i dont get it. seriously.. i just dont..you all think that maybe ill say something to make me alright in your book? fuck that.. and fuck your book - fuck my book too.. do you get it?.. lets try again -- I WOULD FUCKING LIKE US TO BE REAL.. oh.. right.. we arent clear on what REAL is.. ok.. ill refresh.. real is unfucking unadulterated honest to abraham or god.. or whatever it is you feel that is important/sacred truth.. ok.. still not clear right? .. i mean. what u fucking feel.. in your heart of hearts.. geezus we only ended up with the expression 'heart of hearts' cuz no fucking one could figure out what their heart was.... u know.. 'human'. feelings. like.. alright lets get elementary.. like.. you feel something.. and it invokes some sort of an.... emotion we call it.. a FEELING? ever have that?... no.. grr. forget i ever threw it out there. im just trying to connect here.. and it aint working.. like.. you think something is.. say.. good.. and you go - wow.. that is good.. see - THAT.. is a feeling.. you feel it.. its there.. in your soul.. and you know its true.. not some fucking bullshit that the radio fed you.. or the t.v.. - i mean real.. honest to god (ok.. i know.. who is this god character.. and why do you keep talking about him...) whoever the fuckin christ you think is important - i dont care if its your mom/grandmother.. geezus.. at some point we've fucking got to agree that SOMETHING is important.. not just getting laid getting money and getting stoned - Guess the damn what! theres more. period.
theres more to life folks - im serious - and you dunno how much i wanna get laid =) but the point is: i still know - theres more!.. theres more! if there wasnt more then why bother - seriously - getting laid.. rocks.. but then you wake up and go.. what the fuck do i do today?.. getting money :rocks. but still.. you'll have a sense of 'i really should achieve something.. not just sit here on my ass.. i want to know i DID something'.. ok.. so maybe you dont - but i DO.. i want to mean SOMETHING to someone.. not just be some asshole that made a million - and now we should all emulate him - cause after fucking all.. he made amillion.. so.. i mean,,, he must be smart right? fuck that.. fuck that all to hell - where is meaning people? where is doing SOMETHING with your life.. if you can sit there calmly with money.. and go.. fuck - i got $.. so what the hell does it matter.. well go ahead - but guess what.. id like to actually do some damn thing im proud of.. you know.. other than fucking some girl up the butt - something real.. alright.. im done. go on about your merry way. =)=) ... oh.. and be sure to tell me im 'negative'.. because i actually want something that means something other than an account with a bunch of zeros - bye
