I so do not deserve him. He's been so patient and caring and i do nothing in return for him. he deserves the perfect woman for him, and I'm just not her. I might have been at one time a long time ago, but i can never be that woman again. Its easy to sit there and think "stop whining and get off your ass and take care of him then". Its just not that simple. I want to be a normally functioning and thinking person, but I'm not.
I keep whining and complaining "oh poor me". Well FUCK THAT!!!!! POOR TIM!!! How dare i complain! Let me tell you about this man.
He works hard, despite the fact that his doctor wants him to stop because he hurt his back bad and its getting worse. And he had a heart attack last year too. He needs to take it easy, instead, he adds taking care of me to his list of obligations. He wakes up at 5am, works 12 hours or more, comes home, feeds the cats,tends to me (i have been bed confined)does the shopping or errand running. Then cooks. By the time he's done eating he has to get ready for bed only to do it all over again the next day. He has no time to enjoy the few simple things he likes to do. And still, NEVER complains.
He doesn't ask much from life, and deserves the simple things he wants and needs. Stability, security, happiness. He is so sweet and kind and generous. Not to mention hes attractive and AMAZING in bed!!!! He is the kind of man that will never pressure you into anything. He deserves someone who would love him, take care of him, and let him pamper and spoil them cause thats just how he is.
Of course, he is free to see other women and date who he pleases, but he has no confidence and he's afraid of hurting me. Nothing would make me happier then to see him happy with someone. The guilt of being his burden is becoming too much to handle. So instead of crying for attn for myself, my wish is getting him some well deserved love and attention. And most of all happiness and fulfillment.
Gypsy18519*** Lone Wolf Wandering and P.T .Dj for Lilith's Lair***
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