Somedays there are ups and sometimes there are downs. When your heart belongs to someone else its hard to deal with the emotions that come and go. Sometimes you feel like your their one true love and they never want to live with out you....... then there are days when you realize your easy to replace and maybe your just another face in the crowd. Today is one of my down days, where I'm processing information and just dont feel special at all. I felt like I might be a little different then all the others. But maybe I'm not, maybe there is no reason for me to be separate from the others. I sit here crying and my heart aching over something that is stupid and small in comparing to everything else. But my heart has been hurt before, I've been told before that I stood above the rest and I ment more then the others. All lies in the end and I can not or will not put myself in a place where I am forgotten, not wanted or just not important enough to feel special. To more then the others, to be treated in certain way that makes me feel like I am true, I am your number one. Oh how simple words and names can make you feel as though your world is crumbling or maybe your just not special enough to be higher then the rest...........