Annelid's blog: "Ramblings,thoughts and assorted stuff"

Ever feel like your living a lie? I do, everyday. False smiles, empty words. I say what you what to hear. I do what I'm expected too. I'm a good robot. I comply. I obey. I....am nothing. I've grown tired. Tired of everything. Tired of feeling the way I do. Tired of being tired. Tired of life. Tired..... I can't think do anything right. I can't think coherently. I can't sleep. I can't ..... I dream...of love. I dream...of success. I dream...of the future. I dream...of you. I dream.... I see...only misery. I see...self loathing.. I see...tears. I see... I see that my existence is a utter waste. I have failed on so many levels. I have disappointed all those around me. I have disappointed myself. I had so many dreams and aspirations. I have such high hopes. I have none now.