I have live on this earth for over 33 years now and I have grown from a baby to a man. I have developed my personality through a wild range of experiences in my life, some good, but like most of you mostly some harsh things in life gave me an edge, a hardness.
I have seen life being born. A child being brought into this world, a beautiful sight. I have seen evil first hand when I was almost raped at age 13 by a hispanic in the basement of BurgerKing. I have seen death first hand by either watching it from a far or holding Natasha's hand in a New Jersey Morge. I have seen growth, by watching my God Daughter Jessica grow into a beautiful teenager ,and I love so deeply with out asking much in return.
I have seen sorrow and pain. I have felt fear and suffering. I have been happy and content with things. I have laughed and I have cried.... And yes I have regreted.
I have been told I am a father figure, a big brother, and a best friend. I have been told that I am fearless and show an unyeilding strengh when faced with certain problems. I have been told I am a hard boiled egg, hard and tough on the outside, yet tender and soft on the in. I have been told I'm a teddy bear.
To be honest with all of you... I don't see it... Yeah I have gone through some shit in my life but really there isn't anything to specail about me.. Like all of you I am human and my personality and way of thought was developed by what I learned and experienced. Like you all I have fears and can be happy and love and hate. I'm not fearless.... I am lazy, I have money problems.. and mostly I'm not to responcible when it come to takeing care of my self.... Yeah I need help... but who doesn't...
All I know is that I enjoy the smiles I try to give people, and I enjoy helping. Thats all.... I'm just me...
That it folks... just blurting some shit out... don't know why just did it....
Fuck it
