sitting on my bed peeking at the window
staring at the darkness
embracing my sorrow
question here
questions there
should i even care
light flickered from the corner of my eye
just as then i looked up in the sky
was it a sign i saw this star
i held my breath as tears fall down
i felt my heart beating so fast
i dont know why
then i just cry
i stood up walk away
then when i look the star aint there
i reached up on my laptop
and peeked what might ive got
there you are as i can see
maybe youre happy
but no not me
ive been like this all day long
convincing myself to be strong
maybe theres no happily ever after
i might be bleeding but i'll stop wont suffer
for i know i shall be better
i know i will but when doesnt matter