i can't sleep so im sitting here thinking and then i got all sad and depressed i just wish my hole life was diffrent i wish i actually had real friends sometimes i feel like i alone i wish i was good looking and stuff. i try to be nice to everyone and help people is much as i can. i know i dont make any since but oh well. i wish my sisters wouldnt rub shit in my face cuz they have more money and stuff then me they dont know how bad they make me feel at times. i just feel like im neevr gunna be anything but a loser. grr i dk any more i sound dumb i should nt have even been writting this crap. well im gunna end this cuz idk what to write i have a hard time expressing my feelings. im the shy quite type person i try not to tell people how i feel cuz i awasy get hert in the end okay im donw with my dumb writting