I am a mastermind of conflict. Everything I feel is a theory in conflict, a study of chaos, and a waterfall of indecision. Most of my friends would probably say that is my biggest weakness, my worst trait, my character flaw. That I can never make up my mind and "I'm not happy unless I'm bitching about something". Which is probably true. One of my problems is that the more life gets stable, the more instable I have to make it. I am truly not happy being balanced, comfortable in all my personal and professional, and parental lives. As soon as I get one thing straightened out, I go messing something else up. L.S. I love you girl, to death, but I refuse to lie for you or to you. C.O. You are my best friend and always will be even if we never talk again, may I wish you all the best. I hate that I cant talk to you other than where we do talk, but we all know how I don't like confrontation. Maybe that's why I am rebelling against all the help I am trying to get. It is easier to not make up my mind about what I want than it is to deal with it. I'm working on it though and I want you to know that. Love to my friends and fam who stuck me through this and know what I am talking about. I promise to make up my mind soon.
