blood and tears
pain and death
darkness and despair
barren and empty
my life summarized in those eight words
wounded and scared for all time
some easier to live with then others
some wounds and scars
are distant memories
others i must face daily
scars no one knows or sees but me
i live in fear of the night
night means sleep
sleep means nightmares
nightmares that make me relive it all
reliving the years of abuse
reliving years of torment
reliving years of pain
having to live with the knowledge
sealing that part of me away
hoping that if i dont talk about it
that it will all go away
that the pain will slowly fade
the scars will disappear
my life will be normal
but that is all a dream
it will never happen
the scars and pain may diminish
but they will never disappear
until the day i cease to breath
whether it be from old age
or the blade slicing my skin one final time
my life one day hopefully
will include more then
blood and tears
pain and death
darkness and despair
barren and emptyness
