I wrote this a few years ago, when i was still going in and out of rehab. My father had already past and I remember my mom always blaming herself and I had no other way to tell her that its not her fault. That she was a good mother and didnt do anything wrong. But enjoy... Hope yall like
ITS CALLED...
MOM
Mom I love you more than you think,
although I know my life continues to sink.
But please understand I am fighting a hard fight,
and what you don't know is the tears I cry at night.
I am not proud of what I have become,
and definitely not proud of the things I have done.
I never meant to worry you so much,
and I know for fact it has been a bunch.
Although I treat you as if I don't care,
my guilt inside is so much to bare.
I feel so much pain for what I have done,
but I could never explain this person I have become.
I drive you crazy and cause you stress,
and I should start giving you all my best.
You tried so hard to teach me wrong from right,
and I want to tell you this very night.
You’ve done a great job as my mother,
and I would never exchange you for another.
I do not blame you for the things do,
The few good that remains I give thanks to you.
You set good examples for us to follow,
it is our own fault that in the mud we wallow.
If I would have only listened to your advice,
I wouldn't be living an addicts life.
I want to thank you for always being there,
and believe me when I say I really do care.
You are a wonderful women in my eyes,
and nothing you could do would change my mind.
