babymissbehavin's blog: "horrible...horrible day...."

Im starting to think there is something seriously wrong with me. Since I left Christian Ive had three bf. All lasting about 2 weeks each. I know the first one wasnt my fault. He was addicted to herion and liked it better than me. And the second one i messed up because im horrible with times and such and he gave me three strikes..the third on I messed up because I wanted the kid to come to my house sober...I really dont know whats wrong with me tho. I dont think Im up for this relationship thing...Friday night I went out to a party with this kid...well he came and got me at like 130am and drove over an hour back to the party. (just to see me) and we hung out at the party and it was really cute. you know..all that teenage romance stuff. (holding hands, the forehead kiss and the holding because its wayy to cold to play beer pong at 5am) I really thought everything was going great. I mean we had a blast. The night ended we went to Calli's to crash. Which was fine. then after we woke up we went to the mainst house (where all the gang hangs out n the summer) we decided to sleep there too. (and dezzy is proud of me because i didnt sleep with this kid and i really liked him) we talked about everything that we'd been talking about (abunch of mushy stuff you'd probably rather not hear) then he took me home. about an hour after he got he told me he didnt like me anymore. :[ so i was basically crushed all over again. yay me right? so i dont know what im doing wrong anymore. I try to be me and be really sweet and you know..i jumped n a pool at 430am for that kid so we all could swim...but idk. aparently im not good enoughh for anyone anymore. no one wants to date me..i mean they all think im cute and shit..but idk..i just cant figure out what im doing wrong :[

So..its def been awhile since Ive written a blog..so tonight seems like a good time to vent. if you're gonna bitch about me venting them please just stop reading now. Its my blog and I have the right to fill it with my bitchiness. so first off my grandmas been n the hospital for the past week. :[ Yeah. It's honestly killing me. She's taken care of me about 17/20 years. I cant imagine life without her. Her doctor said she has been getting a lot better and they no longer think she will pass. Which is amazing news for me. But right after her doctor tells this to my family my sisternlaw gets n the car with me and my kid sister (shes 16) and looks right at her and tells her that my Grandma isnt going to make it. Idk about you But I was pretty pissed. No one tells my baby sister sh*t like that at times like this. SO there is strike one against my whore sisternlaw. so lets begin strike two. Anyone who knows my family knows that the three little ones get away with murder. I mean I even give them their way. So they tend not to pick up after themselves and such. Which is no biggie we've got three adults here doing it for them. Well that bitch that my brother married told my Uncle that shes calling CYS because the kids leave food on the floor...so now Im really pissed at her because NO ONE messes with my brothers and sisters. Let alone the rest of my family. Kourtni and I have worked really hard keeping those three little ones safe and happy and in a home. So if she wants war, she'll get it. strike three for her: My brother is disabled. I mean the army said hes 120% disabled. He got a big settlement n shit like that..which is fine. My brother deserves it..Well the army was having a hard time with him claim and before his money came his wife asked my grandma to lend her money so she could go home and divorce my brother..BUT HEYY guess what? Now that hes getting all his money the bitch just loves him oh so much. Yeah I cant stand that stupid fucking texan. yeah i know this is some pretty gay venting but i have to get things off my chest...

if you dont like me..dont look at my page..send me shouts..or comment my shit..just makes me have to deal with the fact that you're retarded. thanks.

yeah...i pretty much sucked today. spilled a whole till at work...all that effin change on the floor...had to pick it up..recount it...then i rented movies...left them in the office...pretty sure im gonna get hit with late fees. drunk guys hitting on me...wait..ugly drunk guys hitting on me.. working at a grocery store...sucks the big one