sometimes i wonder if it's gonna be alrighty, sometimes i wonder why i even care. there are days i wish would never come and times i wish i'd never wake up. i blame myself for the chaos in my life for if you look deep enough there is no other to blame. sometimes at night i can not sleep wondering if anyone care aint that a damn shame. who would really miss if i died today, the hearts that would break and the lives it might take. i remember the sayings that where once my own don't trust anyone and life a bitch and then you so don't get pissed enjoy the fucking ride. i leave you with this and nothing more, i go to bed not knowing what may happen but whatever happen i know that my sons will be alright. i love my boys, i love my wife, i love my family but hate myself