I put this on my momma...
Current mood: distressed
First of all I want to give my condolances to Scott and Amanda on the loss of their mother. I attended a wake today and I saw them both calm and composed even though their mother was laying in front of them on display for all to mourn her. I don't kow them extrememly well, I never met their mother, I don't know how their relationship was, but I do know they were hurting and I'm so proud of them for being strong.
I know I wrote some shit like this already, but this is MYspace and I can write whatever the fuck I wanna write and y'all can choose whether or not you wanna read it. I'm going to get back into it.
Meanwhile in the back of my head as I am trying to be calm and maintain, I feel for them and the rest of their family, yet my thoughts can only think about what if. What if that was my mother up there? What if that was my sister and I standing there at the door shaking hands with friends and family members? Could I be strong? Could I be composed? Probably not and it hurts me to think of anything that would mean my mother is not here with me.
I had to leave. Partially because I paid my respects, partially because I didn't want to see anymore greiving, and partially because I kept thinking what if.
For those of you who still have your parents, especially your mother, make sure you take the time to appreciate them. Even if they get on you everyday about some bullshit, even if they ask you to do things you don't want to do, even if they embarrass you or hinder your social life, that is your mother. Your parents. The person(s) that gave you life, gave you everything you needed to get this far, those that would give their last just to make sure you were ok.
I called her. I told her I loved her. That I appreciated her. I couldn't say any other words, she knew why I called.
Aight. I'm good now, I needed to get that out. But for real, take heed to my word, make sure you let everyone in your life know how much you appreciate them because one day you could wake up...and they might not be there to share life with you anymore.
Its your boy. A mama's boy even. Tim Bassett. And I'm out to go hug on my moms.
Peace.
