Cherubic Light From Heaven's blog: "dangerous emotions"

The very "thing" I loved tried to hurt me tried to crush me tried to erase my soul feed off my drainning self -esteem and laughed as I cried tears of pain and suffering distored and perverted the word called love Ignored my dreams tht warned me of my forseen fate my soul taken away and I becomming the Girl I never thought i could be Finding the courage to Say "this is enough" not willing to let myself grow cold and empty I found light that was within me and drove away the darkness i am free.

I am my problem. I am my solution.

The love I have for you will never fade It consumes me like a roaring flame The pain I feel inside Will never subside But the tears can no longer fall As I watch life goes by, but all life has left my soul All joy has left my heart I am now empty If its love that you seek, if it is happiness that you long for, I wish you well That is the true intentions of my heart, no longer consumed with rage Life goes on Or so it seems But the day you decided to no longer stay All life has stood still No words can describe the pain, the hurt I feel No words can describe the anguish and shame. Till the day I die I will not stop loving you. My mind never stop thinking about you Never forget what we have been through. I will never forget the I love you’s .. The dreams we had of being together I will never forget that Never stop loving you And this love allows me to say goodbye Because not being with you… Is perpetual suiside.

IF I WERE TO TELL YOU EVERYTHING YOU WANT TO HEAR WOULD IT MAKE EVERYTHING ALRIGHT? WOULD IT EASE THE PAIN THE FEARS FADE AWAY WOULD IT HEAL THE WOUNDS WOULD IT DRY THE TEARS WOULD IT FREE YOUR MIND, HEART AND SOUL WOULD YOU SAY GOOD BYE NEVER LOOK BACK AND LEAVE ME ALL ALONE?

Still struggling with internal issues internal conflicts not sure if they're just a PHASE.... silent screams... hidden pains source unknown losing control insanity slowly creeping in short days long sleepless nights Constant turmoil everlasting confusion ripping and tearing of the soul heart shattering into tiny microscopic pieces no longer breathing yet still living memories that haunt the soul anger that make me lose control hate, a familar emotion given such devotion taking over my mind, thoughts and maybe soon actions wishing to be free but never able to escape the feeling......

Can't let you see me cry the tears fall as I think of you can't let you know i'm thinking of you You are on my mind My emotions dance within me in rythmic confusion They laugh as they bounce off my inner walls causing me to feel faint i am tired my mind laughs at me it said I told you so. But i didnt listen it was subtle very quiet very still the feelings that grew i was confused scared that my fears had come true only to find that it was now as hard as i try to escape i end up getting more tangled in my emotions they scream with laughter as they tug me in multiple directions causing me to loose control i wonder if Im going insane if I am being parinod if im just overreating if im just giving a blame This cant be real I ask myself i want to believe this is all a lie please do not let me look like a fool and then over and over again i hear the laughter but if i listen closly put my ear to my soul i hear a faint sound peaceful and calm in the mist of confusion it brings me back to reality allows me to see clear it quietly says you are not alone you were never alone all your fears were exaggerated they where all in your mind follow what's in your heart and do not waiver for it is not what you know but what your heart knows it knows what is best for you and it is like a second mind one that reasons with feelings and the truth shall be clear you may not see it now but it will come very soon.