I Just Don't Know Why
I stand here alone surrounded in darkness, confused and disoriented unsure of which way to turn.
I don't know why.
Left deserted, hollow, and broken unsure of why my eyes have filled with tears.
I don't know why.
I do know it means something.
I just don't know what.
I see a little book here at my feet. It is familiar but foreign just the same.
I just don't know why.
These words I have heard before. I read the pages and I see me.
I just don't know why.
As I read, a movie appears before my eyes, I have the leading role.
I just don't know why.
I cannot help but to be mesmerized unable to turn away.
I just don't know why.
These are my words. I can hear myself saying them and it's I that I see struggling for air.
I just don't know why.
One simply little breath I see myself pray for there in the grip of the beast I lay.
I just don't know why.
That's him the beast. He's what has consumed my sleepless nights and tormented my days.
I just don't know why.
He is real, he does exist, and there I am. That toy. The one he's kicking with his feet.
I just don't know why.
Why are my eyes flowing with tears?
Why is there blood seeping from my body to the floor?
Why am I speaking those words to the beast?
Why?
I don't understand.
I just don't know why.
Why didn't I run?
Why did I stay?
Why by his side do I lay?
I don't know why.
The movie is finished now and the darkness has returned again.
I just don't know why.
I don't like this darkness. It's scaring me. I'm really becoming frightened.
I just don't know why..
Colder and colder the air is turning. It's getting so cold.
I don't know why.
I don't feel very well. I think the coldness is hurting me.
I just don't know why.
I don't like the coldness here.
I just don't know why.
Did I stay?
I must have stayed there with the beast, right at his side until the end!
This I do know,
I just don't know why.
It's all dark again and it's cold. Yes, I must of stayed.
I just don't know why.
It is all clear to me now. I must have died on that day.
I just don't know why.
BY MIZZ SHADY
AKA MIZZ PUNK