I don't believe in "reality". I think our existences and perceptions are constantly in flux.

Needless to say, I am not like you.

I currently work the graveyard shift, as I have most of my life.

I haven't been to a doctor in 23 years, and don't really believe in modern medicine. Health will never come from a drug, or a surgery. Though I would go to a doctor if I broke a bone or was shot. Did you know that most doctors get less than one day of training about nutrition? I mean, if they don't have nutrition training, how would they know anything about health? They are just glorified drug dealers, trained on books written by drug companies. It isn't even their fault.

I don't subscribe to any organized religion, but I am a pretty spiritual person. I believe that we are all connected and on some base/origin dimension we are all the same being, that has gone completely insane, and we are just the manifested delusions of his/her/our multiple personalities. There are very few religious books that aren't proven to be wrong within the first couple of pages. According to the first page of the bible for example the sky is a tent keeping the sky water separated from the water under the flat earth beneath us, and the stars and sun are affixed to the tent. How could I believe in that? That is literally on the first page, not to mention my confusion with how could the first and second day have occurred if there is nothing to orbit the sun until day 3? Like, what is a day even supposed to mean in a world of nothingness, or even a world of nothing but a light? I mean, this is all in the first 5 paragraphs (Genesis 1:1-1:20), and it is so illogical that the only people who believe this is just a small fraction of the morons that we label "flat-earthers", and yet everyone pretends to subscribe to this religion. I have never been a good liar, but apparently liars are the only ones who go to heaven...

I think the status quo is bullshit, and that people are sheepish. People will willingly be stupid followers in the pursuit of feeling like they belong. Whether it is some nerdy kid who doesn't fit in joining an online bigot club an eventually going on a shooting spree in a mall in the name of white supremacy, or if it is a bunch of weak faithed church goers standing in front of an abortion clinic telling some poor rape victim that she is going to burn in hell for not wanting to birth her assaulters child. They will pretend to be in love with whoever is willing to go along with the facade, and then they will sleep with other people behind the back of the one they "love" to maintain the appearance that they fit in, until they inevitably get divorced, or stay in a marriage with a person they have grown apart from while secretly despising them for having been their own miscalculation in an attempt to conform with a system that clearly doesn't work. People are willing to be absolutely horrible in their pointless attempt to prove that their life has meaning. It doesn't. You are a parasite on the earth that isn't worth the plot of land that was turned into a barren wasteland when it was cemented over to build whatever hovel, house, shack, apartment etc. that you live in. Once you realize that, you would think you would at least be humble enough to stop being total pricks to one another, but you won't. You will continue to tailgate the person in front of you on the freeway, leave your shopping cart in the parking space next to where you were parked at walmart, not flush the toilet after you peed on the seat at Starbucks, make mocking posts on facebook about anyone who doesn't agree with your uneducated stance on politics, laughingly point out someone to your friends for being too old/fat/unattractive/poverty stricken, all while telling yourself that you have properly disguised yourself as a faceless member of your herd. You have properly neutered yourself enough to fit in with the group. You comply just enough with your chosen religion to be saved and to be better than everyone else, and that God loves you and cares about you and has a plan for you and you have a purpose.

I have no purpose, and I am not fake enough to be like most people. And honestly, from the oustide looking in, people are f***ing disgusting. Instead I try to be a decent person by my own standards. I try to be the guy that I wouldn't think is f***ing trash, and honestly, if that isn't good enough for you, I don't really care.