Im jus a lil ray of sunshine's blog: "untitled"

I hear a whisper & look around. I look about me, there's no on to be found. I start to walk again & that's when I begin to hear it. It keeps whispering & I choose to fear it. I start to run but it follows; There's a lump in my throat; I cannot swallow. I turn to look into the lush green... but as before... nothing cam be seen. ~Gwendolyn A (Pepper) Coyne August 20, 1990

Lover of the tiny cats. the one who understands their pleas. Shall draw from within the unwanted demons and inflict then on the weaker beings. Here me call to you in the cats crys. Remember that you are looking at me through the cats eyes. ~Gwendolyn A (Pepper) Coyne 1994

The sacred tale of time shall soon unwind. The select few shall band together to make know the secrets of all mankind. Though they do not realize who they are it will be made known soon. To all those who are not true, the divine ones shall bring doom. ~Gwendolyn A (Pepper) Coyne 1994

I've sat here watching, waiting, wondering if you see... The depth of my emotions burning bright within me. Your intelligence is so advance, you're wise beyond your years Yet you have a boyish innosence, your heart and mind are filled with so many fears. I promise I won't hurt you, as you've been hurt before I want to be your everything in life, I want to give you so much more. To add to your life, Sunshine, brighter days, and laughter To bring your soul peace, light, and give you the happily ever after I feel like I'm looking at you thru far sidded glasses, you're just out of my grasp I try to reach, I try to speak... but cannot, this seems to be my greatest task. In silence I'm wondering, watching, and forever waiting wanting, wishing, hoping, always am I antisipating I want to taste your sweet kiss, consume me with your style I want to feel your strong embrace, I promise it'll be worth your while I've tried to come up with plans to bring us closer together My fears keep me from pursuing my happy dreams of forever I want to share myself with you, the most beautiful thing of all time To give you everything I have, and in turn, have you become mine. ~Gwendolyn A (Pepper) Coyne October 10, 2000

Every night I go to sleep. I dream of things I dare not speak. I toss and turn all through the night. I moan, groan, and snore in the twilight. Out from within comes a world unknown. A world of drowsiness, very different from my own. Within that world comes a sharp cry. I pray to myself, I'm too young to die. Then the world slowly dissappears. I wake up and forget all my fears. When I wake a new day's begun. I open my window and reveal the new morning sun. ~Gwendolyn A (Pepper) Coyne March 18, 1992

As you turn the pages of an unopened book, or stare into a nearby mirror, but never really look. You'll see me here and you'll see me there, and within your mind I'm everywhere. ~Gwendolyn A (Pepper) Coyne 1994

Burning with desire to run free yearning for someone to release me locked up emotions from deep within my mind stranded with the fear of what I may find Broken spirits and shattered dreams There must be more to life than what it seems A side show attraction to laugh and stare Junk and food thrown at me from everywhere Am I young or old... can't remember my age I've been stuck here too long, my home.... this cage. ~Gwendolyn A (Pepper) Coyne August 24, 1999

As I lay here dreaming of exotic places I've never been before. I think to myself, is this really a dream or is it so much more. Could I have been to these places once upon a time, or have I made them all up from deep within my mind. Tales from within of times unknown, visions of life... Was this life my own? ~Gwendolyn A (Pepper) Coyne 1994

A Desperate Cry I wander about all alone in the cold. If I came to your door would you turn me out, or would you shelter me from the cold? I start to cry. Out loud... so bold. If I came to you, would you dry me teary eye, or would you laugh? Please don't scold. I want to say I love you, more than the stars up in the sky. If you found out would you say you love me too, or would you be so cold as to say good bye?! ~Gwendolyn A (Pepper)Coyne March 14, 1992

Sweet spoken words of love longing to be. Tender caresses and thoughts of He. California Dreaming on clear stary nights. Feelings raised to whole new heights. Passionate kisses and walking hand in hand. Urges stretching across thousands of miles of land. Together at last running your fingers through my hair. Together we'll be when I am finally there. To spend my life where the warm sun kisses the sky. To walk the beach and listen to the ocean sigh. ~Gwendolyn A. (Pepper) Coyne june 19, 2006