mnnk.. where do i start to talk about this isn't nothing easily propounded with something simple.
my life is confusd th rollercoaster lt the grims depth carry m to the underworld again i am feling as if the whole world is ignoring me again i just don''t know the factors imma just write until my hands bleed as if my arms already arent
i just wish precariously i had some definiton a clarity of the notion nothing can add up anymore
you do not even recall to compar what i am feeling right now i society wants to burn me away into the sub cultures of the earth let it be i can return it also
i try to be countr productive each tim i'll try to present with joy it's just a monster living in me the demon in my core tells m thy are lying they don't want me to succeed should i follow him and th door opens but th hall of that naughty gauntlet tests me i really do not think none of y'all are here for me real talk. i am scripting my life i could care less you cannot guide me to positive sunlight i am drowining myself to the end
do you know how provisional i sense this crying tears i die it's addicting lif isnt forever but my friend is depression
my stunt doubl allocating more space thn i need/
i am my refuge no on can save me caus nothing is real i am following with a pattern of words so ti prevent myself from slicing my wrists again life is so fucking hard whoevr dosnt read this is a bitch and i hate you eternally and well ive already reopened old wounds wont people get off my case i need someone to talk to here in my arms to cry on their shouldrs hell erryon i evr known in my childhood has changed why do they evolve to forid who i am i would like to preserve my existence just cure this disase who will take me away from this world im so pure and nice with kindness but it's my mistak i will soon perish broken scars this array regroups my soul with irrelvance a catalyst im not of here i belong somewhere else i just want to expire erryone let m go thgis is my path ws i just born to suffer what the fuck is wrong im manipulated in chaos.
learing to that chamber where th undead want to comfort my blood in ruins
fuck a heaven slam me shut while th curtains fall and i am imprisoned barricaded to the transformation i am not wanted no more who even comprehends what it like you want to tell someon but you just aquire for them to predict you're alon and carress your agony but it's nothing i intrude where i stand only to locate my reflection deformed not even blonging i am alienated in a canal of confusion will you just releas me like i nevr eexisted isolation abandonment stranded forgotten as always i am usd to it i am not angry i am just null n void no one can fill this emptyness i cannot feel affection coutteousness gratification no mor fucking fak smile i am crying but screaming on th inside i could peeel all thse voices from my cranium i am synchronizing to leak out all this information fuck it like y'all evn care to young to understand what i go through my life is already over but before i go let y'all know i bleed and drink my letting so that i may never experience the brilliant alignment i am in misery no angels just th evil in me not abstract emotionally raping me what's on my priorities are me just pour all these expressions into a coffee grinder and throw it all away don't even try to seam or sew or stitch me back together i am unrepairable you cannot be my saviour unless you wer me so i conclude this let my tears rain on your parade mnnk..
tomorrow i will live now what if i didn't would it be the same no i would even b in trwachery and hierarchous behaviour where ever it is the spirit relocates on its vacation none of you will ever grasp my reality all for nothing i am using all my tim gaining nothing i will shd my remains until theres a forefront searching to banaid this aura that's controlling me remember this suffix is emotional serious not immensely fabricated it's been a long time i hav finally written somthing and i will never be the same thanx readers for looking at this assortment of mixed feelings that will never be the same mnnk..
i am leaving before i cry the most ive ever cryed that i can remember.
don't pity my these are just my memories i wish i would awake this nightmare i am insignificant no on will listen i am sifting in ashes losing my character each day passing with no promising goals..
by bye associates i would like to call you friends but i do not know i query for someone to hold m company in my arms for comfort but that will never happen will it now i enclose this body with that bye
novv i'll go crying in tears..............
