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I'm sorry that I allowed myself to care. I'm sorry that I allowed myself to fall time and time again for your ways. I'm sorry that I trusted you. I'm sorry that I gave you my heart. I'm sorry that I let you break it. I'm sorry that I'm not the wife you think I should be. I'm sorry that you can't talk to me about things. I'm sorry that you have to run to her everytime you have a problem. I'm sorry that I let you break me down. I'm sorry that I allowed things to get this bad. I'm sorry that I let you put all the blame on me. I'm sorry that you took your love away. I'm sorry I'm not worth your love in your eyes. I'm sorry that I can do nothing to please you anymore. I'm sorry that myself as a whole isn't worthy of you in your opinion. I'm sorry if you feel that this is all just an act. I'm sorry I shed so many tears over you. I'm sorry I let you break my heart repeadtedly. I'm sorry it took me so long to see how you really are. I'm sorry I allowed you to pull the wool over my eyes. I'm sorry that I allowed you to build me up before you tore me down for the last time. I'm sorry you can't seem to trust me. I'm sorry she's so much better than me. I'm sorry I'm not in my 20s anymore. I'm sorry that I've allowed you to treat me this way over and over again. I'm sorry that I loved you and it meant nothing. I'm sorry I allowed you to make me so hollow feeling. I'm sorry you broke up our family. I'm sorry I'm not the wife you feel I should be. I'm sorry you can't tell me how you feel. I'm sorry for being blinded by you. I'm sorry for being oblivious to what's been going on. I'm sorry that in the blink of an eye things went from better to worse. I'm sorry you can't hang on through the bad times. I'm sorry til death do us part will never be an option. I'm sorry I was a mistake in your eyes. I'm sorry this is the beginning of the end. I'm sorry but time heals all wounds. I'm sorry you're not man enough to step up and take responisibility. I'm sorry you always seem to run from your problems. I'm sorry you can't hack it when times get tough. I'm sorry she's all you think about. I'm sorry you miss her when you're here. I'm sorry your family doesn't mean anything to you anymore. I'm sorry you don't have your priorities in order. I'm sorry you're taking the easy way out. I'm sorry you're running for the door. Most of all, I'm sorry that I DON'T LOVE YOU ANYMORE!!!!
Ok, you know what? Fuck this.. Enough with the pityfest here. I'm not the one @ fault here, you are. You're the one that bolted when times got bad. NOT ME!! You're the one that ran to the arms of another woman for comfort. NOT ME!! You're the one that's been lying all this time. NOT ME!! You're the one that doesn't know how to have an adult relationship. NOT ME!! You're the one asking for me to make so many sacrifices for you. NOT ME!! You're the one that seems to think you've done nothing wrong. NOT ME!! You're the one constantly criticizing. NOT ME!! You're the one making excuses for your actions. NOT ME!! You're the one getting so defensive about someone who's only a friend. NOT ME!! You're the one hiding things. NOT ME!! You're the one that broke my heart. NOT ME!! You're the one that questions your love. NOT ME!! You're the one that thinks the world will stop if you're not ready to go on with life. NOT ME!! You're the one with all these rules. NOT ME!! You're the one who wants to have their cake and eat it too. NOT ME!! You're the one constantly wanting me to apologize for things that are not even my fault. NOT ME!! You're the one who can't decide what they want. NOT ME!! You're the confused one here. NOT ME!! You're the one not showing the same respect as you want shown to you. NOT ME!! You're the one constantly knocking me back down evertime I get ahead. NOT ME!! You're the one that seems to hate every fiber of me. NOT ME!! You're the one that decided we should put on this front for everyone else. NOT ME!! You're the one talking to everybody else before deciding to fill me in on things that both involve and concern me. NOT ME!! You're the one who can't seem to figure out what you want out of life. NOT ME!! You're the one who thinks this is all an act. NOT ME!! You're the one who ripped this family to pieces. NOT ME!! You're the one who decided to call this quits. NOT ME!! You're the one who walked out the door time and time again to her. NOT ME!! You're the one who hurt me constantly. NOT ME!! NOT ME!! You're the one that decided it was time for you to play again. NOT ME!! You're the one that stays out all night doing god knows what with god knows who. NOT ME!! You're the one who caused yourself to lose my trust. NOT ME!! You're the one that took your love away. NOT ME!! You're the one that's gonna get the short end of the stick here. NOT ME!! You're the one that's not gonna realize what you've lost until it's gone. NOT ME!!
The time has come for me to stand up for myself. I'm done with all the lies. I'm done with all the hurt. I'm done with all the tears. I'm done wasting my time here. I'm done wondering day to day what the outcome is going to be. I'm done being criticized for everything I say and do. I'm done catching the brunt of every bad day you've ever had. I'm done with the unsanswered questions. I'm done with the constant battle. I'm done worrying about you constantly. I'm done with feeling like I have to compete for your love. I'm done sacrificing EVERYTHING for you. I'm done living this lie. I'm done shedding tears for you. I'm done LOVING YOU!!
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