Well, it's 2 AM and I'm smoking cigarettes and drinking coffee... another sleepless night. The air in my attic room is chilly, but I'm warmed by thoughts of my unexpected crush. I think about him. I see his face often and I turn my thoughts over and around in my mind. Would his touch thrill me as much as my fantasy does? His kiss...oh I'm craving his lips. Would he do those things I've longed for? He is already my treasured friend; could he be my lover too? Beyond sex...could he be the one I've needed my whole life? Only time will tell, and my life is so full of time. I will wait.
