Story I wrote a while ago.
This is a short story within a short story. The song that the lyrics are for is "Far Away" from Nickelback"
-He stares silently at the piece of paper before him. His hands holding the pen, unsure of what he is going to write.-
*My dearest Constance…*
-He scratches it out and rips the paper out of the pad. This continues for the next ten minutes, still at a complete loss for words. Music suddenly comes to mind, he turns from his desk, nearly knocking over the bottle of tequila and turns on his radio.-
This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too Long, Too Late
Who was I to make you wait?
-He begins to write again…-
*For my love Constance,
Words are difficult to find, I'm not even sure of what I am writing to you right now. I know that the past was difficult, and I know that without you in the present is even harder. I know I have hurt you in the past and I know that you have hurt me, yet somehow we have always gotten through things.*
-He pauses as the music plays and pours himself another shot of the Tequila.-
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore
-Tears begin to slide down his face as he throws back the drink, the burn no where near as intense as it was. He pours himself another as he continues to write…=
*I remember all the things that we have gone through together. From the very first time we met, how I looked into your eyes, and I knew at that moment that you were the one I was going to spend the rest of my life with. The first time we made love under the stars when I told you that I loved you. And how you cried after I said it from happiness. That was five years ago. Do you remember? Our first Christmas, when I had that Jewelry box made for you, I remember when you opened it and saw the ring. The sparkle in your brown eyes was so brilliant that time was instantly forgotten until you kissed me and said yes. Our first apartment, the BBQ's we had, the friends we had made. They all stand out so clearly in my mind at this moment.
I remember when I had fallen from the man that you fell in love with. Wrapped up in my own obsessions, and how you stayed as long as you could before it broke your heart. I remember as you hugged me, told me that you loved me and walked out of the door.*
On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
-He takes another shot, and stares ahead as if living in the past. He reaches towards his desk drawer and pulls an object out and looks back to the paper that he has been writing on. He takes up his pen and begins to write again…-
*I worked so hard during that time. Proving myself to you and most importantly to me. You stood by me, you gave me that chance again, and for that, I can never thank you enough. I became a glimpse of the man that you had fallen in love with, slowly building myself back to where I wanted to be. And you were so patient with me.*
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
you know, you know
-The tears began to stream openly down his face, he takes another shot and looks down to the gun he pulled out from his desk drawer, he continues to write…-
*It's been 4 months since you left me again. Four months since you last said "I Love You" Four months since you passed away from me. And I know that I shouldn't feel guilty about it. I wasn't the one driving that night, but dammit, if we had still been living together, you wouldn't have had to go home. You would still be here with me. My life has been so terribly hard, I have nothing left to hold me steady, no one to tell me that I will be OK. No one to love.*
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore
So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know
-The tears fall harder, the tequila running its course through his body. He wants nothing more than to find the strength to lift the gun and end his suffering. He can't even lift the pen to finish his thoughts. Despair has finally taken a complete hold of the young man. Uncontrollable sobs escape his chest as he passes out.
He dreams as the music plays… He dreams of Constance, dreams of the times that were happy. Dreams of the day at her funeral. His life with her going by in what seems an instant. He wakes up, and the song is playing again.-
I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
-He looks down to the gun and the bottle of tequila, pours himself another shot and holds the gun in his hands. He glances down at the paper he was writing on and noticed a different style of writing. It's not written by him, and the message is clear to him…-
*Live for me. I will always love you.*
-The writing is Constance's. The pretty bubbly writing that he loved so much. He begins to cry again, and vows to live his life for her.-
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go
