He said "Just think it over, and write me a list"
"So we can figure out what we both deserve"
She hardly could beieve it, that their love had come to this
Dividing an deciding his and hers
But she grabbed a paper napkin an asked the waitress for a pen
An one by one she wrote down what she wanted most from him
Honesty, sincerity, tenderness and trust
A little less time for the rest of the world
And more for the two of us
Kisses each mornin', I love you's at night
Just like it used to be
The way life was when you were in love with me
She reached across the table an placed it in his hand
And said "You know this ain't easy for me"
As he thought about the new car the house an the land
And wondered what that bottom line would be
And a thousand other things that she'd want him to leave behind
But he never dreamed he'd open up that napkin and find
Honesty, sincerity, tenderness and trust
A little less time for the rest of the world
And more for the two of us
Kisses each mornin', I love you's at night
Just like it used to be
The way life was when you were in love with me
Well he fought back the tears as he looked in her eyes
And said "Everything on that list in your hand"
Is hidden somewhere in your heart
Honesty, sincerity just like it used to be
The way life was when you were in love with me.
I love that song...
Honesty, sincerity, tenderness and trust
A little less time for the rest of the world
And more for the two of us
Kisses each mornin', I love you's at night
Everytime i hear that part, I'm like... thats what I want right there.
I want a man who can be honest to be... about everything...
I want romance, affection, love... I want to be held, and kissed. I want to know I'm the center of his universe. I want to know that I would come before anything and everything... (ok, yes I'm selfish... I wouldn't EXPECT it... but I like to know that if i was in dire need of attention he would drop anything for me....)
I want to know that he would take time from anything to reassure me that he loves me... that he cares... and hold me... and tell me i have nothing to worry about, that he'll always be there for me...
I don't NEED these things, I don't HAVE to have these things... I just, want them... Not everyday... not like, i'm a self centered attention hogging bitch... cuz, damnit, i need some "ME" time too...
I guess my biggest issue is trust. I lack the ability to trust. Anyone. Out of every person I know, right now... I completely trust.. maybe a handful of people... and i know a lot of people... i'm talking complete trust... of my heart, and physical well-being... and what MEN i trust is limited... to... well, Bondoc... thats it... he's the only man I know who would never hurt me, physically or mentally... or anything... he's my best friend... he had better not... although, i couldn't kick his ass...
I know with time, as this relationship grows... I'll learn to completely trust andrew. And right now... it's not really his fault that i dont... it's my insecurity.... and little things he does cuz i expect him to read my mind... but thats not the point. Cuz men can't read our minds... or else, they'd be perfect. I just have been through so much bullshit in my life (yeah i know whine cry we all have shit...) but it's caused me to not be able to trust anyone or hold relationships. I know this though. Thats why i watch what i say and do to avoid freaking out over nothing... but sometimes it feels like something major to me, and it winds up not being... i've destroyed a lot of relationships like that...
Fuck, I dunno... I'm just having another one of my rants... thats life...
