me your bride and that alone makes my life more precious to me than anything I could ever want or hope for. I only want you never ending love and understanding.

Thinking Out Loud!
Okies I am just thinking this stuff out loud to get it off my chest. I may seem like a person out of touch with reality but I believe in True love i believe in the fairy tale and I truely want to find it. There are times I think I may have found it but then little things they do or say make me think nope there is something not quite right. I feel a connection with someone thinking they may feel that connection with me but how can I really know if they dont tell me if they dont prove to me we are on the same page. I have been hurt so much in my life that I have come to learn not to trust anyone just on their word I mean actions speak louder then words right.That is why when I am truely into someone I will do everything in my power to prove they are winning my heart, but it seems like I dont get the same in return. I have them tell me oh I am scared to open up well if you dont open up how will you know if they are the right one for you. i mean i get scared too but damn it i know th

My Angel
Casted into darkness. Thrown out like yesterdays trash. I was. Hated passionately but many. Fear by the rest. With a blackend soul. So dark even pure evil was fearful of it. Hate bottled inside that was unmeasurable. Given up hope. Facing the reality in front of me. Using others like pawns on a chess board to get where I want. Then she appears. An angel. By anyone else's standard a wonderful person. But in my wicked hate filled eyes. She was my new begining. Her eyes capture my soul. Brought it back to life. her smile erased all the hate. Her love that she showed me . Very little at first. Gave me happiness. It grew stronger and stronger each and every moment I spent with her. Yet still not able to feel her touch. Her kiss. Her warmth. Yet just looking at her. Smile so angelic and full of love. Eyes locked on me so inviting. Made the beast become human and whole. Falling for her so puirely. That not matches or rivals. this whole new form of love. Her never knew exsisted. A love he neve

Sinking Bell
sinking bell With my feet firmly planted on the ground it’s hard to see over the clouds. And that’s just where my mind is at. Rolling around watching Judah do a kegstand in slow motion. Watching my memories in reverse and trying to piece it all together. Shit. Did it really all happen this fast? I fly over living rooms and fields full of dogwood flowers and secret rendezvous. I hold tight to my heart confused and hoping not to forget the things that made me who I am now, incase I start to change and want to turn back. A paramour to nobody, but a lover nonetheless. It’s a hard contrast from who I was while I was becoming who I am now. When I was south I used to say "I wish I was, where I was, when I was wishing I was here" words spray painted on a wall in the city of angels. Those words burned onto the insides of my eyelids. I don’t know now if I wish anything. I wonder. I don’t wish. In the 8th window seat on the right side of a greyhound bus… I always want to sit on the right windo

Beach To Wheat
OMG it is so fucking cold out here! Last winter I thought I would die longing for the beaches of NC. This year again I am finding myself staying inside. I am so ready for school to start so I have something to focus on!

Let Me Join You...
I wish to be with you tonight and you read me a poem, your poem, about the journey, Journey of your life. I lay silently, looking at you, reading the poem. Your lips, how they move, your eyes, how the poem stream from them, I see the poem in your eyes; I feel the poem in your sound. I dream to be with you tonight to see your journey with my own mind.

Epitome Of A Woman
take a good look at me tell me what you see the epitome of a woman pure, sensual, beautiful that's me my voice, my charm, my eyes, my smile epitome of a woman brilliant free child my walk, my touch, my grace, my hair the symbol of a woman that's me i'm rare my glow, my look, my love, spirit wild my lips, my hips, my legs shy child Cosmo, Essence and Vanity Fair could search the world forever to catch a glimpse of my stare priceless, untouched, unblemished unraveled temperament like coffee strong yet mild who am I? you ask, listen don't speak the essence of a woman what you crave for my keep a rose, fine wine, ageless that's me front page articles applaud my name my power, my beauty my nature, my fame elegant, eccentric, abstract is my wink my shadow takes photos that make Hollywood think you see, cameras can't capture what can't be tamed my charisma sensuality my soul, my reign still confused, don't worry even open eyes can't see who I am you w

For Those Of You That Will Actually Care And Read This...
I have a couple of bits of interesting news... First, I'm going to get my hair cut on Tuesday afternoon. And no, not just a little. I'm cutting at least 10" so I can donate it to Locks of Love. So yeah...Imma have short hair again! I'm also adding a blonde section to the back...pictures will be coming as soon as I can get them on here. Second, I finally found a tattoo design that I want. It's an awesome picture of Anubis, and I find choosing him to be of significance to me. So yay! Message me if you actually want to see it. I'm too lazy to post the link here. :P So anyway...big changes and all. I'm excited, though. Don't forget to send me birthday love! I'll be the ripe old age of 24 on Monday! Huzzah!

My Dream Come True!
So after 32 years of hardship, and struggle I finally have my dream become a reality. My book "Drifting: A Tale of Love and Rock n Roll" is going to be published. I have been writing for as long as I can remember, and never really considered myself a writer because I was never published. So I guess this means I am officially a writer..... It has to be the most exciting, yet terrifying moment of my life. So look for it to hit shelves mid 2009!!! XoXo Jeni

A Pirate Joke...
a pirate walks into a bar with a steering wheel strapped to his pants.the bartender asks ,"sir why do you have a steering wheel strapped to your pants then he says,"arrrghhhh,it drives me nutts,it drives me nuttts,it drives me nutts"........

About Me
Im strange and deranged. Imcute and Im cuddly. Im alone when I want to be and happy when most arent. Im in to drawing and writing and never have nothing to do. Dont piss me off its a bad thing to do. love the cryptic fairy

Friends
Ol' man Don Author: cswandering Word count: 345 The house is for sale His wifes in a home Memories for a dollar Yard sale time Dying every moment He clears the final shelf Homemade afgans Of untold wealth Someone to talk to Someone to listen All the things he wants to teach In his final lesson He staggered to the porch Drinks his coffee People rummage through his home And buy what all they see I sit next to the old man So how are you today? "I am tired I am old I am ready to fall away I have worked hard Established myself Took care of my family Now they're gone Im all thats left So I tell them thats all of me If its sitting on a shelf If It piles up on the floor Take it all away I don't need it anymore All I have gained I can't take it with me Im to old to fix this house And I am to old to care But it hurts so much to see these walls bare Once upon a time I was young and full of life On a sunny day we'd come to stay Just me and m

Monday
OK say what you wanna say on this blog If some one takes the time to post comments on your profile - do you think it is right or wrong to delete or deny them, regardless of what you think (as long as they are not severely distasteful)? POLITE NOTICE TO DELETERS - IF YOU DELETE MY COMMENT WHY DONT YOU JUST DELETE ME COS SOONER OR LATER I WILL MORE THAN LIKELY DELETE YOU.

Whisper
Slowly she takes my Hand and leads it to her Wetness. She lowers her Head into my Shoulder, sighing. Anxiously awaiting The parting of her lips. I raise her head and Kiss her Intently. Loving the look of Innocence on her face. She smiles and Gazes into my eyes. I feel her heat On my fingers As I toy with her. Making her want more. Her mouth Slightly opens As she softly moans. Whispering, Take me. © 2007, Kristin E. Porter. All rights reserved. No republication of this material, in any form or medium, is permitted without express permission of the author.

Away From You
The more I am away from you, The more I want you here. The more I do without your love, The more I want you near. I know that it makes little sense To want what's not around, But there's just one true love for me And that's the one I've found. We've gone through all the weather maps, The sunshine and the rain, But I would take a sea of storms To be with you again.

Just One Rate Will Do It
Would you please rate this photo for me. If you rate it i will rate 10 of your pics in return. Here's the link to the pic. Just private message me a screen shot showing you rated the pic and I will come and rate 10 of your pics in exchange. If you get others to rate i will rate 10 of theirs and 10 more of yours, if they say in their private message to me that you sent them.

Feeling Hurt
Don't ya just love the public? NOT!! wish they'd all just fuck off!!! I'm not looking for sympahy and lies on this one, because if you tell me theres nothing wrong with me then quite frankly, your blind! I'm over 16stone which is around the 230 pounds mark for those of you in the states, at 5ft thats not what i should be at all, to be quite honest ive been thinking about it for a while now and i am alone in this fight of my weight issues, and im not getting no help with support at all, been told theres nothing wrong with you isnt support its a contradiction and its hurtful. Chris is also over weight but because he thinks theres nothin wrong with him, 'cough' bullshit 'cough' then theres nothing wrong with me, i wouldnt call a 5ft girl weighing in at 16 stone size 24 at 22 years old is nothing wrong with me. im gonna be dead and burried by the time in 40 and so is chris. It pisses me off how i got myself to a size 14 befor moving to kettering i was fit and healthy and i had

Written June 08
He is whispering in her ear, singing the lyrics to the song, coming from the speakers ten feet away. She feels her heart racing; she is so turned on she feels wet with desire. She is moving her hips to the music, her hand feeling his chest. She looks into his eyes, and she can tell, he feels the same way. She closes her eyes, hearing his voice singing along with the song, her whole body tingling, she is over taken by her desire. She wants so bad to just find a bed, and take all the sexual tension out on him. She grinds on him, rubbing his cock through his jeans, letting herself be overcome with his presence. She is hot, sweating, not only from dancing, but also from being turned on. She knows all it would take is a touch to her clit and she would go off like a firecracker. She wants him, and now. He leans down and kisses her, his tongue sliding into her mouth. She can taste the alcohol on his lips, but she is already intoxicated by him. She turns around, grinding her ass on him. His ar

Your Friends Need Your Help
Some giveaways that really need to get worked on I am missing blinging everyone, if anyone has a few minutes to leave a few comments i would really appreciate it,it's a comment bombing giveaway.. THANX to all!!!! ~Bratt~=) ~BRATT~ ~CHAOTIC PRINCESS~ ~Z-MAN~ CHECK OUT THESE FRIENDS AND IF YOU ARE A FRIEND AND WANT ON HERE PLEASE LET ME KNOW!! THANX to all!!!! ~Bratt~=) ¢¾~BRATT~¢¾@ fubar

My Touch
My head in his hands. He loves this so much. The joy it brings him, My simple touch. Some gals don’t like it, But it’s something I love. To kneel before him, Giving my touch. The noises he makes. As his blood does rush. Makes me keep going, Hardening my touch. I look up at him, His face is flushed. All because of My simple touch. I take him completely, He starts to thrust. I just remain calm, Giving my touch. He’s almost there. It seems too much. I just keep going Hardening my touch. I look at his face, As he unloads his stuff, Swallowing it all Easing my touch. © 2007, Kristin E. Porter. All rights reserved. No republication of this material, in any form or medium, is permitted without express permission of the author.

Fu Points
I don't have a lot of time for Fu points chasing but I wish I knew of a way to get more points in minimal time.. I mean I've been on here for over a year and I'm only at level like 6....anyway...I would think you should get points everytime you log on ...just saying...anyone else out there agree?

You're Going To Leave
you kiss me and i know you hug me and i know i can tell by the way you hold me you are gonna leave i knew all along i just didn't want to believe i knew you held her while i was gone i know by the way you look at me you wish i was her y can't you just tell me i knew you wanted her when she walks by i see that look in your eyes i'm lying on the kitchen floor blood surrounding me cuts so deep the pain is gone numbness is settling in i can't wait for you to find me i wanted to show you what you meant to me i loved you and needed you but now i see it was all pretend my blood is cold and now i'm just a ghost

Untitled
i've been sittin here for days by myself i've been waiting for you the whole time i was crying i swear that ur cars and everything else means more to you than i do i'm starting now and i won't stop till i'm done my life is worthless and no1 cares enough to stop me i can't stop it it's taken control of me i'm bleedin everywhere i wish you were here and actually cared bout me now i'm gone who will u ignor??? i hope someone shows you how it feels i hope you come and find me your the one who deserves to die i hope ur fuckin happy my blade is still in my hand all i wanted was to be beautiful and loved but now i see i'll never be or atleast you hope ur sad and go through what i had to go through

Well Well Well.....
so I not sure WTF happen but, you wont talk to me! so I am going to write a blog.... I am really down lately and have been going though a really rough spot... in a real need of a freind to talk so maybe by posting a blog people will get where I am coming from when I figure it out I'll let you know! I thought I was able to handle this but, not sure how to deal with things anymore. I only hope for good things for people I don't wish ill or harm on anyone I really wish they would feel at least the same towards me! look I am broke beyond broke.... I did that to myself not ever saying NONONONONO FUCK NO! see that where I get myself in so much trouble. I want to make everyone elses life sooooooooo easy for them always getting them out of a bind while putting myself in a huge one! WTF? then I get my feelings destroyed! no one even sees it! I really do love you guys but, I don't like you very much right now at all! I am in so much pain in so many ways ............I cry myself to sleep m

Goose Bumps
Sounds that echo in the night Reminds her of the silence Filtered through her blinded sight And heightened in defense Goose bumps risen, hair on end Shivers up and down her spine Senses on alert ascend Adrenaline rush of fear sublime Flinching in anticipation Of the pain which she so craves Welts rise slowly, one by one Her body, heart and soul enslaved

Sinko
Thursday, October 02, 2008 hypohysterical straining,never quite reaching the heights attained in imagination wandering aimlessly down an untrodden crooked path the glinting light of the moon beckons me forward into the mists 7:36 PM - 0 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove clowns today i drove around my town everywhere i looked i saw a clown they wore black suits and funny hats they had guns too,then i realized it wasnt so funny 3:53 PM - 2 Comments - 2 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove Friday, September 19, 2008 wolfling sparkling eyes grace my vision as soft hair falls into place i resist the urge to draw nearer and caress your lovely face time and lifes irony always seem to laugh and smile at me a conundrum of wants and needs given and taken away with nothing but fates whim and all i can think of is straining heavenward into the stars to swim to steal one delicious kiss woul

Dozen
Wednesday, June 18, 2008 one of those days IN THE DARK OF NIGHT IN MY DREAMS WE EMBRACE THE WARMTH OF YOUR BREATH CARESSING MY FACE LIPS PARTING TO COMBINE,TONGUES INTERTWINED A MOMENT WE SHARE NOW FROZEN IN TIME LOOKING INTO YOUR SPARKLING BLUE EYES AS I BRUSH YOUR HAIR BACK FROM YOUR FACE LOOKING DOWN WITH JOY AS WE OCCUPY THE SAME SPACE SEIZE THIS INSTANT,MAKE IT SHINE FOR ALL TIME IN THE MEMORIES AND CORRIDORS OF OUR AGING MINDS SOMETHING WE SHARE AND CHERISH EACH DAY AND WHEN WE DIE WELL STILL BE TOGETHER TO STAY REMEMBERING AGAIN ALL THE FEELINGS WE SHARE AND ALL THE SPECIAL WAYS WE SHOW EACH OTHER HOW MUCH WE CARE 6:47 PM - 1 Comments - 2 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove evrything fading and falling away the cycle nears completion a little more each day memories of days gone by fading fast away nothing you can say to me,no action you can do you had your chance and blew it,theres nothing left to prove time ticks slowly now as i a

It Just Wasn't Our Time
I've dusted off these old cowboy boots of mine Goin' to try this dancefloor one last time It's been awhile since you left me girl She wasn't worth the pain I cause Nothing left at home but memories of you And the shadows on the wall Spinnin' around and around Feel like I'm losin' my mind Thought we would last forever It just wasn't our time Just polished off the last of this bottle Drowning in my own sorrow Knowin' I losted you girl It's been hard at times to swallow I want you back girl But the tears and the rain keep a fallin' Spinnin' around and around Feel like I'm losin' my mind Thought we would last forever It just wasn't our time Girl I Woke up this morning Heard you found a new guy Who makes you laugh and makes you smile He's been lovin' on you While all this time I've been livin' in denial Sittin' here knowin' your not comin' back this time Spinnin' around and around Feel like I'm losin' my mind Thought we would last forever It just w

Final Respects
The hate that spits from these veins Anger that plays the games Time to let it go Can't change things It will never be the same Today real life begins Never second guess what you have Cherish what you hold dearest Tommorrow could be your last breath Leavin' behind the things you'll miss Time to move on Never regret You did everything Time well spent It's in Heavens hand now Always remember that A friend A hero I've paid my last respects Gotta go now As tears stream down my face.......... William Burton

Fly Away
Movin' on Never again hearing That same old song It's been so long Time to be myself Never was my call Times like these You just go with the flow Another day Nothing stands in your way Just move forward Be like that bird Fly away Got no tears Have no shame Did all I could Carrying you in my heart Never forgetting your name What more could you ask I did the right thing Another day Nothing stands in your way Just move forward Be like that bird Fly away Be like that bird Fly away Fly away BY: WILLIAM BURTON

Daddy's Little Girl
It's been a long time Seems like you've been miles away Never quite stopped thinking about you Waiting for the day Until I finally knew Looking high and low Been searching across the deserts of time Wondering if your mine Have you seen my little angel? Daddy's little girl Chasin' that old neon moon again Hearts been achin' Tears on my face aren't worth erasin' Just wanna hold you close to this chest Can't sleep until my mind is at rest Looking high and low Been searching across the deserts of time Wondering if your mine Have you seen my little angel? Daddy's little girl Thought I saw you the other day Just another billboard along the way Radio playing that Rocky Mountain High Got the window down wind blowin' my hair All night drivin' until the day I find you Looking high and low Been searching across the deserts of time Wondering if your mine Have you seen my little angel? Daddy's little girl Daddy's little girl Daddy's little girl Daddy's li

Got's Me Burnin'
Got this song in my heart Don't know who has the key Adrenline has me running Having this feeling That leaves me incomplete Tide is turnin' Soul is churnin' Wondering what you want Got's me burnin' Kinda restless just wanna sleep Open my window So I just can breathe Hear the wind howling Who must it be Tide is turnin' Soul is churnin' Wondering what you want Got's me burnin' You say follow your lead Is this my last ride I'm ridin' this storm out Girl, until you tell me This is not a dream Wondering what you want Got's me burnin' Got's me burnin' Got's me burnin' Got's me burnin' BY: William Burton

Shadows
Shadows come and go But the thought of them Remain with us We remember the happy times And laugh about the not so good times Just a simple conversation Brings back back flooding memories of the past A simple smile We all hold on to those we love the most Shadows come and go But the thought of them You will truely never let go And the next time you see my shadow Just know I will be always walking behind you BY: William Burton

A Real Friends Prayer
If sweetness could define The meaning of life Where would you and I be Just a memory Or something that withstands The very last moment we have in time People come, people go Who wants to be an average Joe Real friends stand together When times get tough That's why I count on you To pick me up if I should fall Thanks for being my friend Someone I can always depend upon To get me through to the next day I thank God for you Knowing your only a call away Just a simple hello speaks volumes to me So now a lamey down to sleep When I wake up in the morning I pray your still with me If I ever lost you My world would become bleak I love you now and forever until eternity Amen BY: William Burton

Slow Times...
I have been deployed to Iraq for a little over a month now on my 2nd year long tour... It is amazing to see how much change has happened in the last 2 years I have been gone. I remember the first time I was here I was dissapointed in the Iraqi Gov. and their lack of ambition to do the right thing to allow the coalition forces to gt out o this country and turn it back over to the Iraqis. Now I see more and more checkpoints stopping vehicles, Less sectarian violence, more Iraqi Army recruits, and Infastructure improvements all over the place. Its looking like they actually are trying to take their country back... Hoorahay!!!!

Invisible
you told me once you loved me you held me close and loved me now you treat me like im invisible you said once i was yours you said once i do now you look away and make me fell invisible you hold me close at night you hold when noone can see yet im invisible when other are there do i mean so little to you now that all i am is invisible unless is so noone can see?

Smirnoff Kinda Night
Since I got so much sleep last night and this morning, I figure why the hell not stay up for a while just to see if my husband comes on or not. So it's a knock-off spaghetti o and smirnoff ice night for me. Guess it's time for me to watch a bit more of "Carrier" Laters.

Liz
Liz has always keep a part of herself from people in her life. She knew loving someone all the way, would be the most beautiful thing in life, but could also Be the most devestating. She learnt growning up she never wanted that kind of pain. Liz let her guard down and decided she would see someone she knew deep down to back away from. She was tired of living on the edge of life. Never knowing what it was to give totally and completely of yourself to another. Wanting their happiness and contentment above her own. When she meet this one man,her instinct was to turn , run and protect herself. Her heart wanted differantly. Her heart overroad everything else in this. Nervious, scared, excited, and the attraction she felt for him hit hard. Pushing the nerves and scared feelings to the side, she went with the rest. It is a choice she does not regret today. She exsperienced the wanting him to have her all, and did what she could to give . She learned things about herself she did not

Robert Chrisley: Unveiled (the Dark One)
ROBERT CHRISLEY "Unveiled (The Dark One): UNVEILED Starving Artisan/DEFF-ini-shon 2008 Far away in distant glances Comes a new dawn within her trances Time so cold dressed to kill But failing to reach the boundaries never yieled Blown within my elements I concure her through testiment There seems to be no cure for the shallow But her depths lay lamen's laments like a gallow Courting her red dawn Far Eastern siloutte nightingale songs Lead me by the means of my device Siren songs lure me into her entwine Goin down China town Predestiny reverts my intospeak The Dark One carries my night to Red dawn my Shangri-la Bangkok poetic twists Come to mind within erotic bliss Mind opus to what thou wilt And thou wilt open the third eye Kiss in the rain Never to be the same Affirmation to the seed Planting to invoke Our Eternity Study my Book of Knowledge Lay with thee under season follage Time lay to Forever Our Union of Love But don't you know closer is neve

Remembering
I remembering the feel when you held me close The feeling of your touch I so thought we were in Love The disconnect I felt when we married & made love Looking up at the ceiling waiting for an end Until the day came so many years ago, you started to scare me You forced your religion & views upon me You began to take complete control destroying my hopes and dreams Attempting to take my self-esteem and deny me of growth You forced your voice upon my soul You ripped out my heart and left me lying on the floor Devouring it before my eyes Draining it of its life Leaving me cold and encased in a life full of pain You banished everyone from my life Leaving me cold & so alone Keeping me captive in your demented fake life You were never better than me As you insanely believe You couldn’t take my Soul or destroy me you soon realized The day I said I was leaving for you cant control me I remember so clear “Think this through before yo

What Is A Firefighter?
Their the person next door, .... a person with the memory of a little child. They never got over the excitement of engines and sirens and smoke and danger. They are people like you and me with warts and worries and unfilled dreams. Yet they stands taller than most of us. They are Firefighters. They put it all on the line when the bell rings. A Firefighter is at once the most fortunate and the least fortunate of people. They are people who saves lives because they have seen too much death. They are gentle because they have seen too much of the awesome power of violent forces out of control. They are responsive to a child's laughter because their arms have held too many small bodies that will never laugh again. They are people who appreciates the simpler pleasure of life, .... hot coffee held in numbed, unbending fingers, .... the flush of fresh air pumping through smoke and fire convulsed lungs, .... a warm bed for bone and muscle compelled beyond feeling, .... the

Just Keep Swimming
It seems that some days are so slow, and some are so fast, yet what happens each day seems to never add up. I keep goin and "just keep swimming" but when will it ever just be how I want it? Will it ever be the way I want it? I feel like i'm busting ass to go nowhere.. somedays I give up, and somedays i'm really productive.. I just keep swimming. It just seems like I take 5 steps forward to go 10 back.. sigh.. I wish that there was something out there that could just move me and motivate me to do what I really want to do in life.. but sometimes it seems so pointless. where are we really going in life? Is this just an endless cirlce of shit? hmm Idk.. i'm just frustrated .. but I just want to say I am thankful for my friends.. without them i'm not sure what the hell i would do.. so thanks Georgia Peach and Crazy_Beautiful.. Don't know what I would do without you.. ♥

Black Friday Carnage
Saturday, November 29, 2008 9:35 AM EST By The Associated Press NEW YORK — Unruly “Black Friday” buyers lusting for bargains busted down the entrance to a Wal-Mart yesterday morning and trampled a temporary sales clerk to death before continuing on to ravage the racks, police and witness said. At least four other people, including a woman who was eight months pregnant, were taken to hospitals for observation or minor injuries, and the store in Valley Stream on Long Island closed for several hours before reopening. “This crowd was out of control,” said Nassau police spokesman Lt. Michael Fleming. He described the scene as “utter chaos.” Shoppers stepped over the man on the ground and streamed into the store. When told to leave, they complained that they had been in line since Thursday morning. Nassau police said about 2,000 people were gathered outside the store doors at the mall about 20 miles east of Manhattan. The impatient crowd knocked the man, identified by police

Psycho
PSYCHO Out of the black night, he creeps Lurking in the shadows, he waits He is psycho, he is freak Driven by an evil that the darkness awakes Unholy night, bloody night Take the kight, take a life Walking by the playground in the middle of the day Watching all the children laugh and play You know he wants to lock them up And take their innocence away There’s a sickness in his brain Taking life in his game He is addicted to the thrill That he gets when he kills He is a psycho…. DIE!!!

Friends
I'm pretty new here and I have met some nice people here but I have to say that some people need to lighted up a little. I had gotten out of order in how to request them to be a friend and got them in a uproar. Fubar is a fun thing to do but it's not my life. Some people need to get a real life. Thanks to all of the people who have accepted my friends request.

Animal Farm By George Orwell
Plot Summary: Mr. Jones, of the Manor Farm, had locked the henhouses for the night, but was too drunk to remember to shut the pop-holes. With the ring of light from his lantern dancing from side to side, he lurched across the yard, kicked off his boots at the back door, drew himself a last glass of beer from the barrel in the scullery, and made his way up to bed, where Mrs. Jones was already snoring. As soon as the light in the bedroom went out there was a stirring and a fluttering all through the farm buildings. Word had gone round during the day that old Major, the prize Middle White boar, had had a strange dream on the previous night and wished to communicate it to the other animals. It had been agreed that they should all meet in the big barn as soon as Mr. Jones was safely out of the way. Old Major (so he was always called, though the name under which he had been exhibited was Willingdon Beauty) was so highly regarded on the farm that everyone was quite ready to lose an hour's sle

What Makes Intresting Converstation When The I'm All Spun And Gacced
Whats happening in my mind when im all on one and going a million miles a min ? well first of all i would love to be able to have some intresting explicit converstation about your true darkside cause im still a rookie at this stuff and i need to get the insight so i can observe my old inner most kinky thought process why dont you take up my challenge and see where it can take you if not then just humor me you know cause i love to flirt and more but how can i if everyone is so like uptight and can just be naughty once in a while CHALLENGE ME ! i am the student your the teacher give me a lesson about what it takes ....

I Lost..
Ok something good did come out of everything today....weighed myself and I'm 115. LOST 5LBS THAT I THOUGHT I COULDN'T LOOSE!!! It feels so good and I guess that eating once a day thing, smoking like hell, and exercise works. I drink alot of pop which I know I shouldn't but I want to stay just like this. So anyway that is my accomplishment and I'm going to start making 1 accomplishment everyday if you don't like it so what it's my little goal you could say. Next goal...hmmm just have to see what the day brings I guess.

The Old Guard
The Old Guard The History of Leather Traditions By Guy Baldwin, M.S., author of The Ties That Bind While reading a recent interview with Brian Dawson, I came across some of his comments about that '0ld Guard' In the leather lifestyle. Although I used that label in a piece I wrote almost three years ago, I only recently realized that there was a strong likelihood that large numbers of leather guys don't quite know for sure what the phrase, '0ld Guard' really means. I'm sure that I have never seen a description of the style (and it is a style, so I want to offer one now. I have carried my own '0ld Guard' card in my wallet right next to my Selective Service Registration card (draft card) for long enough that I probably qualify to offer what follows so, here goes... First, a bit of historical perspective will be more helpful than you might guess. '0ld Guard' is really a misnomer - a misapplied name - for the earliest set of habits that jelled by the

History Of Flogging
~Flogging In History~ by Che "The beautiful woman bent on her adorer a strange look from her green eyes, icy and devouring, then she crossed the room, slowly donned a splendid loose coat of red satin, richly trimmed with princely ermine, and took from her dressing table a long thong attached to a short handle, with which she was wont to punish her great mastiff. 'You want it,' she said. 'Then I will whip you.' Still on his knees, 'Whip me,' cried her lover. 'I implore you!'" ~Sacher-Masoch~ 'Venus in Furs' The flogger, in various forms, has played a surprisingly vital role in shaping the history of mankind. Throughout the centuries, our ancestors have incorporated it not only into their sexual practices, but into their spiritual, judicial and even medical practices as well. Flagellation in the name of a god is far from being a rare thing. Nearly all of the mother religions, the ancient mystery cults of the great Mediterranean civilizations of Greece, Egypt, Rome

Sadomasichism
Origins of the term "sadomasochism" The word sadomasochism was coined in 1922 by combining the words sadism and masochism. It means: the derivation of pleasure from the infliction of physical or mental pain either on others or on oneself. Marquis de Sade The word sadism is derived from de Sade's name. Born in Paris on June 2,1740, the Marquis de Sade's full name was Donatien Alphonse François, comte de Sade. This French author was best known for his erotic works which were predominantly written while imprisoned (off and on for almost 30 years of his adult life). In 1803 he was confined to the insane asylum, Charenton, until his death on December 2, 1814. Because he regarded criminal and sexually deviant acts as natural, his novels were banned into the 20th century. Richard von Krafft-Ebing Born on August 14, 1840 in Mannheim, Germany, this noted physician and neurologist was recognized as an authority on deviant sexual behavior. Krafft-Ebing,

The First Munch
The First Munch By mayafire The Palo Alto Burger Munch was the first such regular event of its type in the country and is the event from which all other similar events were patterned after. It started in April 1992 at a place called Kirk's Steakburgers in Palo Alto, California by a person named Stella. Hence the name Burger Munch. It's direct descendant is the Thursday Palo Alto Munch that still runs to this day, currently held at Cafe Dolce Vida. Because it is just easier to say "munch" as opposed to "burger munch", and because munches are held in many types of places other than steak and burger joints, the name munch has become a standard for the vanilla type socials people in the scene attend on a monthly basis. It is interesting how history is always in the making. Since Albany Power eXchange started calling their "munches" Meet and Greets and Friday Soirees (words which more accurately describe the style of the events), several other clubs have decided to use th

What If The One Who Broke Your Heart Is The Only One Who Can Fix It?
Thoughts from a person who admits he messed up, and will never be the same. Recently I have done something that I thought I would never ever do. I have lied about how I got to where I am at, and I have done the worst by cheating on the love of my life. I realize the I have quite possibly, if not totally lost her for good. I have decided to continue to try to get on my feet, get me a place so that I can get out of the shelter where I am currently, continue with my counselors for my depression, bipolar, anxiety and seizures. I may have had some doors close on me, but when one door closes another one opens. I am not going to give up on life because I am worth it. Life is worth living. Yes we all get hurt, and even scarred so bad that it can be really hard and almost impossible to heal, but that's what time is there for. To heal all wounds, forgive but never forget. What do you do if the one who broke your heart is the only one who can fix it? We are all not perfect and I am no saint or

Come Join My #1 Club!!!!
Come join my Pic Club - The #1 Club! This was an idea my ex and I wanted to try, a photo album of all our friends flipping off the camera. And Fubar is the perfect place to set it up! If you want to join you will need to have a salute; rate/fan me, send me a pic of you giving the bird, the name you want on the card, your zodiac sign, your favorite drink, and your male/female preference. If you want to add to or change any of the info please include it.

Forever, Until The End Of Time
I want to love you until the end of time Forever and ever I want you to be mine I want you always to love and adore Always and ever after and forever more I want to love you until all the seas become dry Forever and ever until all the birds no longer fly Love you forever until all the winds cease to blow Always and ever after until I find the rainbow's gold I want to love you until all the stars cease to exist Forever and ever I want to taste your sweet kiss Until the sky falls from the heavens above Always and ever after I want you to love I want to love you until all the mountains disappear Forever and ever I want to hold you near Love you always and pray you love me Always and ever after until the end of eternity

Time To Get These Moderates Out Of My Party, Here I Give You The Names
Lisa Murkowski John McCain Richard Lugar Sam Brownback Olympia Snowe Susan Collins Arlen Specter Lindsey Graham George W Bush Chuck Hagel Ron Paul

We're On Myspace!
So, many of you already know, I'm the Bass Player for a band called Xombie Taste Cyanide...AND...I do many other things for the band, managing, promotions, and now, I'm hosting a Myspace page for us as well...which, if you really know me, you are probably rotfl right now, 'cause I ain't got no skills....lol. Anyhow, if you are taking the time to read this, and you have a myspace account, go friend request us... www.myspace.com/xombietastecyanide we need the exposure. And, near the beginning of 2009, we will publicly announce all the band members, and take time to load up some promo pix so, be one of the first to add us! We are slowly working on new music, and I have started re-writing some old stuff I had lying around, and we are certain to choose a few of our favorite covers to add in there somewhere as well, so you can be certain there will be a Maiden cover in the mix somewhere. Watch for updates here(maybe...if I remember to post 'em) and on our myspace page, where all the off

Innocent Life *poem*
Little child with a smile on her face Dancing around with such sweet grace She giggles with twinkles in her eyes Not knowing this will be the day she dies Holding her doll, she hugs it tight Hides behind the truck, out of her parents sight Sitting on the ground, she plays with her doll While mother walks towards the shopping mall Mother thought she was with father While father thought she was with mother He stayed behind inside his truck Not seeing, the little girl he had just struck Hearing a blood thirsty scream People turn to look at the scene The little girl is drenched in red Soaked in blood from toe to head Giggling child from before Her voice had stopped and is no more Mother lays her child on the ground Crying for help all around Grieving and putting themselves in blame Her parents lower the heads in shame Little child was only three When her life had been set free 4/6/06 *****This was something that I witnessed at work a long time ago.

Fat Fat Fat
NSFW because I said shit. Ok, so I went to the Dr in October just for a check up and stuff. When I got on the scale I about died. I have never in my life been this heavy, even when 9 mo pregnant! I tried to watch what I ate and did a little bit of exercise and last month when I went for a follow up, I had lost 8lbs. BUT, I need to lose 100lbs, ok 92lbs since I lost the 8. I am so uninspired though. I have a treadmill, I make myself walk on it 3x a week. That's def not enough. I don't even want to eat anymore. Have you ever looked in the mirror and saw the most disgusting thing ever, and it was you? That's how I feel. I took pictures of myself in bra and panties, front/side/back view. Its gross. If I gross myself out, what does my husband think when he looks at me? What do skinny women do to get/stay/be skinny? Aside from exercise - what else can I do? I am the worst when it comes to eating healthy. I gag on anything green, except ice burg lettuce and th

New To All This
Wow! What a bold new world here... There ia a familar face: Wild Mustang...and there is the guitar playing Elmo, a woman after my own heart...and Miss Dixie Belle, who stole my heart...LOL! Just joke... All in all...This is a cool place to be:)) Very Truely Yours, Rick

Need A Break
Hi All my dear friends just wanted to let you know i am having a break from FU for a while need it feel run down & hubby has not been well had carcinomas cut out so want to spend time with him, hope you all understand ? this site is not the be all & end all. hope to catch up with you all in the new year love *Jovichick AKA Lisa* PSglitter-graphics.com see you in 2009 luv you all

Losing All
Have you ever lost someone who meant the world to you, by your own fault, but not realized that it was your own fault until it was too late to fix what was broken? I have just gone through an extremely difficult breakup. I was with the love of my life for four years, she and hear two children, and our daughter together lived with me for the past three years. It hasnt been an easy road, but we've always had each other - and I thought that was enough to keep us strong, and keep us together forever. Looking back at our relationship,I could have had it all if I had taken care of what was in front of me. She was the perfect partner, she gave me the world, she did things for me out of the kindness of her heart, just because she loved me. I took advantage of that. I got comfortable with her doing everything, and all I did was went to work, sat on my ass, and slept. I didnt help her enough with the kids, I didnt do shit as far as housework went, and dishes? No fucking way. I

The Next Day
So last night, I sat doing Jagerbombs, regretting what I did to destroy my relationship. I know how to not have a hangover, and quite honestly - I didnt drink enough to have one - However, I woke up again today feeling physically sick. I feel like I couldnt eat if I wanted to, just the thought of food makes me feel as if I could vomit. I deal with death more easily than I'm dealing with this. At least death is final, you have to accept it. You have no choice in the matter. But when you personally fuck up what you have, and your partner walks away from you, and you know they're still out there - especially having a child with them - and you'll be forced to see them for the rest of your life - even if you arent back together. It's so fucking unbelievably hard to deal with. I suppose if we had never had a baby together, and I could just run away and hide - everything would be a little bit better. It would still be difficult, but at least I wouldnt have to see her, and know

Rapture
There is a place for us that no one else can enter. It is a place that holds no secrets, only beauty, peace, understanding. A place that we come to, thinking we are one, only to have our souls fused together for a moment. And in that moment, I know you; every pore, every pulse, every thought, every fear. And I love you more.

Deleteing Profile
Hey everyone, just wanted to let you all know I will be deleteing my profile. My better half and I have created a new profile as a couple as we are looking for bi females to meet and play with..... Thanks at all of you that have kept up and said hello over the past year. If you want to be added or check out our page its under cancpl4female Thanks

Something To Read And Smile About...
TWAS THE NIGHT BEFORE CHRISTMAS, HE LIVED ALL ALONE, IN A ONE BEDROOM HOUSE MADE OF PLASTER AND STONE. I HAD COME DOWN THE CHIMNEY WITH PRESENTS TO GIVE, AND TO SEE JUST WHO IN THIS HOME DID LIVE. I LOOKED ALL ABOUT, A STRANGE SIGHT I DID SEE, NO TINSEL, NO PRESENTS, NOT EVEN A TREE. NO STOCKING BY MANTLE, JUST BOOTS FILLED WITH SAND, ON THE WALL HUNG PICTURES OF FAR DISTANT LANDS. WITH MEDALS AND BADGES, AWARDS OF ALL KINDS, A SOBER THOUGHT CAME THROUGH MY MIND. FOR THIS HOUSE WAS DIFFERENT, IT WAS DARK AND DREARY, I FOUND THE HOME OF A SOLDIER, ONCE I COULD SEE CLEARLY. THE SOLDIER LAY SLEEPING, SILENT, ALONE, CURLED UP ON THE FLOOR IN THIS ONE BEDROOM HOME. THE FACE WAS SO GENTLE, THE ROOM IN SUCH DISORDER, NOT HOW I PICTURED A UNITED STATES SOLDIER. WAS THIS THE HERO OF WHOM I'D JUST READ? CURLED UP ON A PONCHO, THE FLOOR FOR A BED? I REALIZED THE FAMILIES THAT I SAW THIS NIGHT, OWED THEIR LIVES TO THESE SOLDIERS WHO WERE WIL

Cherokee Creation Myth
Long ago, before there were any people, the world was young and water covered everything. The earth was a great island floating above the seas, suspended by four rawhide ropes representing the four sacred directions. It hung down from the crystal sky. There were no people, but the animals lived in a home above the rainbow. Needing space, they sent Water Beetle to search for room under the seas. Water Beetle dove deep and brought up mud that spread quickly, turning into land that was flat and too soft and wet for the animals to live on. Grandfather Buzzard was sent to see if the land had hardened. When he flew over the earth, he found the mud had become solid; he flapped in for a closer look. The wind from his wings created valleys and mountains, and that is why the Cherokee territory has so many mountains today. As the earth stiffened, the animals came down from the rainbow. It was still dark. They needed light, so they pulled the sun out from behind the rainbow, but it was too b

General Pagan Beliefs (not Set In Stone..depending On Pagan Tradition And Personal Practice)
Pagan/ Earth Religions belief, practice, and culture (Disclaimer: Ask 100 pagans "What are Pagan beliefs" and you will get 100 different answers. I write the following as a generalization of basic beliefs and cultural identity that many pagans follow. These are not set in stone. These are interpretations of the beliefs that pagans often have….but not always) 1.) Nature: Pagans recognize that the divine resides in all of nature…within and without. The divine is in every person, every tree, every plant, every animal, and every blade of grass. Pagans are very much aware of nature, and see the divine in the cycles of life that all living things must go through, such as birth and death. Most pagans are very ecologically sound and friendly, and try to live in ways that minimize the harm to the natural environment. 2.) Concepts of the divine: Pagans can be polytheistic (Belief in many Gods/Goddesses) or they can be monotheistic (belief in one God form, which is often seen as having b

Step Up...drowning Pool
1, 2, 3 - Go! Broken, Yeah, you've been living on the edge of a broken dream. Nothing, Yeah, that's the only thing you'll ever take away from me. I'm never gonna stop, I'm never gonna drop, Ain't no different than it was before. So take some good advice, You better stop and think twice, Before you take your first step, Out that door. If you wanna step up (step up), You're gonna get knocked down (knocked down). If you wanna step up (step up), You're gonna get knocked down. You had your chance to walk away. Live to see another day. If you wanna step up (step up), You're gonna get knocked down (knocked down). You're gonna get knocked down... Aaaaah... Suffering, Yeah, that's the only thing here that's left for you. Nothing, Yeah, that's the only thing you're ever gonna fuckin' do. I'm never gonna stop, I'm never gonna drop, Ain't no different than it was before. So take some good advice, You better stop and think twice, Before you take yo

Everybody's Fool...evanescence
Perfect by nature Icons of self indulgence Just what we all need More lies about a world that Never was and never will be Have you no shame? Don't you see me? You know you've got everybody fooled Look here she comes now Bow down and stare in wonder Oh how we love you no flaws when you're pretending but now I know she Never was and never will be You don't know how you've betrayed me And somehow you've got everybody fooled Without the mask Where will you hide? Can't find yourself Lost in your lie I know the truth now I know who you are And I don't love you anymore It never was and never will be You don't know how you've betrayed me And somehow you've got everybody fooled It never was and never will be You're not real and you can't save me Somehow now you're everybody's fool

Why Guys Dump Girls They Dig
Nothing is more upsetting than when a dude you damn well know is into you pulls the plug. One man gets to the bottom of out-of-the-blue breakups.Buzz up! Photo: Anna Palma The Timing Is Off Chances are, you've had at least one breakup that left you wondering, "What the hell just happened?" The guy dug you, you dug him, and the whole thing felt destined for a fabulous future — at least the foreseeable one. Then, out of nowhere, he bailed on the relationship. So what went wrong? The sad truth is, maybe nothing. Here are five completely ridiculous reasons guys kick you to the curb. Warning: For the most part, it ain't pretty. Women get serious when they meet the right man. Men get serious with whomever we happen to be dating when we're finally ready to settle down. That means after every other aspect of our life is in order — whether it's finishing grad school, finally pulling down a good-size paycheck, owning a car outright — or when our friends start dropping like flies

My Bullshit
I've taken a few huge hits in my life since I got back from my mission. It's been hard to deal with since I'm so far away from home, and the end of this seems so far away. I've pretty much lost everything back home that I hold dear, and I have nothing to look forward to now, except for being alone. This is very new to me cause I've always had someone, no matter what. I'm taking this as God telling me that I need to be alone and get my life straight. So I'm going to do just that. I won't be logging in here anymore, or to my messenger. I'm going to use my remaining time here to figure out my life. When I get home, I'm going to get my divorce finalized, find a place to live, and figure out where I'm going. I wish you all the best and I will pray for you everyday. Thank you for all the friendship you have given me. I love you all. Jason

Friends Of Gifts
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Tequilla Christmas Cookies
1 cup of water 1 tsp baking soda 1 cup of sugar 1 tsp salt 1 cup of brown sugar 1 tbsp lemon juice 4 large eggs 1 cup of nuts 2 cups of dried fruit 1 bottle of Tequila Sample the Tequila in a large glass to check quality Take a large bowl, and check the Tequila again, to be sure it is of the Highest quality. Pour one level cup and drink. Turn on the electric mixer, Beat one cup of butter in a large fluffy bowl. Add one teaspoon of sugar. Beat again. At this point, it's best to make sure the tequila is still ok, so try Another cup. Turn off the mixerer thingy. Break 2 leggs and add to the bowl and chuck in the cup of dried fruit. Pick the frigging fruit and damm cup off the floor. Mix on the turner. If the fried druit gets stuck in the beaterers, just Pry it loose with a drewscriver. Sample the tequila to check for t onsisticity. Next, sift two cups of salt, or something. Check the Tequila Now shift the lemon juice and st

Next On The List
rocks- rainbow almost done with 1 side. yes hers is double sided but not the same way as jays. chris-colors my choice design no word yet. tha boys cool sista- i am thinking black and red for some reason i think of her and thats what i see with a big s and red and black stripes but i'll ask. lil side-eye- a hair thingy with her name

Read If U Want To
Why does it seem to be everytime that i get a guy interested in me that i hve to push him away. Ive had bad things happen but thatss because the guys i was with suxed the guy i messed up with this time was the best guy ever i really cared bout him then just because he doesnt message me i blow up on him i cant believe how stupid i can be sometimes....i was actually happy for once then i just mess it up big time.....i try to apoligize but he wwont talk....but i cant blame him ive done that to him so many times.....ive accused him of so many things and i just cant believe myself sometimes......he is a great guy and i did the only thing that ever mad him mad and that was get mad at him for nuthin he always forgave me but this was the last straw and like i said i dont blame him for hating me.......i dont blame u and i hope if the person im talking bout reads this he forgives me even though i dont deserve it......

Every Hit,,,, Or Liza
In the event of my pain, I am saddened with truth. That the pain is the only truth ive known. Let it go and feel the ground. Flying over self regret and loss of company. See it all from an angle that brings me no closer to closure. He loved abused and left, while I loved hurt and stayed. Feel me now this anticipation. Falling to the ground closer to another hurt. Alow another to lift me up, only to let me go. Feel the warmth of care as I fall, and the joy of empathy as I rise. Up and down. First hit love first fall lesson. Secound hit rebound sound hit lie. Third hit lust third hit contemplation. Every hit, every fall there after, rejection.

Star Light
Slim chances drawn with chalk, seeing the light was never the way... I dreamt of castles and kings, the torment of lost souls... One kiss one night one wonder, indulged the winds desire to escape... I fell upon you and it was bliss, one fall to earth.... Fiery passions enflamed the night, ripped asunder by the weight... I am lost, thrown to the earth and smashed into dust..

Go Ahead And Hate Me, I Deserve It
So there was an incedent at my house Wed night. I had not been feeling all that well, my head is a little off and I got mad and spanked Kaden a few times. I yelled and screamed and then some. Needless to say, I bruised my poor baby. So the cops were called. Not sure who, but I have my ideas. I was arrested Thursday night....as you can tell from the paper, which thier thing isn't even that accurate. But it happened, I fucked up. I know this. I don't know whats going on with me. I have lost my kids. I don't know if or when I will ever see them again. My whole world is falling apart cuz I got angry. I know there is something not right in my head. Hasn't been for a while now. All I want to do is just go and do the stupid things that make me feel better, but I won't. Mainly cuz I am grounded at my moms house and they hid the sharp objects from me. But Monday morning I am going to admit myself into Choices. I need help. That much I know at least. I can't keep feeling this

Till Death Do Us Part! (for Jessica)
Till Death Do Us Part: Never be afraid of who you are, Don't be afraid of what's inside. Just hold your head up high, With dignity and pride. If you ever feel like giving up, Hold on for dear life. Cause I'll be there to guide you, And together we will fight. I know you've been hurt alot, I know just how you feel. But take it one step at a time, And allow your heart to heal. Live your life to the fullest, And always follow your dreams. Do whatever you can to achieve them, As hard as it may seem. As the years continue to go by, And the closer we'll become. A friendship that will last forever, And will never be undone. One of the best days of my life, Was the day you became my best friend. Someone I trust and can talk to, I love you to no end. A best friend is hard to find, And your friendship to me you gave. I would give up my life in a second, If it was yours I could save. Now this poem is coming to an end, I wrote it from the heart. I'll

Romeo And Juliet
Romeo and Juliet Take me in your arms, And never let me go. Whisper to me softly, How much you love me so. If ever I am sad, Gently wipe away my tears. Tell me I don't have to worry, You'll chase away my fears. Look into my eyes, And feel the love in our stare. Kiss me ever so softly, As you brush back my hair. The warmth of your skin, The feeling of your touch. The butterflies in my stomach, Is something I long for so much. The day when we're finally together, And the memories that we'll share. The promise of an amazing future, That no one can compare. I'll give you all of my heart, But please don't make me cry. Because the moment you break it, Is the moment that it dies. I put my faith in you, Please don't do me wrong. Let me show you what love is like, A feeling so strong. If ever you feel like giving up, Remember that I care. Remember that your not alone, For I am always there. Let me be the reason you wake up, And for that smile

Me And The Sea
im a big vessel, feeling the pressure of the water. sailing here and there and all around feeling lost, feeling unfound if i stay, i rust; if i go i'll never know the more i sail the more i realize im sinking sinking into the deeps with the cold blue ocean, sinking into the pressure sinking into what some folk call despear i long to feel the calming sea mist against my cheek, i long to get attention from the beautiful sea, in a good way of course other seas call to me, i reject them, i check them out, i reject them, i check them out i reject them to stay faithful to my sea, i check them out to see if it is safe to go but i love my sea too much to leave her, i will never abandon my sea, for she treats me well i see other vessel come and go leaving their marks and scars, but i stay behind defending my sea, my beautiful sea, always defending my sea, happily protecting my sea, i will protect all the way to the very end thats just what happens when you give your heart to

A Carpenters Job
Two blonde carpenters were working on a house. The one who was nailing down siding would reach into his nail pouch, pull out a nail and either toss it over his shoulder or nail it in. The other, figuring this was worth looking into, asked, "Why are you throwing those nails away?" The first explained, "If I pull a nail out of my pouch and it's pointed toward me, I throw it away 'cause it's defective. If it's pointed toward the house, then I nail it in!" The second blonde got completely upset and yelled, "You moron! The nails pointed toward you aren't defective! They're for the other side of the house!" -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- A carpenter was giving evidence about an accident he had witnessed. The lawyer for the defendant was trying to discredit him and asked him how far away he was from the accident. The carpenter replied, "Twenty-seven feet, six and one-half inches." "What? How come you are so sure of tha

I Fight Like A Girl
i fight like a girl who refuses to be a victim i fight like a girl whos tired of being IGNORED, HUMILIATED, and BEATEN i fight like a girl whos tired of not being taken seriously i fight like a girl whos been pushed to far i fight like a girl who offers and demands respect i fight like a girl who has a lifetime of ANGER, STRENGTH, and PRIDE punt up in her girly body i fight like a girl who doesn't believe in FEAR and SUBMISSION i fight like a girl who know that YOU ONLY HAVE AS MUCH POWER AS I GRANT YOU i fight like a girl who will never allow you to take more then i offer i fight like a girl who fights back so next time you think you can distract yourself from your insecurities by victimizing a girl THINK AGAIN cause she might be like ME and I FIGHT LIKE A GIRL

The Art Of Lust
YESSS IT'S A TITLE TO ONE OF MY OLDER SONGS, HOWEVER THIS ENTRY I GOT FROM A FU BER WITH KEEN INSIGHT INTO EROTICA.....SO GOOD THERE WAS ACTUALLY 20 PERCENT OF THIS I DIDN'T KNOW. I WAS IMPRESSED. The following article copy/pasted from the link below. http://www.whitelotuseast.com/FemaleEjaculation.htm “Amrita” …meaning nectar of the goddess. A liquid most treasured and revered in ancient Tantric literature. What exactly does it mean? Even modern medicine isn’t exactly sure, much less in agreement. There is a good deal of mythology surrounding the biological reality of what has been only recently termed as “female ejaculation”. The primary source of much erroneous information about the nature of female ejaculation seems to be attributable to those who seek to sensationalize and exploit this relatively unexplored phenomenon, while others have been overly gullible in accepting purely anecdotal evidence. It's widely believed that there is a female counterpart to the male pr

Just A Thought
DAYS LIKE THESE EMBRACED BY MORBID FAILURE WE ALL LOOK FOR ETERNAL HAPPINESS JUST TO BE DAMNED BY FATE AND FUCKED UP RELATIONSHIPS OPEN MINDS CREATE OPEN EYES BLINDED LIES CAUSE FALLEN APART TIES INSIDE THE BODY LINED WITH ROCK YOUR WORDS BOUNCE AND CAUSE UTTER SHOCK DISTURBED THOUGHTS PROVOKING ME TOWARDS DEATH BUT HER ANGELS GLARE BRINGS PEACE TO ME IVE MET YOU BEFORE BUT ONLY IN MY DREAMS NOW SHE STANDS HERE HELPING ME THROUGH TO ALL WHO HAVE HATED US AND HELD US BACK YOUR DREAMS ARE NOT REALITY BUT YOUR REALITY HITS BACK!!!!!

My Impossible Love
Loving you is not a chore your friendship i say means so much more to see you happy is all i crave so i live this life as would a slave ever hoping but never speaking my tears just keep streaking my cheeks ever seaking the warmth of your touch i long for so much Impossible love is what its about but your friendship i cant live without so i will just go on living this lie to myself never telling the truth of how much i feel and secretly hoping you know my loves real for you are my world my beginning my end an impossible love i have for my friend for she loves another and sad though it makes me there can be no other, her happiness is what matters to me most so in friendship I'll stay as i wait for the day when again she is broken i'll hold her and tell her with words never spoken she is my one..my only impossibl love i love her more than life itself and she is happy right where she is so in friendship i'll smile since she is not mine but his.

Saturday Night Damage
IT WAZ A WARM NIGHT FUN WAZ IN THE AIR GOT MY SMOKE ON GOT MY DRINK ON I WAZ FLAGRANT NAUGHTY & NICE GIVIN COMPLIMENTZ 2 TITTIEZ BOOTY BODY & FACIAL SMACCIN AZZ SUCCIN ON HEADLIGHTZ LICCIN THE SILVER DOLLAR CANT 86 ME FROM A SPOT I WOULD NEVER GO 2 AGAIN TOLD HER 2 FUCC OFF ANYWAYZ CUZ SHE COULDNT KICC ME OUT THEN I HAD 2 CLOWN HER OLD AZZ NEEDED SOME TEETH ANGER ON MIND BUT I GOT PUSSY 2 LET IT GO ON STEP THRU THE DOOR IT STARTED RIGHT THEN GRABBIN MY DICC TITTIEZ JUST FALL OUT RUBBIN EACH OTHER DOWN SOMEONEZ HARD SOMEONEZ WET MORE KISSIN ACTION 2 COME CHOCOLATE AVENGER IZ GETTIN LUBRICATED MY HOMIE IZ TRYIN 2 FUCC SOMETHING NOT GOIN RIGHT FUMBLE PICC UP THE BALL CANT LET IT GET AWAY SOMEHOW IT DID HE LEFT SO I WENT BACC 2 ME SLIDE THAT PUSSY AROUND WHILE SHE CONTINUED 2 SUCC MY THICCNEZZ CLIT BULGIN PUSSY WETTER MOANZ LOUDER AS I SLIDE THAT FINGER BACC OUT I DONT LEAVE THAT CLIT TONGUE LASHIN CONTINUE SHE CANT CONCENTRATE SO I BACC OFF RIG

"snow Hope"
sunny skies mask the reality of the cold that freezes the land, tossing shimmering glitter onto pure white snow melting the cold heart that hurts even for a moment gray skies move in threatening the mood the sun still shines hidden above the darkness of looming gray clouds Look up and remember there is hope. See the beauty that is before you.

Imagination
It's another later night and the mind flows ofDesire into A mystiflying thought of Temptation Imagination turns into desireWhich turn into authenticity?I begin to wonder Why now.. Why now This doesn't make sense does it?No wait! Now it doesThe minds drifts into A sexual temptation My hand begin to wonder into A erotic feeling making myself feel like A much Desired No man will every know the much needed Touch tht you can amke yourself feel more desired By my flight of the imagination and my fantasies The hand the effortless touch of sexualityEach part symbolize the desire fo needing to Be touched and made love too Sensuality is A part of the graceful imaginationI know my every move, My every breath, My every curve and My every sensitive part of desirable body Yet the touch of A man makes me moistAnd erotic to much needed desire of passionate affection touch My breath gets deeper and my moan gets louderThe thoughts of touch and desire from a man gets my imagination going

Introducing The Chill Lounge
Ever feel like you just wanna come in and take a load off from a hard days work without having to worry about everybody?? Chill lounge is a really great place for that. Come check it out, the atmosphere is real cool, no bar fights or anything just people who wanna shoot the breeze. Come check it out, meet and mingle with other folks, etc etc... So come on in folks, drinks are on the house!!!lol

"jealous Guy."
“Jealous Guy” You know I really love you, You know I really care And that is why I keep you close You’re not going anywhere Because the world outside is nasty And you have to watch your back There’s a lot of strange ones just outside The door to my old shack But here inside you’re always safe And yet I wonder why The other ones, with simple minds Call me a jealous guy Perhaps it’s because they don’t know our love They’ll never understand How a woman like you can mean so much In the life plan of this man I often think of our first date From there things moved so fast I just knew that you were wanting me And that our love would really last So I brought you to my cabin here We both knew that it was best And although you said the words, “Please no.” I knew you what you meant was, “Yes.” And I pampered you, I bathed you I even brushed your hair I gave you special jewelry, Like that collar that you wear This iron one with heavy links That’s anc

Understanding
Someone looked at me in amazement when they saw tears rolling down my face, why they wondered was I crying. I was sitting in a room full of people who simply could not understand the concept of togetherness, forgiveness and understanding. And I cried out of frustration. I could not comprehend why something as simple as kindness was so hard for them to conceive. And I cried because I know the meaning of life. I know its value. I have known and shall know pain, yet I live. I have loved and have been unloved, yet I love still. I have dreamt of great glories and wealth, and have obtained them because I have been given the greatest treasure and glory of all, the ability to understand, to forgive, to love and above all to live~zena

Damn!
It was a beautiful day, and I was out shopping for stuff. (It makes economy happy ya know) And I was choosing from the red or green sauce. (You know, huge purchasing decision there! the color of sauce) Then this foreign person (ill be p.c., just for a sec...) with 12 million children hanging off of it comes up to me and says: Augh Nanga Unga Yip Yu Nowaah! I had no clue what she was on about cause I don't speak moerog, hindu, or whatever the fuck his language is! But I am in a good mood, because shopping makes bastards happy. I look at the dude and say: "can you speak English, I'm English. Understand?" And she replies: "Auga NAAAAA, Yu yippi aikr jehw wim whia w shu Nin gwnfa" And getting pissed off at me! 20 seconds ago, I was a happy shopping bastard and now I am thinking if this bitch opens her mouth other than to speak ENGLISH! Then I am going to start ramming her litter of children back up in her twat-hole! I am not bashing culture here! I am really not, but this

My New Years Resolution
Its getting to be that time of year yet again where so many of us make a New Years resolution. Sometimes we stick to them and acheive them and sometimes we give up after a period of time. This year has has its ups and downs for me. And its not ending on a good note with having to be forced to take off from work and that at the beginning of 2009 for at least 3 months myself and my co owrkers will be working a 32 hour work week instead of a 40 hour work week. Im single, so I have no one to depend on but myself when it comes to getting bills paid. So my New Years Resolution for 2009 is to make it through these hard times. And to also get back into the gym and drop about 25-30 pounds and get myself into the best shape I have ever been in.!!!!!

Cant Believe Someone Voted Yes! :(
Folks, come clean. Who was the heartless one? Who is that hateful to where, after I posted the mum asking if I should commit suicide during my most trying time EVER, voted yes!? THATS SICK! I know that maybe the responsibility is on me at least somewhat for posting that mum and asking for people's reactions but for someone to say that someone else should kill themself..... IS JUST PLAIN SICK! I'm really sorry I ever got down on myself that much but it doesnt warrant that and besides, as long as I have Janice, I'll never not be happy again...... She's all I want, need........and most especially, THE ONE I LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Chad

Winning Bids And Winners Of The Auction , Congrats!!
"> Below is the list of winning bids, Please make sure to get togeter & settle up.....Thanx everybody for participating! SARA http://www.fubar.com/user/866049 **SOLD TO REDMAN FOR 900 K ** MANDIE http://www.fubar.com/user/1832207 **SOLD TO FATHER TO BE, FOR A BID OF 3 month vip and bling pac 200k** AUSSIE http://www.fubar.com/user/1586125 *SOLD TO LADY SNOW OWL FOR 1.5 & a Bling Pack ** PIMP SUGARBEAR http://www.fubar.com/user/980437 **SOLD TO JADE FOR 400k and 2 blings** AUTUMN PRINCESS http://fubar.com/user/839963 **SOLD TO UNBREAKABLE FOR an auto 11 bling** ARCHAIC ANGEL http://fubar.com/user/1688875 **SOLD TO ICARUS FOR I bid a H.H** MZ SECRETCUDDLEZ http://www.fubar.com/user/1159977 **SOLD TO SISSY FOR 400K** SUNSHINE PRINCESS http://www.fubar.com/user/1500563 **SOLD TO SMUT( U CHOOSE SP ) FOR 1250000K ** LOST & CONFUSED http://fubar.com/user/1534334 **SOLD TO REDNECK PRINCESS FOR 700K** JADE http://www.fubar.com/gypsy_rose **SOLD TO CHRIS FOR 1 YR VI

Cleaning Lady
1 - First Important Lesson - Cleaning Lady. During my second month of college, our professor gave us a pop quiz. I was a conscientious student and had breezed through the questions until I read the last one: 'What is the first name of the woman who cleans the school?' Surely this was some kind of joke. I had seen the cleaning woman several times. She was tall, dark-haired and in her 50's, but how would I know her name? I handed in my paper, leaving the last question blank. Just before class ended, one student asked if the last question would count toward our quiz grade. 'Absolutely, ' said the professor. 'In your careers, you will meet many people. All are significant They deserve your attention and care, even if all you do is smile and say 'hello.' I've never forgotten that lesson. I also learned her name was Dorothy. NOW more than ever - Peace & God Bless - Pass It On.

The Obstacle In Our Path
4 - Fourth Important Lesson. - The obstacle in Our Path. In ancient times , a King had a boulder placed on a roadway. Then he hid himself and watched to see if anyone would remove the huge rock. Some of the king's wealthiest merchants and courtiers came by and simply walked around it. Many loudly blamed the King for not keeping the roads clear, but none did anything about getting the stone out of the way. Then a peasant came along carrying a load of vegetables. Upon approaching the boulder, the peasant laid down his burden and tried to move the stone to the side of the road. After much pushing and straining, he finally succeeded. After the peasant picked up his load of vegetables, he noticed a purse lying in the road where the boulder ha d been. The purse contained many gold coins and a note from the King indicating that the gold was for the person who removed the boulder from the roadway. The peasant learned what many of us never understand! Every obstacle

Friday 12/19/08(depressed)
its only 6 days from Christmas snow is on the ground...27 degrees outside colder than a witches ass outside..ground covered also with black ice..yadayada, im inside where its warm and cozy but i am depressed, why dont know it just seems this month just drains the hell out of me big time tomorrow my sister goes to her daughters house to a brunch thing and make lil gifts out of craft work..she wanted to know if iwanted to go and isaid no..why? i cant make anything out of craft work or arts and crafts or whatever everything i try and make just falls apart or looks crappy lol. so why try? i know i sound like scrooge but this time of year hits me hard...i miss the family get togethers we had when mom and dad and aunts and uncles, grand parents get together under a real tree that we buy or even go cut ourselves at atree farm which went back...those were great days..now all is commercialized, buy this and that...believe me i love Christmas..but the family things isnt there anymore.

In This Moment
In this moment it seems I've lost myself You really don't care of my pain Of my wanting you to love me Of the possibilities of our being together... You have no idea of who I am Of how hard I try to love when my heart my head, my soul, my existence my SELF has been tortured by "LOVE" How wanting that happiness only rips my life apart over...over...over again. Am I such a fool to let you be one more to that list? Am I really so lost? But IT IS YOU who is the loser. When I am gone you shall feel my loss. Cry for me when it is too late. But in this moment YOU really don't care DO YOU?!

Tagged
You Can Only Type ONE Word. Not as easy as you might think. Now copy and paste into your blog and tag 5 ppl to do the same. Leave a comment to let us know you have done it, AND LEAVE THEM A COMMENT TO LET THEM KNOW THEY HAVE BEEN TAGGED. It's really hard to only use one-word answers! 1. Where is your cell phone? here 2. Your significant other? gone 3. Your hair? brown 4. Your mother? wyoming 5. Your father? nashua 6. Your favorite thing? chocolate 7. Your dream last night? dunno 8. Your favorite drink? dew 9. Your dream/goal? marriage 10. The room you're in? living 11. Music? anything 12. Where do you want to be in 6 years? married 14. Where were you last night? bed 15. What you're not? mad 16. Muffins? blueberry 17. One of your wish list items? dunno 18. Where you grew up? oklahoma 19. The last thing you did? ate 20. What are you wearing? clothes 21. TV? sometimes 22. Your pets? none 23. Your computer? on 24. Your life?happy 25. Your mood? good 26

Poem
TWAS THE NIGHT BEFORE CHRISTMAS, HE LIVED ALL ALONE,> IN A ONE BEDROOM HOUSE MADE OF PLASTER AND STONE. I HAD COME DOWN THE CHIMNEY WITH PRESENTS TO GIVE, AND TO SEE JUST WHO IN THIS HOME DID LIVE. I LOOKED ALL ABOUT, A STRANGE SIGHT I DID SEE, NO TINSEL, NO PRESENTS, NOT EVEN A TREE. NO STOCKING BY MANTLE, JUST BOOTS FILLED WITH SAND, ON THE WALL HUNG PICTURES OF FAR DISTANT LANDS. WITH MEDALS AND BADGES, AWARDS OF ALL KINDS,> A SOBER THOUGHT CAME THROUGH MY MIND. FOR THIS HOUSE WAS DIFFERENT, IT WAS DARK AND DREARY, I FOUND THE HOME OF A SOLDIER, ONCE I COULD SEE CLEARLY. THE SOLDIER LAY SLEEPING, SILENT, ALONE, CURLED UP ON THE FLOOR IN THIS ONE BEDROOM HOME. THE FACE WAS SO GENTLE, THE ROOM IN SUCH DISORDER, NOT HOW I PICTURED A UNITED STATES SOLDIER. WAS THIS THE HERO OF WHOM I'D JUST READ? CURLED UP ON A PONCHO, THE FLOOR FOR A BED? I REALIZED THE FAMILIES THAT I SAW THIS NIGHT, OWED THEIR LIVES TO THESE SOLDIERS WHO WERE WILLING TO FIGHT. SOON ROUND THE WORLD, THE C

My Nakedness
If you want to see my nsfw pics and can't it's because they're for the boys who earned a peak, I may love to be naked but I'm not easy, well I'm easy just not that easy. I really don't want to see yr penis either, unless it's actually connected to a boy, preferably a cute one with a nice smile.

Turn In Your Grave
TURN IN YOUR GRAVE As I come at your door I'll have you scream for more I'll make you run and bleed But when I leave you will fucking scream Your death is near Taken by the force of me you'll never be set free I'll make you turn and die Buried to lie forever my soul is much too clever I'll torment you endlessly Darkness surrounds you there is no escape As I torture you your mind is filled with hate But the forces of evil you are my slave Turn in your grave I am on an endless search trying to escape the church Look through my evil eyes you'll see through all lies Be one with my soul fear my present state or it will be too late I'll make you run and bleed Buried to lie forever my soul is too clever Torment you in fire

Sacrifice
SACRIFICE Put her on the altar, tie her down secure She will soon die, her soul is still pure Her body is trembling it's filled with fear She'll lose the life which she holds dear The dagger is ready to do it's evil deed On her decayed corpse I will feed Tie her legs and arms ready to read the rite Now I feel the force of satan's might Under baphomet she is bleeding fast With the corpse indulge in a bloodbath Pray to the master that this will suffice Split her skull for this altar sacrifice Tears on her cheek, sweat on her brow It's time to die I will kill her now Death has come to deliver her fate We don't do it for love we do it for hate

Pentagram
PENTAGRAM There's a sacred city not far from here Where the earth is bare and the sky is black Tormented souls are stricken with fear and the sinners all know that there's no way back Flying to the pentagram There's a lot you'll want to see Sacrifice the crying Ram And drink the blood with me Giant kingdom down below Where the lord of darkness sits and waits For a poor lost mortal to come in When he lowers down his gates Prison of death where time stands still forever life of pain walking dead assault and kill The people would be slain You can't escape your destiny So take my hand and fly To an evil land of fantasy Inside of satan's eye

Burning In Hell
BURNING IN HELL Death has beckoned you to hell you can't escape my evil spell Past the gates, evil fate Into the depths cast to burn unseen terror life of doom Tragic, black magic Sorrow in your afterlife victim of your sins tonight My grasp, will last Nightmares of eternity forgotten souls and tirrany You lived now die No life no death no future here infinite horror screams of fear You flesh, decayed Run and hide there's no relief pounding hearts is full of grief Screams, dreams No one hears you scream at night demons own your soul with might Illusions, delusions Roasted in the flames of hell beware the cast the evil spell Burning, yearnning Dreams become reality you can't outlive infinity Burning in hell Prowling through the night like a bad dream Stalking out your prey hear the victims scream Driven by a vision ruling your domain Lurking in the shadows driving you insane Know that you're not crazy nothing you remember Mind is so blank and Your though

Victim Of The Insane
VICTIM OF THE INSANE You want the world to buy your happiness Ain't it a shame you have to hurt the ones you love Never giving yourself taking all that you can get But you don't take nothing with you except your soul Chorus: I'm so tired of hearing that I'm wrong everyone laughs at me, why me? I'm so tired of being pushed around I feel like I've been betrayed We take each other's love forget to give back Isn't it a pity how we break each other's hearts I know we're only human and not to blame But who the hell are you to cause so much pain? Chorus Why do you criticize me what have I done to deserve such a fate Why do you look at me that way Because of all your tears your eyes can't hope to see See that we are all the same we are not perfect just forgiven Open your eyes and set yourself free before we are all victims of the insane

I Guess What Comes Around Goes Around
So, I finally got sick. Wow what a way to start a blog right? Okay so around Thanksgiving my office got all flu-y and I didnt get it. Then this past week round 2 was going around at work. And as I said the first time, I'm not gonna get sick. Well this time I was actually delirous when I said that cuz not 2 days later, here I am sick as a dog. It started with Ky actually, someone ended up getting him sick. On Sunday he was having a stuffy nose, runny nose and then a slight fever, which just got worse yesterday of all days. Well yesterday I started to get a sore throat, but I sang at 11p service thanks to Tom's contriband ( halls menthol cough drops - we arent supposed to have those, apparently they are bad for the throat. ). Anywho I sang and things were just fine, just a little sore throat that wouldnt go away and a slight stuffy nose. Well needless to say, I was up all night. I have a stopped up nose, a insanely bad sore throat, and my left ear is plugged and I can barely h

Amazed
Every time our eyes meet This feeling inside me Is almost more than I can take Baby when you touch me I can feel how much you love me And it just blows me away I've never been this close to anyone or anything I can hear your thoughts I can see your dreams I don't know how you do what you do I'm so in love with you, it just keeps getting better I wanna spend the rest of my life with you by my side Forever and ever Every little thing that you do Baby I'm amazed by you The smell of your skin The taste of your kiss The way you whisper in the dark Your hair all around me, baby you surround me You touch every place in my heart Oh, it feels like the first time every time I wanna spend the whole night in your eyes I don't know how you do what you do I'm so in love with you, it just keeps getting better I wanna spend the rest of my life with you by my side Forever and ever Every little thing that you do Baby I'm amazed by you Every little thing that you do I

The True Story!! Wounded Knee!!
The following is from "Bury My Heart At Wounded Knee" written by Dee Brown: "On the morning of November 29, 1864, 600 Cheyenne and Arapahos camped on a bend of Sand Creek were awakened by the sound of charging hooves. Two thirds of these 600 were women and children as the government granted able bodied men to go east and hunt buffalo to feed their hungry families. Only 35 braves were in the camp. This made the ensuing charge all the more frightening for the women, children, elders, and remaining braves. So great was the fear of the coming charge that men, women, and children ran from their lodges into the biting cold taking no time to fully dress. The partially dressed Indians began to gather under a huge American flag above Black Kettles lodge (Black Kettle was given the huge American flag and peace medals by Abraham Lincoln and Colonel A. B. Greenwood in Washington only a year earlier and was told that as long as the American flag was above them, no one would be harmed). The bra

I Just Dont Understand
im a nice girl, i take care of myself, i never ask for anything except honesty...why is it that i always catch people in lies...be it pictures, written proof, or just catching people red handed...yet they still say "it wasnt me" or make up some cockn bull story.. i wasnt born yesterday...so dont talk to me like im naive. I have a nag for finding out your lies. Granted not all people lie, but lately it seems i get lied to left and right. My question is, why lie? and why do people feel the need to lie to me and mess with my emotions? I am human, i do get hurt but i think soon imma end up with a frozen heart and no emotion at all. No one is 100% honest, i get that...but why tell lie after lie after lie and mess with people's heads and hearts and all that.even friends cant be honest... I don't understand...can someone explain to me why? ~untrusting

Burning Rose
Burning Rose Engulfed in lover’s flame Set ablaze yet not burning up Consumed by loves passions Feeling the soul about to erupt As two bodies melt together Heat rises from the heart Arms and legs lock and hold This lust is razor sharp Moving in a rhythm A dance of hips that grind Pressed skin never feeling close enough Time shatters as the clock hands unwind Each piece to our puzzle Is slowly put into place Each reaching for the fruit Both savoring the taste Wrapping ourselves in each other Only in desire are we clothed Obtaining the beauty that lies beneath This perfect Burning Rose

Update On My Neighber Who Has Cancer
My neighber got her bone marrow transplant on the 23rd of Dec. i talked to her doughter and she said her mom is doing really good she is going to be in the hosp for a while if the bone marrow transplant works and if it does work once her ammune system billds back up the docs said she can move into a trayler close to the hosp. once that happens she will be there for six months and then she will be able to come home if all goes right! Although once she does come home my mom says things will never be the same for her she wont go outside much because she will be to scared of catching a cold....but i cant blame her there the smallest cold could kill her but even once she has been better for a few years she will never be the person she once was she use to be so happy and outgoing she was always one to come around and say hello or stop by and hang out or even come by to pick the weeds out of my parents yard. the smallest things could make her laugh....i know this because i could always make

Guiding Light
a world slipping away, tumbling out of control, Running lost through the world, Stumbling and falling through the night, Untill sudenly before me is a light, so bright and true it almost blinds, feeling safe again for the first time, loving arms around me holding me tight, whispered words sooth the tears, Light pushing away the darkness, Love turning away lonlieness, Sighing with a contentment thought lost, Again my heart melts, as he finds her once again. Kevin E Brooker

Face Of An Angel
His heart leaps at the first sight of her, Melting completely as he looks upon her eyes, His gaze drinks in every feature,line and curve, Locking them forever in his memory, Sitting in awe of her beauty, The sight of her takes his breath away, His heart flutters each time he thinks of her, Never before has he gaed upon such beauty, The entire world melts away leaving only her, Her eyes like sparkling pools of saphires, Her smile as soft and sweet as swiss chocolate, Her voice as alluring as the sirens song, Her hair like strands of the finest silk, The thought of her fills him with a deep yearning desire, To hold love caress and cherish her forever, Surely he is looking into the face of angel... Kevin E Brooker

Soulmate
he sits alone thinking of her, the one who has touched his very soul, the one whom has made him whole, without her love he could never be, the love he feels has made him see, though all the hard times they've had, From the moment he first saw her, he knew with her he would be forever, from the first word she spoke, His heart and soul she took, When she is gone hes never felt so alone, When she is arund his heart leaps with joy untold, Wishing with her he was there to hold, Longing in his heart to feel her touch, The yearning of his soul to have her close, No other could touch him so deepy as she has, For she is his soulmate and he is hers... Kevin E Brooker

Collaring
Collaring What A Collar Means Collaring is when a Dom/me claims a sub as their own. This can be literal--actually placing a collar around the neck of the submissive--or it can be figurative and be an understanding between the people involved. Often the literal option is chosen, because the collar is recognized within the community as a mark of ownership. Collars are, again, a mark of ownership. Collars mean that a Dom/me has exclusive rights to the sub that is wearing their collar, and that he or she makes any decision that affects that sub. In some communities it is accepted that a person will check with the Dom/me before any interaction, even conversation, with the submissive. Most communities are not this formal, but that doesn't mean that the Dom/me does not have complete control over what is done to the sub that is wearing his or her collar. To touch, molest, use, or require something of a collared submissive by someone who is not their owner and is not acting under the owner's

Beginner's Guide
Basis Rules 1: A capitalized nick is a Dominant/Master/Mistress 2: A lowercase nick is a submissive 3: A nick with letters in brackets at the end, is a collared submissive ex: jane{D} (variances: jane-D-, jane^D^, jane[D] ) 4: A collared submissive is usually untouchable by another Dominant without his/her Dominant's permission 5: If a collared submissive misbehaves, punishment should be given by the Dominant he/she is collared to 6: If another Dominant has a complaint about a collared submissive, it should be given directly to that submissive's Dominant. 7: Consent is a big thing, just because you have a capital nick doesn't give you the right to demand cybersex or a scene. 8: Always be yourself, trying to be someone else just won't work 9: Never touch a submissive without his/her's Dominant's consent. 10: ALWAYS ask your Dominant if you are unsure of proper behavior. 11. Respect is the key. Be aware that there are real people, just like you, typing the words t

Where Can I Find "pepsi Stuff" Codes?
post date:2008-05-18 22:10:17views: 33 comments: 0 ratings: 0 Where are the codes located? And what should I do with the codes to get my 500 FU-Bucks?Participating Products:Pepsi, Diet Pepsi, Wild Cherry & Wild Cherry Diet Pepsi, Caffeine Free & Caffine Free Diet Pepsi, Pepsi One, Jazz Caramel Cream, Jazz Strawberries & Cream, Jazz Black Cherry French Vanilla, Diet Pepsi Vanilla, Diet Pepsi Max, Pepsi Lime & Diet Pepsi Lime**Check packaging for a PepsiStuff Label**20 oz (cap)24 oz (cap)1 Liter (cap)2 Liter (cap)8 pack - Fridge Pack (flap)12 pack - Fridge Pack (flap)12 pack - 16.9 oz bottile24 pack cans6 pack, 24 oz bottles32/44 fountain (cup)Pepsi codes will be 10 characters long. Once you get codes, send them here: http://fubar.com/privmsg.php?u=1928052 Post each code on a separate line with no spaces. (Ex: GR4DWE7RTVGH) Once verified, you will then receive your fu-bucks.

How Kinky Are You?
You Scored as Very KinkyYou are very Kinky. Yuo are not over the top but you like kinky arousements and you are willing to try something new every time. You will make a very fun sex partner Very Kinky 100% A Sicko 60% Average 50%

Girl
Girl Let's climb too high Let's climb too high For the stars To reach us girl Girl I'm gonna take you hard I'm gonna bring you higher Than your mind Can take you Girl, let's climb too high Let's climb too high For the world to reach us girl Girl, let's flee the light Diaphanous Let's slip into the night Girl I'm gonna slip inside I'm gonna slip inside Fly on fire to your mind Girl I'm gonna take you hard Gonna take you harder Than your body can take you Girl, let's climb too high Let's climb too high For the stars to reach us girl Yea Girl, let's climb too high Let's climb too high For the world to reach us girl Yea Girl, let's climb too high Let's climb too high Yea, let's climb too high Let's climb too high

Christmas Season
I am so glad to see that Christmas is over. I never really realized when I was a kid just how stressful the holidays can be for parents. Although at the end of the day, it is all worth it when you see their faces on Christmas morning. I love having family around but it is nice once everyone is gone and you can look back on a successful holiday and just smile. I was able to go through this holiday season with such amazing happiness looking forward in my life and no longer looking back on what had occurred over the last year. I truly understood the spirit of giving again because I was not only able to give presents but was able to give all of me, my time and my spirit. I haven't been able to do that in a long time. That was my Christmas miracle.

Pause For Thought
Why do we always want the things we can't have? Why do we always set ourselves impossible goals? Why do we then wonder why we are disappointed? Answers for a more stress free life....... Set yourself only reachable targets Ask for nothing Expect nothing Give only what you can spare The only exception in all these rules are: Your heart Your love For they should be given freely A broken heart is better than a frozen one

Auto 11's On......
I would greatly appreciate it if you could stop by and show me some love. I decided to celebrate the new year by buying myself 11s. Who better to love you than for you to love yourself? All love will be returned....trust me. Thank you.

Think!
Mortals suffer on this coil Strive for better with their toil To prove to Him that they are good To gain a place in His neighbourhood To sit on high is their only goal To feel His love within their soul. Please don't think this is blasphamy But all above doesn't apply to me Oh I don't think I'm the only one The time for that is now long gone Centuries pass and time flies by Then old beliefs just seem to die. Mortals now seem all obessed With trying to be the very best With having more than all around And knocking lessers to the ground We live at such a frantic pace That greed is now so commonplace. If we continue just like this Then we'll miss out on so much bliss The joy of loving fellow men Will all too soon become alien With love no longer on the Earth Soon there'll cease to be re-birth. So pause a moment, this I plead In your pilgrimage of greed To consider others once in a while And take the time to stop and smile For if our ways we do not m

The Up Side Of A Razor Bath
OK, I'll begin this existential load of clap trap with one statement: I AM VERY VERY DEPRESSED!!!!! I tried the overdose, and failed. Maybe I should explore the virtues of other possible methods??? Ok so the razor bath, hmmm should be fairly painless, I mean apart from the initial slices of course, just lie back in a very hot bath and fall asleep. But...... what about the poor sod that has to find you? How traumatic would that be? Something they would never recover from I'd bet. So... our next option? Oh! a high dive, just pick a fairly tall buildiing and dive off (don't jump, cos if you land on your legs instead of your head then you are just a cripple instead of a corpse). Now the downside (lol sorry not funny) is the instant of fear as you stand on the edge, and if like me you are afraid of heights then terror not fear would be more like it. And again what about the poor sod who has to scrape you up? More trauma. Hmmm, now I'm running out of choices. A gun?

Wow! Horoscope....so Dead On...
Someone in your life has been running hot and cold on you, and today you should turn off the faucet and walk away. You have been working so hard at making a connection with them, but it's not worth it. You have been clinging too tightly when you may need to let go. Maybe when you're not around, this person will understand the value you bring to their life, and maybe not. But you are not getting what you deserve right now, and you are better off moving on. Control your destiny! I do not think that I have ever just read something and knew that it just fit that day! This is so dead on in my life today...it's just a matter of letting go of friends that are not friends!

Never
Never No one knows the effect your absence has on me To never see you to never touch you You went away never said goodbye Maybe never is too rigid maybe never is too strict We've said it before But never followed through We couldn't deny each other never stayed away But now you're gone fighting for our country Timezones may separate us physically but world's couldn't divide our hearts true calling I never thought I'd miss you like this I never thought you would have such a hold There I go saying never again and I'm going to say it once more My one regret has always been missing you when you weren't there and I never told you I cared.

Love In The Bottom Of A Bottle.
"Love in the bottom of a bottle" KC & JOJO said it best when they sing: "If you think your lonely now, wait until TONIGHT!" But what happens when a mistake you've made keeps you up at NIGHT? I fell for you when you fell for me ALIKE! when you were sober you couldn't talk to me about the bad things in your LIFE? I tried so hard to get some feelings out of you, a few beers and some shots, you wanted to live with me and be my WIFE! I was really abused by YOU too girl for thinking it's ALL RIGHT! You had more affection for me when you were INTOXICATED. You made my heart feel so COMPLICATED, trust you? When you knew from relationships past I was already JADED. All bull shit aside. I can't be sorry enough for pushing you into the street because I was drunk and FADED! Skinned KNEES? Oh PLEASE? Suck it up is what you would tell THEE? I have cuts and scrapes too but, mine are from the MEMORIES. It was 2 weeks since you were dating ME, I looked past when you were d

Contacting Me.
Incase some people are interested in contacting me off of Fubar, I thought I'd post some ways. AIM: CrestfallnFeline MSN: Crestfallen.feline@gmail.com (also my email) YID: Larrycar87 ICQ: 386446776 (Also works with AIM) Myspace: www.myspace.com/kobaruto MyspaceIM: larrycar87@yahoo.com (my spam email) DeviantArt: Kobaruto Hope to hear from you guys.

Whitewash By Alex Kava
Plot Summary: Bestseller Kava takes a break from her Maggie O'Dell FBI profiler series (A Necessary Evil, etc.) with a fine topical thriller involving terrorism, government coverups and toxic waste. Sabrina Galloway, a young Chicago professor, becomes a hands-on scientist in Florida with EcoEnergy, a company that specializes in TCP—a process that converts refuse and other waste material into oil. EcoEnergy's CEO is angling for a $140 million military government contract, but after Sabrina's boss mysteriously disappears and Sabrina discovers a reactor processing something it shouldn't, her life becomes as endangered as Florida's waterways. She hits the road in a '47 Studebaker with Miss Sadie, a gutsy 81-year-old African-American neighbor, to find help, while Middle Eastern terrorists plot a nasty surprise for an upcoming energy summit. Engaging supporting characters include Leon, a funky hit man losing his touch but not his heart, and covert operative Natalie Richards, "a black Emma Pe

A New Dawn
The brightest star appears. When one would be accepting, my ungrateful eyes force my head back into the direction of nothingness. Dialated in the hatred, jealousy of loneliness or one left alone. All this time on this path of darkness. Led by eyes driven by hope only to find the mirage was drawn from past memories, vague recollections of what it felt like to be loved or tolerated. Why when alone do I long to be surrounded but when surrounded I push everything away? The question dances with a mind that once thought itself well prepared to answer. I continue down the known all to well path, eyes to the ground, star on the horizen seemingly lifetimes away. Am i still walking? How can i tell in this darkness. The only reference of conversation familiar to me now is internal monologue filled with questions and false answers or guesses. Sight the only sense I can trust and my trust in this is finite. So on and on I continue. What choice is left? With an immature excitement and th

Useless
Beside my self again The moon has disappeared Never scared of anything But tonight alone I feared The waves roll in endlessly As if unwelcomed guests Their solice I can feel no more And comfort in them I protest A tempting offer to return with them As the cold winds brush my face The thoughts begin to overwhelm I feel I've become useless to this place.

Enlightened
Upon a cloudy day I felt two tears fall away One for compassion, The other for hope. Another dangled from a rope above A rumor known as love. And as the rain flowed They were all washed away. Everything was washed away. But I remain Changed But I sustain Compromised But void of pain Enlightened But thankful For the rain.

Positive Lost
The positive's lost in this verse Only the negative as I rehearse And as the pen touches paper I lose the how to feel I leave you with everything else you took But these words you will not steal When your losing against death At your side I vow to be And when youre breathing your last breath I promise to be who you see The one who said he loved you The one who said he cared The one whom you decided that his life you could not share With all my memories of you Only one will make my day The vision of your tears falling As I turn and walk away There you are left alone By yourself to lose your grasp And as the sorrow fails to reach with apathy Ill laugh

A Passing Thought
As always, my thoughts and I are alone Watching the clock hands here at home. And I wonder, if I died How long until I was found? If I fall Will it make a sound? Would emotions that come, For them be subtle? Or would the ripples Disrupt the entire puddle? The thought of suddenly passing, As random as fate can be, Shatters the cloud That was once holding me. And if alone, so be it, when I go. Despite my actions I did care, Just so they know.

The Beauty Of Venus
As i walk into the cold tonight Surrounded by nature's guile. Venus at his hand to the right, The Moon presents a clever smile. His thoughts I read like poetry, His movements are no surprise. An introduction is made to me A vague softness in her eyes. Encumbered I am by this I cannot find the words to say. Overcome by a new bliss I cant seem to look away. She has a beauty so unique but like the others she is the same. And yet the future seems so bleak For us, the past is whom I blame. I gracefully nod and bow, And with a gentle kiss upon her hand, Turn and continue on for now This empty, careless, selfish man.

A Little Info
10 things guys should remember about Women! [one] while you hold her hand play with her fingers. (they think it's cute) two] tickle her & make her laugh. three] kiss her. [four] and dont only kiss her on the lips, kissing her on the cheek and forehead is cute too. [five] hold her waist [six] hug her while your behind her and rest your head on her shoulder. [seven] whisper you love her in her ear. [eight] tell her shes beautiful. [nine] look her in the eyes and smile when your thinking [ten] tell her you never want her to let you go. ******************************************************* "Love never dies a natural death. It dies because we don't know how to replenish its source. It dies of blindness and errors and betrayals. It dies of illness and wounds; it dies of weariness, of witherings, of tarnishings." -- Anais Nin ******************************************************** You don’t love a woman because she is beautiful, she is beaut

Life
Life is such a delicate and fragile mystery. It truly is a miracle. The way it begins, the quickness with which it can be taken away. How is it that so many of us survive day after day, living only for ourselves, not wanting more, not caring to contribute a thing to the other creatures we were forced to share an exsistance with. In less than a blink of an eye it can be stolen before it ever had a chance to be. And do we appreciate it for what it is and can be? How many discard what they never should have been given in the first place? Dipose of life because it is "inconvenient"? We all have our reasons, but irresponsibility shouldn't be one. Not when so many fight for it. Fight to keep it. Fight to create it. But why is it taken before it has a chance to look around, and take in its first breath? Sometimes life just isn't fair.

Fake It!!!
Despise me all you want it won’t make you a better person than i am. Reveal all my imperfections it won’t make you perfect. Naming me bitch won’t make you any less of it. Criticize me from head to toe it won’t wipe out your insecurities. I HAVE THE ONE THING YOU EVER WANTED… so shut the fu*k up!

That Name
Any day now I said. Any day now ill remember your name. The one I use to say when I was down and miserable at the world. The one I use to follow till the end of the earth. Whats that name that mattered so much to me? Its there on the tip of my tounge and then its gone. I can remember all those ive ever said ive loved, but I wouldn’t recognize them on the street. I can remember all of those that mattered but couldn’t tell you where I knew them from. So I guess this is why I cant think of this one name. This person changed my life. Took me from happy, carefree, innocent to all, to this fearful coward that hides from the world. What was that name? Its such a shame too cause I can use them again. I am back to being strong and I could use their dose of reality. I could use that voice that made me understand how low I am. That touch that said no one else will ever do. Comforting smile that said, “I own you, and you don’t even realize it.” I could use that name. before the me that is beco

Jose Cuervo Christmas Cookies, Enjoy!!!
1 cup of water 1 tsp baking soda 1 cup of sugar 1 tsp salt 1 cup or brown sugar 4 large eggs 1 cup nuts 2 cups of dried fruit 1 bottle Jose Cuervo Tequila Sample the Cuervo to check quality. Take a large bowl, check the Cuervo again, to be sure it is of the highest quality, pour one level cup and drink. Turn on the electric mixer. Beat one cup of butter in a large fluffy bowl. Add one peastoon of sugar. Beat again. At this point it's best to make sure the Cuervo is still ok, try another cup just in case. Turn off the mixerer thingy. Break 2 leggs and add to the bowl and chuck in the cup of dried fruit. Pick the frigging fruit off the floor. Mix on the turner. If the fried druit gets stuck in the beaters just pry it loose with a drewscriver. Sample the Cuervo to check for tonsisticity. Next, sift two cups of salt, or something. Who geeves a sheet. Check the Jose Cuervo. Now shift the lemon juice and strain your nuts. Add one table. Add a spoon of sugar, or somefink.

Second To None
These are some words I need to say to you and you'll know where Im coming from by the time Im through. When I tell you I love you,DON'T TAKE ME THERE. When I stroke your ego when your feeling blue and trying to show how much Im feeling you.DON'T TAKE ME THERE. When Im up all night trying to make it right, and agree with you to avoid a fight, DON'T TAKE ME THERE. When you feel like you have no friends, I'll be there for you until the very end, SO DON'T TAKE ME THERE. So when everything is said and done, What Im trying to say boo is,THIS GIRL COME SECOND TO NONE!!!!!

Sleep Now
Sleep Now My tune softly plays Drawing you into rest Lay your head now Here upon my chest Let me stroke fingers Through your hair Drift off into fantasy Release to me your cares My open arms welcome Your soul to be at peace My heartbeat soothes Feel your fears release Let go my love Let me touch your skin Let me caress your body Touch you deep within Let the melody bring dreams Let my lyrics stir thoughts Let the rhyme weave tales Let the notes fire burn hot You will feel a new sensation As the music’s spell is cast Enjoy these moments my love For they will be your last

"angel"
She was alone in the room And somehow I knew that in time I would fall For that look on her face What I'd do to embrace you tonight And watch the dark turn into light I can't believe I was really lying next to you Angel, she looks like an angel Take me to heaven with you when you go Oh, angel, got to be an angel You can't leave me baby on my own Fly angel fly Where you go then so will I She said I won't leave you in heaven I thought angels did not lie If time can stand still I'd hold you near me now and for always And oh what I'd give To have you live my whole life But you left without saying goodbye If you change your mind Remember I'll be waiting here Angel, she looks like an angel Take me to heaven with you when you go Oh angel, got to be an angel You can't leave me baby on my own Fly angel fly, Where you go then so will I She said I won't leave you in heaven I thought angels did not lie Don't stay away too long I can hardly stan

Because You Were There
© By Trisha You went away so long ago, to a place you'd never been To lend a hand of help & strength to those with too few friends. Though many times it was so hard for me to understand why you were among the chosen to defend another's land..... In time I came to realize and grow in admiration of the love and courage you generously gave to help protect and serve our nation. More times than I can now recall, words of thanks were seldom heard. And even though it hurt you sore, your devotion to us never swerved. You truly bore the call to duty as a badge of honor & gratitude It's as if somehow you were saying 'Thanks' to those who loved and protected you. So many have stood across the years, went to serve but could not come home..... They gave their all and even more, So peace and freedom more could know. So, for me, 1 day a year's not enough to tell you all how much we care..... How much we love, admire and honor you all for we all know..... We're

8 Days And Counting!
It has been 8 days now with out a fag touching my lips. Yes im nearly bold now as im ripping my hair out,not using any patches or gum , doing it with good old WILL POWER ... Will keep you all up dated. Big thanks to all and lots of loving xxxxxx

The Great Divide
She nods at me but acts distracted I don't think she heard a word I said We're just going through the motions no spark burns now when we're in bed she slips away drawn to that siren's call You know a heart divided will surely fall loving you used to be so easy as natural as each breath I take I remember how you pleased me and anticipate each move I'd make all that's left between us is a wall a lover's heart divided is bound to fall sweet moments pass, signals missed when the march of time takes it's toll too busy to take the time to kiss and soon a loving heart grows cold where was love there's nothing at all You know a heart divided will surely fall