Why do i always doubt myself so much
why no matter how positively I think do I always have this tiny niggling in the back of my brain telling me that I am not good enough... why must I always harbor this self doubt since my accident my computer has become my safe haven if only because I cant do much else so maybe its the 165 contacts I have that never speak to me or maybe it is that one special person that says brb and you dont see them again... I have this feeling like am I not important enought to at least say hey Ive got something going on so I wont be seeing you for awhile...these are my thoughts for the night as depressing as they may be... just goes to show you that even I have my bad moments... like everybody else... It makes me put my gaurd up and I dont want to do that anymore I wnat to let people in... into the deeper parts of me... my babbling continues... i do beleive my mind is ready to shut down for the night but i leave you with this thought... If you dont want to be a persons friend just tell them... if they have any sort of maturity they will understand all I know is that I personaly just cant stand the not knowing part it drives me nutz... good night
