nightmare before christmas's blog: "demons"

My back is blood, flesh, and bone. I bleed on the floor of my "home". Anotherhit for every drop. I wonder if you'll ever stop. I fall flat on my stomach, you kick me once, twice. I drift away in a sea of ice. But no, you see me drifting away. Into unconciousness where I would stay. And no, no that is no "fun" for you. So you call me back for more things to do! You tie me down and gag me tight. The horror you bring every night. You hurt me again and I want to curse.But if I do you'll make it worse. You beat me bloody, hurt me bad. If I fight back, you'll only get mad. then it hurts more. As you throw me to the floor.You're on top of my again before I can run. You want to have lots more "fun." I scream you "disgrace". I spit in your face. You break my jaw. You beat me raw.You reach up and grab a gun. I guess this means no more "fun."

Beyond the light shadows arise From somewhere in the darkness All the pain and misery Walls blank with starkness Beyond the call of sanity Where there is nothing I can find No one knows the meaning Of what is locked up in my mind Beyond the reach of sanity Lies a realm of hate and greed Someplace evil lurks When it has to feed Beyond the hope of imagination A place I can't quite seeWhen these feelings come I must hide from me Beyond the midnight moon In it's blackened sea I drown In the hopes to escape This meaningless life I've found

I am.... Beneath the dust and cobwebs, heavily armored... I am... Crowded in, amongst my past transgressors, and my malevolent thoughts... I am... Filled with haunting echosloud, frightening,debilitating... I am... Straining to find some ease, within the constricting confinements left by others... (fed by me?)I am... Whispering (screaming), surviving in self-imposed solitude...yet.... praying to be rescued...I am...Here... I am here. and then again im always twisted in the head....

Im locked in a prison of my own despair I don't belong here. I'm not wanted out there im the rip in the family pictures side torn out of the masterpiece and cast aside. I cry in my room alone in the night I need your touch, your smile, your light, but instead I find you sitting there only cold shoulders and enraged stares. I wasnt to break free from all of this pain but Im trapped untill the demon of you hate is slain.Darkness is my fulfillment your light is insufficent. I desepratly need to be saved from the road of evil I slowly paved. I really need to be back in your arms shielded from my fears, and harms with things back the way that they were before I need someone to love me.

darkness everywhere you look emptiness surrounding you hope, why have you left me? nobody, is here my friends there gone its a lonely night

I sometimes dream fo sleeping thought the demons wreck the dream they fill me wtih reality.Its all just what it seems their shadows thunder over me,I feel them lure me in but so many broken pieces lie. Where else would they begin? The demons ate my dreams lastnight, they didnt ask me first it dosent matter anyway my dreams are all rehearsed. Even still they are my dreams and now their demon dinners and demons gnawed my trust anyway and chewed my hopes much thinner the demons love to hate the yearn to see me dead no wonder why im so currupt there are demons in my head.