"I would take back those things i've done, because I'll give you..... my heart if you would let me start all over again. " I have often wondered why I see things so differently than others, but as I explore the world and my life I see that there are many individuals that follow the same code of honor. To be honest I don't know what to make of my life at this point. The only thing that seems to be constant in my life is myself. I have envisioned myself in the future, and have spoken of a solitary path. I have seen the other side of my situation and I can't help to feel embarrassed. I realize that I expect a lot of people that I interact with, I think because I expect so much from myself. However, I have must acknowledge the fact that it is not fair to expect a lot, if not anything from anyone. This is a place where if you don't try to take for yourself, then someone will try to take from you. They don't even try to make it a "fair" deal after trying to play you...amazing that people can be so selfish. I think that everyone has had a moment in their lives that they wouldn't forget for the rest of their lives, however sometimes wished they could forget. Remember that every moment can have an impact on your life, but only if you let it. Life, more specifically someone's life is 1 in a million, because they choose to learn or not learn from every moment in their lives. They can choose to take something serious, or just fuck around enough to write it off. "Its mad hard not to act reckless." That makes a piece of us, unique from everyone else. I have chosen my path in life, and although I can see the paths to my future I have yet to have the courage to actively and whole heartily pursue them. I have been building the strength to not look back, but to be honest there are people that I have not given up on. I am convincing myself that although my life was redefined by my encounter...maybe a moment is just a moment that doesn't define oneself.
I know that a lot of what I say may sound corny, cheesy, etc. But sometimes you walk along a path that you have never encountered, but someone has been there before. That doesn't make your journey any less arduous. If anything it makes the journey harder, because of the skeptics that have appeared as a result of the people that have abused people's trust, before me. I can only be true to myself and be honest with my love.
