Entry for January 13, 2007
I DIED AGAIN WHEN I CAME HOME TODAY.
MY HEART, MIND, SOUL AND BODY I GAVE UNTO THEE, WILLINGLY.
I BELIEVED YOUR WORDS, " I LOVE YOU, THERE IS ONLY YOU, I WISH TO GROW OLD TOGETHER WITH YOU."
SOMETIMES I WISH I HAD NEVER BEEN BORN, BUT THEN AGAIN, I AM THANKFUL FOR MY PAIN AND SUFFERING, MY JOY, MY TINY MOMENTS OF HAPPINESS.
FORE THIS IS ALL I HAVE , I FORSAKE ALL OTHERS FOR YOU. THERE IS NO SEX, NO PASSION, NO LIFE, FOR ME, WITHOUT LOVE.
I GROW WEARY, OF BEING TOLD, " YOU ARE THE MOST WONDERFUL MAN I HAVE EVER KNOWN, KIND, CONSIDERATE, LOVING AND ROMANTIC."
IF THESE WORDS ARE TRUE, WHY IN GODS NAME, MUST ANOTHER PIECE OF MY SOUL AND HEART, BE RIPPED FROM MY BEING?
ANSWER ME THIS!!!! DAMN IT !!!!!!!
SHALL I NEVER BE TRULY LOVED? SHALL I LIVE WITH NOTHING MORE THAN HEART ACHE, SHALL I BE FOREVER TEASED AND TAUNTED, WITH VISIONS OF LOVE AND PASSION.
MY HEART DESCENDS INTO THE DEPTHS OF HELL, THIS DAY THE 13 TH OF JANUARY.
SHE IS GONE, MY STORMY HAS BEEN WHISKED AWAY, THIS COLD AND ICY DARK WINTERS DAY.
I GAVE OF MY ESSENCE,MY SOUL.
A FOOL I AM, NOTHING MORE, ANOTHER LOST SOUL WANDERING THE CORRIDORS OF THIS LIFE TIME.
I SHED TEARS WHEN I READ YOUR NOTE TODAY, MY HEART SCREAMS IN AGONY.
I DON'T KNOW IF I SHALL EVER KNOW TRUE LOVE, BEFORE THE END OF DAYS.
I PRAY, TO YOU WHO TAKE PART OF MY HEART AND SOUL, FORGET ME NOT.
AS I HAVE GIVEN MY LOVE, TO YOU FREELY OF MY OWN DOING.
FORGET ME NOT IN YOUR DAYS TO COME, AND KNOW YOU WHERE ONCE TRULY LOVED, BY ME.
I AM CURSED, I AM PUNISHED FOR ALL THE SINS OF MY YOUTH.
AN ANGEL, WITH HORNS AND A POINTED TAIL. LOL.
PEACE , LOVE AND STRENGTH TO YOU, MY LOVE. YOU SHALL GROW STRONGER ,WITH THE PIECES OF LIFE YOU HAVE TAKEN FROM ME.
AS USUAL, I APPEAR TO BE JUST ANOTHER PIECE OF MEAT, HEART AND SOUL.
CURSED IS THE FOOL, WHO GIVES HIS HEART AND SOUL TO ANOTHER.
I SHALL STOP, THIS SEARCH FOR" THE ONE" SHE'S JUST A DREAM IN THE DREAM TIME. SHE APPEARS IN THE FLESH FOR A BRIEF MOMENT, FOREVER CHANGING FORM, THEN DISAPPEARING.
SCOOTER( THE CURSED) BLACK LOL.
