as I close my eyes and let my mind wander,
i realize,
it may be lost forever...
if it goes any further.
restlessly I search every corner of the world.
recklessly.
searching for an emotion,
something called "home".
Around every single sharp corner
desolation
i find my own foot prints
on the ground in front of me.
On this path not all is quiet,
deafening whispers
a million neon judgements
as I keep company with torment.
with a loss of hope and heavy heart
i fold.
like quicksand the more i move
the more I lose.
it feels like swimming up a river,
unable to breath.
and as I sink and the light fades
i find comfort...
Im greeted silently with the absence of struggle
and I know,
in the dark,
ive found my home.