i can recall the crispness in your voice
every time you spoke my name.
i can hear my heart as it pounded
when the phone would ring and it would be you.
i can remember the sound my tears made as they hit the paper
when i would write you a letter about what i thought.
i tried to forget you so many damn times
when my heart would beat me up inside and remind me that you are unforgettable.
i pretended so many times not to care
when my mind called me a fool for trying.
i dreamed of you more times than i can count
when i would find my body limp from just trying to stay awake.
i have imagined what my life would be if you had never walked in it
when i have known that that thought is too far from reality.
and finally an end result to it all..
i have come to accept and appreciate that you are always going to me close to my heart
because...
I LOVED!