nine inch nails.sunspots
sunspots, cast a glare in my eyes. sometimes, i forget i'm alive. i feel it coming and i've got to get out of it's way. i hear it calling and i come 'cause i can't disobey. i should not listen, and i shouldn't believe. but i do, yes i do. she turns me on. she makes it real. i have to apologise. for the way i feel. my life, it seems has taken a turn. why in the name of god would i ever want to return. peel off our skin we're going to burn what we were to the ground. fuck in the fire and we'll spread all the ashes to the ground. i want to kill away the rest of what's left. and i do, yes i do. she turns me on. she makes it real. i have to apologise. for the way i feel. and nothing can stop me now. there is nothing to tear. and everything that ever was. is inside of here. i won't, i won't, i won't. inside of here. now i just stare into the sun. and i see everything i've done. i think i could have been someone. but i can't stop what has begun. when everything is said and done. and there is no place left to run. i think i used to be someone. now i just stare into the sun.
no, i don't know what's going on exactly, but the countdown remains. until i'm sure... until i have some vague idea of what's going on. at least in an abstract sense, something a litttle more... firm.
oh well. more later.
off to work.
