The weeks go by with drowning existence.
And I’m still thirsting for something I couldn’t be the one to taste.
Walking down a street just to forget that my legs are moving.
Just to hear the leaves still crinkle as I walk.
A noise to make sure I can still feel something between my bones.
I crashed into the sun and broke up the solar system.
And I can’t see mornings anymore without you.
I hate the stars sometimes and wish for clouded nights.
Just because I can’t erase them from your eyes.
Just because symmetry isn’t the same when you’ve erased all the lines.
I still forget to breathe and maybe I don’t want to.
I rather listen to distance heartbreak just to remember that shatter.
Faulting only me while tripping over the bridge.
Feeling the adrenaline shock every nerve.
Feeling what it felt like. What it feels like…
To actually want to live.
I noticed you on the highway crossing every destination.
But never stopping for a purpose.
Leaving every stitch of thread behind.
I think you knew I broke the stars that night.
As you reached up to grab a fallen constellation.
I’m always going to be ok.
But just for once I’d like to crash.
To feel how hard I can break myself down.
Jump off something and feel those last seconds.
Counting down every minute of my life.
Just to hope.
That maybe you’d save me.
