Letting herself in,Jesse felt all the memories rush into her spirit, as she walked through the lonely house.She tripped over one of Sarah's dolls lying in the middle of the floor, she picked the doll up and threw it across the room. Immediately regretting what she had done, she picked it back up , falling to the floor, she wept. The frustration conquering her soul, as ,Jesse,sat there crying like a baby, holding the doll, and wishing she could back up time. "Why did this have to happen to me? What have I ever done to deserve this? Lord please let me have my children , I promise, I would do anything , if
you just let me "She prayed and
bargained with God, but he seemed not to hear her, she sat there and sobbed, she felt she was loosing control, she wanted to die, fortunately , she even then thought of her babies, She knew they needed her and with that it gave her an ounce of strength, to keep holding on. She heard Todd's truck pull up., she had to compose herself, so she walked into the bathroom and splashed her face with some cold water. The doorbell rung, so she took one last look in the mirror, before she opened the door. She greeted Mary and Todd with a smile and tried to hide the fact, she had been crying, although her eye's were too puffy, and red not to notice. Mary asked her if she was all right." I will be. " With that, Mary took the hint, and dropped it , noting that a later time she would loan her favorite cousin a shoulder to cry on, but realizing, now wasn't the time or the place she just let it be. "Thank-you, for doing this ya'll" Jesse gratefully added.
"Oh it's ok, all ya did was interrupt a day of pure sex" Todd joked. Mary slugged him in a playful way. "He was kidding" she defended
