well what a shock huh? I stay bored unless david is home ;)and as bad as i hate to admit it sometimes then too because he is either asleep or on here. But oh well atleast he is here and not out fooling around on me right? I love him so much it hurts sometimes. HMMMMMMM wonder if he knows that? I know thats kinda cheesy huh? Oh well. What can i say i like to have my heart out on my sleeve so people can stomp on it. We everyone other then him now anyways. I know i send corny little messages and shit to him but i always pictured a perfect relationship (which might i say is what we had at one point) i mean like holding hands and kisses for the fun of kissing public affection like he was proud to be seen with me and the little messages just to say "I LOVE YOU" and whats funny is i know he wont read this so i can talk as much as i want about things i miss. Things happened between us and since then everything changed. I dont know what happened to the david i met and fell in love with but he isnt the same david that i love now. Im happy with the one i have now but i want the other david sometimes too. well i guess i better stop this now cause i dont want to get upset by remembering how things were and seeing how things are now. BUT if by chance he does read this........I LOVE YOU and ALWAYS WILL!!!!!!
