Something final thoughts on the world in which we live.
The alcoholic bastard played the stRAnGEr in me.
I've had some requests for a real blog entry. (Seems some people out there are just so curious about the real me for whatever morbid reason.)
Alright here goes nothing and yet everything all at once and simultaneously like a supernova turned blackhole.
The past three weeks I have been drinking an average of 15 beers a night and enjoying every moment. My alcohol tolerance is overwhelming every sane thought left in my being. It would seem my body is no longer able to function without some kind of alcohol induced mind fog (Brian Lumley fans had better get that illiteration or I will smack you all).
I have been told that I need a social life, but realistically I work too many hours (65+ a week) for this to even be a possibility. My time is not my own and with every dollar my bank account gains I am losing a part of my soul.
I enjoy what I do, but I miss the things I cannot do any longer. Once upon a life I taught a model rocketry class for middle school students, volunteered when my hometown was ravaged by a 100 year flood and had feelings.
My life currently revolves around work and convincing myself I have an active social life and friends who are there for me when I need them most. I know it's only fools who do not know their fate is just.
I have changed my appearance and attitude so many times that I have lost myself in the process. I'm looking forward to retirement so that I can begin to live my life.
I am an introvert by nature, yet I become an extrovert while drinking. My emotions are burried deep within me and I have no concern for the feelings of others. I laugh in the face of adversion and I revel in the failure of others.
I am a devout cynic and an athiest. I will step on anyone who gets in my way on my road to success.
Above all else, I enjoy pain and abuse my body whenever I think I have failed.
"Happiness is a road best left untraveled for leaving footprints to your heart's desire will only encourage others to follow in your footsteps."
-Robert
