Well I have been doing some thinking as late and while I always new an "About Me" section would never ever be finished, I have determined that its definitely a "living" document that will be expounded on from time to time. Most of the time it's going to grow from some experience that I have had that has affected me in such a way that there is a personal shift in my way of thinking, way of living or way of being and such. Other times it's just going to be updated to include things that were overlooked previously and that should be stated because too many assumptions (a bad thing by the way) were made about me, about things, etc.
So... first on the list for some truly dear friends of mine:
Honestly, if these are skills that everyone else on the planet has and I don't, then I was apparently wandering around on the day they gave those out. I didn't even see those on the list of abilities once you get to "Oracle" here on Fubar.
So I guess..... if you want me to know that while you were chatting with me, you decided to step away to go to the bathroom, then your mom called, and 45 minutes later your dinner that you decided to start cooking (before your mom called and right after the bathroom) started burning and you had to start all over from scratch after hanging up with your mom... Only to return to the chat window 2 hours after we started chatting.... Im assuming you'd probly NEED to tell me that.
There is NO WAY on God's green earth I would have ever in my life thought to think while I was sitting here off and on for 2 hours waiting for you to respond to what I said (is this indicative of having no life or sincere dedication to pay attention to you and have a decent information exchange?), that you had basically just left me hanging and "life" got in the way.
Im not saying that "everyone" would think that this sort of scenario is rude. Apparently the person doing such a thing didn't think it was rude because he was the one that kinda chewed my a$$ for thinking something like.... "Wow.... I havent heard from him in a while... I wonder if I said something wrong?" Im not allowed to think that, Im not allowed at all to come to any sort of conclusion based on what I know of the situation. I assume that the learning experience for me is to just across the board assume that anyone that "chats" with me online is merely seeking to pass the time and if they stop responding to me something more interesting has taken over and I should go find something else to do. Otherwise, if conversing with me was important; the person wanting to communicate with me, will call or ask to meet me for coffee if it is logistically possible. (The calling or meeting in person is actually MANDATORY if an misunderstanding/argument has ensued. If you dont have the time to call or meet then consider this cyber connection dissolved. Thank you for playing our game.)
Whew.... more to come.
I am definitely a walking contradiction; an enigma in most senses of the word.
I am happily
married; completely satisfied with my life and my partner; but my marriage is
flexible and I desire more from life; from people I interact with, and from the
experiences that are allowed us in this lifetime. Pushing the envelope of social
standards is what I crave; polyamorous is what I am. I truly believe that drama
is not a negative; but the spice of life that makes this time we have been
blessed with worth experiencing.
I have posted ads on adult websites where
"getting laid" is the primary objective for lack of a straight forward avenue I can follow to obtain what I pursue (as sex is not my number one priority). I
prefer the intensity of meeting and connecting with someone new and exciting but then the prolonged period of learning each and every nuance of that person. Maybe we develop a relationship full of passion and spontaneous interludes, but maybe we only develop a friendship of caring and sharing- ONLY TIME WILL TELL (if u don't have it to invest, then we will never know).
I know that I am not for everyone and am accepting of that, but I am intensely impacted by the negative energy some people attempt to force upon me here. The anonymity here seems to bring out the worst in most people. So many proclaim to be open minded but are merely sexually uninhibited; which is not one in the same. To judge anyone's reason for being here is not even close to open minded.
I am completely transparent however opaquely complicated. I am simple to please but overtly complex in nature. I am conservative in some of my thoughts and the way I carry myself; but I have participated most of my adult life in alternative lifestyles and am genuinely curious to learn more. I am an intellectual but sometimes I sacrifice spelling accuracy and correct grammar for whatever gets the point across in the least amount of time/space due to impatience. I am completely grounded and level headed while being completely clinically psychotic. Welcome to my world; Cute psycho polyamorous kttn:
Polyamorous = pertaining to participation in multiple and simultaneous loving and/or sexual relationships (relationship being the key word). This doesn't specifically relate to merely hoarding multiple sexual partners. The ultimate situation would be one where everyone I love knows each other and is accepting of each connection I have.
Psycho = Bipolar, ADD, SAD, OCD, Pyromaniac, Anal retentive, Control Freak, Attention whore, Sarcastic Bitch that lives for the drama of life. If you honestly don't seem to understand that you aren't truly living if you don't have some drama in your life, then this is where you should move on to the next fubarian...
Everyone says, its just the internet, its just a facade and I guess for the most part it is what you make of it... but keeping an open mind, keeping it "real", being engaging and willing to engage, while being respectful of the fact that the bottom line is, this is another person you are interacting with on the other end of the computer .... the Golden Rule applies to the internet just as much as it applies to the real world. Internet life is what you make of it.
Likes |
Dislikes |
Harleys & SportBikes | Dishonesty |
Leather | Bullshit |
Manly Cologne (& wearing it myself the next morning) | Disrespect |
Shaved Heads | Self Centeredness |
The Color Black | Obnoxiousness |
Open mindedness | Close mindedness |
Freedom | Feeling confined |
Honesty and trust | Lacking Sense of Humor |
Sarcasm and Wit | Passing Judgement |