BARFLY AKA NOBODY's blog: "Enough is enogh "

As i sit here drining & thinking i wonder why i am steal alive when i have watched so many of my friends my brothers in arms die ??             Yes i have walked thru the valley of the shadow of death & i have looked in the face of evil & smiled & stood with my brothers & fought him  where ever he was & see my brothers of all colors put in body bags fighting the GWOT & many others evil things all around the world.

And so as i sit here still doing my part as best as i can i can't help but wonder why i am still here and they are not????                                    Wondering when it will be my time to go if and when? If at all? Or if i will just grow old and live to be just another old man??                    To be alone because every one i have ever love ever known has been killed or is dead ??

So i sit and i drink and i wonder why? I wonder when ? I wonder why the two women i love were kill before we even had time to start life together before we could be happy before any thing?? 

I just sit here and drink and wonder why i am still alive after all im just dead inside ??