Ok so there is this person that I am totally crushing on. THe sad thing is that he lives on the other side of the states from me. The possibility of us ever becoming something is not looking so good. We have talked and so forth and I really like him. He has feelings as well which sucks. I hate to see him in such turmoil and know he is going through a lot. A part of me wants to be there to pick up the pieces but I know that it is not my job and also can't be done right now which sucks even worse. If I am nothing more than a mere fantasy, a hope of something that he really wants and needs in a relationship and we become amazing friends than I guess I have lost nothing. If I walk away and it is too hard to talk to him and vise versa than I have lost something very special. I don't want to pull away, that is not my style. HE is very special and holds a special place in my life. I guess all it can be is a fantasy and the images of him haunt me every day. I could be cleaning the house and all the sudden he just comes in my head like he is actually there! I don't know what this but I feel I have a strong bond with him. Guess we will see only time will tell but I don't want him to stop his life on a fantasy. I would rather him find someone who can give him everything.
