i am so full of hate and anger...and have no way to release it from with in....this beast that lives in me i feel it every day. it claws at me just preying i let it out...i win the fight most days...but what happens when i dont win the fight... who will i become??? i have worked so hard to keep this at bay but it comes up out of no where and i almost in brace it...if thats how i feel all the time and i push it aside....is that not me...not being me???? or am i being me by fighting the monster? i dont like who i am right now how much would i like myself if i became what i fear?