Searching for love is not an easy task everyone makes promises that will never last.. There are those that know what love is and then there are those that confuse it with lust.. For I have experience both first hand and there both deadly to the heart.. I open my heart and find my self open to fail once more and I’m not even there.. What to do what to do.. Do I take that chance and deal with the feeling of rejection later but knowing once again I find another friend for life.. or should I just let it go and leave well enough alone..
These are the things that contemplate my mind.. Sometimes I just want to cry.. In these past two years god has put two men in my path that have gain a huge part of my heart but yet one of them has already become my friend for life.. the other is on the same path..
Emotions are soaring and my body is calling.. I want to feel his touch in an intimate manner.. I want to know what it feels like to be cuddled and feel some kind of emotion that I have never felt before.. I know that this might be wrong and I can’t look back once more.. but god help me as this is not lust that I feel nor is it love it’s the desire to be comforted and felt like a queen...
Am I wrong for what I feel its so strong that I feel its wrong.. I don’t know you and you do not know me and its destine to fail.. As I see it in my eyes.. but I look into his eyes and I find my self memorized.. He is so not my type for the second time in my life.. I feel like I have struck a different light.. Oh boy all aboard what a flight.
