I had someone tell me i was beautiful then turn around and ask me to get Nasty with them
this is my reply:
Thank you for the compliment first and foremost. Secondly I don't get nasty ...I've made the choice in my life to wait for one who appreciates that I have more to offer then to spread my legs and show off my body to all the men out there just because they ask or talk dirty to me.
his sent reply:
your welcome and I respect that of you
I may show a little cleavage in my pics, I'm comfortable in my own skin. But that does not mean I conduct myself in a hoarish fashion. I do my best to show some class and I don't think my actions pics or words are rarely ever distastful. All I ask is for is a little respect. I'm not on some site to hook up etc.
I mess up and fall short sometimes. I'm far from perfect. My actions and words, don't always match. I know who I am, sometimes my hopes and desires and true believes get pushed aside due to my need to be loved or accepted. I'm human. I've sent mixed messages to people and then turned around and placed blame when they may have been confused or hurt by my actions and words not matching. I'm not proud to admit I've crossed the line, and sent mixed messages. I wish I could go back and right the wrongs on my part, but it isn't always possible. And I certainly don't want to be someones pain the butt. I am a work in progress too. I hope in your heart you do see the true me beyond the crazy bs. I'm truly sorry for any hurt or confusion I may have caused. I'm thankful for the experience that has shown me this defect within myself. I'm thankful with no regrets. Always know there is a special place in my heart for you and thank you for being you!!!
The damn burst
suddenly I was sucked under the current
there had been no rain
there hadn't even been sunshine
There were birds, and trees and green green grass
Even childrens laughter
but for me nothing
just a bystander
watching it all pass me by
no expectations
little hopes
but no feeling
where did it come from
was I going to drown
emotions lost
swept away
Out of nowhere
I'd been on a journey
no real destination
no feelings
burned and burned out
but there I was
When the damn burst!!!
GET OFF THE PITY POT FOR GOODNESS SAKE...WIPE THE CRAP OFF AND JOIN THE PARTY/LIFE!!
YOU ARE ROBBING YOURSELF BY SITTING THERE!!!! WHY DO YOU WALLOW IN THE CRAP, WALK AROUND WITH SHIT SMEARED GLASSES? IF YOU ARE WALKING AROUND WITH SHIT SMEARED GLASSES THAT IS EXACTLY WHAT YOU WILL SEE....SHIT!!! WHEN YOU ARE ENJOYING LIFE THE SHIT DISAPPEARS. IN EVERY SITUATION YOU NEED TO FIND OR BE THE LIFE THE PARTY AND NOT ALLOW YOURSELF TO BE SUCKED IN BY THE SHIT. ITS LIKE QUICKSAND AND WILL BURRY YOU ALIVE. ONLY YOU HAVE THE POWER TO KEEP FROM GETTING BACK ON THE PITTY POTTY OR SINKING IN THE SHIT. YOU FLIP THE SWITCHES YOU CONTROL YOUR LIFE , YOU MAKE THE CHOICE AS TO HOW YOU SEE IT. YOU, YOURSELF ARE THE KEY TO THE LIFE YOU HAVE AND DESERVE. MAKE A CHOICE TODAY AND BE HAPPY, LIVE HAPPY!!! GET OFF THE PITTY POT WIPE YOUR ASS AND BE THE LIFE YOU WANT TO HAVE!!!
From the rafters that ugly spider came
and with my broom i killed and mammed
He will not return to where he was before
Because he is laying dead on my floor!
Love ..think about it. It's not just a person, its in everything. What do you love? Wake each morning thinking on the things and people you love, fill your day with these thoughts. Not the things or ppl we dislike. Create a loving environment for yourself by thinking on that which you love and dont let the negative overcome you. You have the power within to change the world, even if its the little corner you live in. Love is all around you but you have to look for it.
Aren't we all some kind of fucked up!! Don't we all wonder where we went wrong or where we re going? I think sometimes we get so wrapped up in figuring it out we forget we have today. We forget to live. I'm not even sure I know how. I've chased roses and dreams and the magic fairy tale that I don't know what it is to live anymore. When I let someone in it's only for a small glimse of who or what I am or the potential of what it could be. It's not long before I push them away or they run like hell to get out. I'm tired of the walls, and the fascade of happiness, when inside I'm truly numb. I want so much to blame the past, marriages (2 failed), or the childhood of growing up in an alcoholic home, or just too many kids, that my parents just couldn't keep up. But truth is happiness comes from within ourselves and mine is burried so deep I don't even know where it is anymore. It's not that dream man or a nice home , or the shiny new vehicle I'd love to see parked in my garage. What is it anyway? I don't think I know anymore. I work hard, play very little, and keep going. I've read books, gone to church, poured my heart out to God and to others. I don't know how to live for today, and yet i wonder why my daughter is so scared to graduate and begin her adult life, so much life ahead of her, the beginning of a journey. I want new beginnings and new journeys. Not a do over just a new over. And yet I'm here and not quite there stuck here in the middle of some kind of fucked up.
Crying doesnt meake it easier
Wishing won't make it happen
I need you
The last argument we had
Never getting to say goodbye
One day you were just gone
No more redneck accent to hear
When I just needed a friend
No more pictures or silly jokes
No more songs
I want you back
I want you back
Please come back to me
Heavens gain is so my loss
I miss you and I want you back
My inner soul bleeds, dying with each breath.
longing to reach out beyond the dark place
within it cries to you,
wanting you,
needing you
lost beyond all measure
drowning in its own pool of life
the very essencence of being your own black hole
It only gets bigger and bigger
as you back away feeling like a puppet
tied up in battle, torn and ripped apart by your own wounds
tears dried and gone a heart hardened
no longer glass but stone-cold wet moss covered stone.
The soul drowns daily
only to awaken to the cold hard reality of lonliness.
Its like sinking in quick sand
and you wake gasping for air
only to realize the very air you breath has been sucked from your body
leaving you for dead and useless every time.