I'm tired of you
How do you respond to that?
Family is supposed to have your back
But no matter how far I back track I can't justify her saying those words to me.
From my brother...maybe
cuz since he was a baby he's been in my shadow
following in my foosteps and when he didn't,
it was deemed failure?
just cuz he didn't follow in my success?
Shit...years down the road and I'm still struggling
Consumed by all this mess
Stressing over what is to some...
Life's simple tests
and it's so hard to do my best when I'm still focused on regrets.
So it seems that I have gone astray,
I'm off the path
and lost the way...
I'm not the picture perfect son
but am i supposed to act it out?
is this a play?
Let's check the reviews...
Brother says "I'm ashamed that he's my kin
and even worse...he don't act black
and when I stepped out in mess and in the streets
that damned fool didn't have my back"
There's obvious resentment
just cuz I picked a different path
but in the grand equation of life....
I'm still struggling with the math
Father says "I can't believe you're mine
You look like me and think that cuz you help others...that everything's just fine
But when I stand back and look at you
you seem content to be behind
You think you're being helpful
I just think you are too frail with a weak mind
I thought you would grow up
I tried to give you time
but if I'm waiting for a worthy son...
That's something I won't find."
One of the few men I look up to....doesn't appreciate
my way of showing love and helping other is unique not always great.
But when it comes to fucking over friends or family for individualness sake
I can't...I wouldn't fuck the world...I'd rather masturbate
Mother says "I don't know who you are cuz you sure as hell ain't no son of mine.
a disgrace to your father and i
Poetic Soul?
nah, garbage mind
and if I wasn't full of promise I would be halfway out of my mind
cuz your future looks mighty dim...
the light in you I cannot find."
Words that were meant to pierce...shot through the heart
stabbed in the back.
You see words are not just things that you can say and take them back
So before my reason leaves me and consciousness just fades to black...
I love you...
