Kept at arms length
Saving myself from you
I won't let you in
I can't let you see
I can't open myself
The darkness will enter
It will find it's home in my heart
There won't be room for you
the fear and doubt crowds in
You could be anything
I give up my way
And lose myself...not today...
Too much to lose
Don't dare tell me you love me
Do you know what love is?
You held me down and screamed you wanted me to love or die
I make my own way
Without your hand,
lost and alone but safe...
Never knowing which is worse...
Alone and dead, or broken and alive...
I can't get through this day
I give up my will to the angel at my side
I lose myself in the mist,
the darkness inside me
She carries me through the night
She kisses away my tears,
the nightmares and fears
So pretty in my pain,
tear stained eyes,
shattered dreams
I pass between worlds
as she fights my demons
She sees the light in me,
that fear has blinded me of
She sees what others do not see
So run, run, run, run little angel
Save me, if it feels right...
if you know...
if it's me you need
I can hear their screams,
other lost souls Sickened in the sun
, my soul feels broken
She holds me down to earth and screams "LIVE,LOVE,LAUGH"
I awoke and was alone,
alone and alive
I looked to my side
and saw no one but me
My reflection in the wind,
the angel inside was me
A new day is given,
a new canvas
A new place to paint a life in vivid color.
At last I sigh...
Star crossed souls trapped behind promises
We make our way through the dark any way we can
we find peace burning away at the end of the day
Lost in a smoke filled room
we hear only the voices
Every fight, every aspiration gone wrong,
every tear
We miss the days gone by when life seemed clear
We find our forgotten selves hiding in the shadows
Shying away from the world for fear of them seeing
Seeing the fire that still burns inside us
The need to taste passion for the bittersweetness
So we reach out across the miles and find other pieces
Other lost souls in need of redemption
And we find a moment of peace within them
My serenity (12/2/04)
The darkness blooms beyond sight
Inside myself i hide
I've given over to the temptation
of the thoughts inside my head
I beg for forgiveness for my sins
Only silence answers
I beg to understand my place
Please give me the eyes to see
Chorus: God grant me the serenity
Grant me the right to believe
Give me the eyes to see beyond the dark
I accept what I cannot change
Yet I lack the courage to fight
Will you stand beside or forsake me
God grant me the serenity
I stand here before you
Naked and alone
I run from what I don't understand
only shadows of a former life
I've broken myself
unmending pieces fall around me
I beg to find my home
Please show me the way
Chorus:
God grant me the serenity
Grant me the right to believe
Give me the eyes to see beyond the dark
I accept what I cannot change
Yet I lack the courage to fight
Will you stand beside or forsake me
God grant me the serenity
Save me
The body is broken
The heart is fragile
I hide behind the smiles
You see only what you want
A reflection of yourself
Does that make you feel better?
I let you see what you can handle.
Masks protect me from the world
No one knows my name
They see the girl in the mirror
The pretty painted face
Green eyes that hide hatred
Hate that fuels the rage
I cut myself to know I bleed
Did you really think you knew me?
I lie in the dark and weep
Pain, it makes me bitter
I feel no hope,
no love
There is no warmth on my face
No sun to guide my way
I beg the world for salvation
I'll let you see me
Masks protect me from the world
No one knows my name
They see the girl in the mirror
The pretty painted face
Green eyes that hide hatred
Hate that fuels the rage
I cut myself to know I bleed
Did you really think you knew me?
Save me.... Please save me..... Take away my pain..... Save me....
A single teardrops falls,
staining the flesh with pain.
Inside, my mind recalls,
remembering the way again.
A single reminder of the past,
the darkness giving over to light.
Realizing this was not the last,
the cloud removed from my sight.
Inside that single teardrop lies,
like a lonely ship at sea,
The mystery hidden inside the eyes.
All the things that are yet to be.
It's with this single lowly tear,
I remove you from my life.
I have nothing left to fear,
I am free from pain and strife.
I do not look behind me now,
only ahead at what could be.
I found the strength inside somehow.
I looked in the mirror and saw; me
I was able to forget your taste
and save those memories for another year.
And leave the memory of your face,
locked inside a single tear.