Yes, I have had many good dreams in my lifetime that leave me wanting to jump out of bed and racing for the bathroom to get dressed and ready to go, go, go and forge ahead to the glorious upcoming day.
It is the bad dreams that stick in my mind for-ever. Why, exactly, is that??
When each of my relatives died, I dreamt about their death and knew even before I got a phone call or knock on the door -- my grandparents, my great grandmother, my uncle, and my cousin.
Two weeks before my last husband died, I had a dream that, as we were sitting in Church and holding hands as we always did, he was drifting apart from me in the pews. Next, as I went looking for him, I went to the Cynthia Woods Pavillion Center and looked for him. Saw him for a bit, then he drifted further away from me. Then, we were in a performance theatre, and he was drifting further away from me. Next, we were in a huge stadium. I saw him way up in the bleachers, but as I walked towards him, he was drifting further away from me. Each place I looked he kept drifting higher and further away from me.
I woke up in a cold sweat and was shaken up for days. What the heck did this dream mean? Was he having an affair? What????
Finally, I mentioned it to him while laying my head on his chest as I always did when we were settling down to talk and fall asleep. I asked him what he thought it meant and he, half jokingly told me that it was funny in a way because he had a dream about boobies drifting away. I don't know if he really dreamt that or if he just was trying to make me feel better and laugh.
Two weeks after the dream, I found him dead in our apartment. Nothing could have really prepared me for that moment in finding my husband dead from a heart attack. However, in retrospect afterwards, I reminded myself of the dream and thought that, just perhaps, God was trying to prepare me a little bit.
What if I hadn't had that dream? Would my coping skills have been worse? There is no way telling.
Since then, I haven't been able to dream too much. Perhaps, that is why I haven't allowed me to get the truly sound sleep I need to feel rested. Without the sound sleep, it is perhaps true too that that could be why I haven't been able to dream too well.
I keep a lamp on; sometimes the tv set is on as well.
Perhaps, it is a fear of what else my dreams might be telling me. I don't know, but I would sure like for the dreammaker to send some good dreams my way!! :D
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McGill Community Forums. Thanks, Bryant McGill, for the topic suggestion about dreams. :D
