I sat Chad down today and told him we need to divorce. This marriage is going no where. I have already went to the lawyer, had paperwork drawn up, all that needs to be done is signatures and then it's filed. I think he held on to a glimmer of hope I'd change my mind. That is not happening. I refuse to stay in a loveless marriage. It would be impossible to stay with the man who has shattered my self esteem. I want a chance to move on with my life, to see if I can find true love with someone who appreciates me instead of settling for me. I am just happy he finally sees that this is what is best for both of us and the kids. I'm tired of feeling like shit, and fighting with him all the time. I want my house back and my life. I hope it goes quickly and isnt messy. Keep me and the kids in your prayers. ((hugs))