I crash on the floor, defeated by the course my life's taken tonight.
I let the tears fall, tears filled with hopelessness and feel them on my cheeks,the burning sensation as strong as the one making me tremble inside.
I can't deal with this pain, this sudden blow I wasn't expecting. It knocked me off my feet before I could see what it was.
I look around the room and my eyes land on a blade.
All it would take is one swipe; one cut deep enough that would make my pain seep out in red droplets.
That's all it would take. But then I see your face, hear your voice telling me not to. The tears fall once again, releaving some of the pain.
I can't do it, I know you would stop me.
So I place the blade down,away from my wrist and shaking hand. I promised you I wouldn't.
I can't let this happen to me, can't give in. I can't quit the fight.
I can't give up.
