outta the past few yrs ive never thought i would be back like this ive gone back to my old ways of not really caring shuttin people out that i really shouldnt and its all beacause of drama bullshit that people cant leave alone and rumors and lies that go right along with it i never thought my heart would grow cold again but it has and i may have lost some friends in the mix of all of this but no one really understands what im going through but a few people u know who ya are and i love ya very much for being there when i needed someone to vent and u let me do just that and the people who i though would always be there for me through thick and thin turned there backs on me when i needed them the most and then always had an excuse of y they were never there and afterawhile u grow numb and not really care anymore and dont really care what they say or think and avoid them like they always have done me and when they get the treatment that they gave me they dont like it well i guess they didnt like the taste of there own medicine and yet the darkness falls my heart is growing cold just because of some bullshit someone has told i never once in a million yrs think that i would see this side of me again maybe one day ill be back to my oldself maybe i wont unless someone can pull me outta this dark hole i call home and show me that there is a brighter way of lookin at things and show me the person i used to be and not what i become and if u think u can do it then do it before its to late and i become a lost soul
