So we talked today and apologies were given on both sides and we got things straight. I don't like having problems in my relationship and I refuse to fight or argue over dumb shit.
I know Dallas and I have been together now for a year and a half but I still sometimes get thrown back into my past and its hard for me to say what I'm feeling or thinking because thats just the way I am. I'm used to guys who turn everything around and manipulate me so that I'm the one who's wrong and shouldn't feel the way that I do. Every guy that I've been with before has been like that. Forcing me to like what they want while my feelings, wants, and needs are ignored. Dallas ha never been like that and he respects me. Its still new to me sometimes.
He had no idea that what he said the other night even bothered me because I just walked away and I let it fester in my head and I can't help it sometimes. I told him that it really hurt my feelings and he felt really bad. And of course I felt bad for flipping out yesterday because I had let it get it to me and didn't say anything. Of course I also explained that there were some other things that set me off too and I know I really hurt his feelings. Instead of him fighting or anything like that he just doesn't say anything because he doesn't want to fight with me.
I spent my last relationship for 2 years like that andfor the first time I spent one day similar to that and it was fucking hell. I can't stand that shit with Dallas. With my ex it would have been a blessing if he would have just left me alone when we had a problem but he had to be a huge drama queen.
Its nice to be with someone who loves me for me and respects me. We like to give each other hell but PMS can fuck with your head.
