My life had no meaning,
my path had no direction,
my mind never had clarity,
thoughts never made sense,
ideas never formed,
all hope was lost.
I was left in the dark hole
of my bottomless mind to feel nothing,
falling but never closer to the bottom,
numb to the outside world,
and I trudged through the lifeless gloom,
blind to everything that came at me.
On a perilous journey with no end,
alone, depressed,
I drowned in sorrow,
begging for the answers
to the endless questions called life.
But my mind, my thoughts, my quandaries
melted away when I saw your eyes for the first time,
and suddenly there was a bottom to where I was falling,
something I’d heard people define as ‘love.’
I felt your impact immediately,
a dizziness sweeping over me like mist,
a shortness of breath, heart beating faster and faster.
I didn’t know what your name was
who you were,
or where you came from,
but I felt like none of that mattered
as long as I could be near you for a little while.
Five seconds and I was yours,
ten more and I knew the feelings would last,
thirty seconds later I was burning inside from the passion,
and in a minute I was forever in love.
I wanted to hold you, listen to your heart beat with mine,
feel the fire raging through our hands should they meet,
and see it burning in your eyes when I stared into them.
There is no way to escape you,
not with such a deeply-rooted devotion in my heart,
not when you make me crumble with only a smile,
not when I can see a lifetime of happiness behind your beautiful eyes.
You’ve got me wrapped around your fingertips
and all I can do is hope that you’ll untangle
this mess of a man one day,
take these shattered fragments of my life
and piece them back together, make me whole again.
I want to be with you for the rest of this life
and the next ten lives after that.
You mean everything to me,
plus everything you’ve ever meant to anyone else.
I couldn’t survive without you in my life,
because you brought me out of the hell that I was in,
and without you I’d be doomed to return there.
I need you to love me, to alleviate the weakness
in me when you aren’t near, to cradle this
fragile heart in your hands and never let go,
to share some of that ethereal presence
that emanates from you wherever you go,
because you are truly a gift from the sky.
And I swear on my undying love for you
that it’s the truth,
that I saw wings and a halo
the first time I saw you.
Then all the sudden I awoke
It was only a dream.
